uh no no.
i'm a good kid.
i'm serious.


I wanted to be like you,
I wanted everything.
So I tried to be like you
&I got swept away.
i flipped through my photo album the other day, and i realized that time passes real fast. sometimes i feel like going back to the past and correct every mistake i've made.

&the other day, too, i talked to anne online, and started bringing up the old memories we had. i know i am not close to anne and all, and *shh*i backstabbed her when we were younger*shh*. it doesn't make sense now, when i am actually posting this in public. but oh wells, we do forgive those silly things we made in the past no? it is because anne &i are awesome. &somehow, i think anne's not that bad anyway.

we were talking about primary days - when we were close to each other with fiona. &somehow in the middle we drifted apart, because we were separated into different classes then and we seldom speak up to each other. but i am sure that we were close.

&yes, she told me that she used to hate edmen until she felt like killing him. that statement shocked me because, she got together with him (o.o i thought she hated him?)

it's weird because, somehow right now, we don't really talk anymore but we were really, really close last time. it freaks us out. a lot.

we got to catch up a little last weekend, and yes, that was how the conversation was brought up.

anne &i were in the same class
anne used to sing jigglypuff just to entertain me, and only me
in case you're wondering, yes, it's the pokemon thingy
anne &i were in the same tuition
anne &i used to follow fiona's car back
anne &i used to gossip ;p
anne &i used to not like edmen
anne &i dated edmen *bangs head*
anne &i backstabbed each other during lower secondary
anne &i are catching up again (:
anne &i have some similar thoughts
oh, not to forget, anne &i are awesome

it's rather weird now too, because i like crapping with her online nowadays although she's faraway in cairns and i, in kuala lumpur. jeez. don't ask me to calculate the distance because i know nuts about math now.


I didn't know that it was so cold
&you needed someone to show you the way
So I took your hand and we figured out that
When the time comes
I'd take you away
i didn't go to school today and yeah, as usual the same old lazy bum me. it's the last hari patriotisme i'll ever experience but i chose not to go, because i decided to go to li ling's house for a little revision.

&i did go to her house for revision!

&halfway through, we went to mcdonalds to take away! ohohoh, guess who drove?

the awesome me! (:

i quote li ling, "why do you always step on the brake?"
lol it's because i don't want to go fast? i am scared of going fast, like really. i almost hit a mercedes benz in puchong during one of my driving lessons and yes i learnt my lesson to never go fast. i admit that i am a chicken on the road.

it's for my own safety yo! i don't want to die early ):


If you want to,
I can save you.
I can take you away from here.
So lonely inside, so busy out there
&all you wanted was somebody who cares.
carlmann is addicted to astro on demand like how i was.

&oh, i think she's the best bestfriend i've ever gotten in my whole 17 years of life. &carlmann, thanks for being there with me through thick &thin. some friends leave you when you're going through a hard time, but she didn't. she sat beside me, thinking of what to say when i was facing rubbish. &i somehow realized that maybe it's fated for us to meet at 16, and share similar past. &when she's upset, i'll be happy. &when she's happy, i'll be upset. in other words, our current mood will always be the opposite of each other's. &sometimes, i feel hopeless for being unable to help her up.

i, just want her to be happy.


I'm sinking slowly so hurry hold me,
Your hand is all I have to keep me hanging on,
Please can you tell me so I can finally see
Where you go when you're gone.
dramas are dramatic. yes?

better go (: