Oooooooh. I am feeling quite happy because I finished Form 1 Living Skills a few days ago. Wheeeeee. And I just finished Form 1 History. I am feeling so like a Goddess.

Anyway, it's confirmed that I am going to Sri Cempaka next year already. Enough said, I am feeling so like a Goddess again. Ok. What is wrong with me.

Trials are coming soon. I mean not coming soon, it's in like a few days more. Goodness. I am still not ready. Jasmine, how can you manage to read a book in 1 day and a few hours? I just don't get it. I need minimum 2 hours to get used to the topics. Like seriously. I think it's because that I am slow.

Now, after God knows how long, I realized that reading can get me good grades. I wonder why I didn't manage to get 70+. I think I can get 70+. Maybe. If my commerce doesn't suck on the day when they have Living Skills. I am still not sure for History as Form 2 has MANY agreements. I tell you, I hate AGREEMENTS. So many agreements to be remembered. Hopefully I can finish my Form 2 History syllabus as soon before the day they have History. I am only starting my Geography next week.

Hopefully I can finish my Living Skills and History syllabus this week. I think I can do it, if I don't slack again. Jasmine is like...1987129837981723km faraway from me. I am only at the starting. Boo.

I always slack for no reason. After studying for like maybe 30 minutes, I will stop and do something else for awhile then study again. That goes for the whole day.

I must get 70+ for my trials. I want the Nintendo DS Lite. *sweat*

My dad said if I do well, then I'll get. I don't think I can get it though. I am so dumb. I must read and do many questions. My bad, for wasting time and slacks. Sigh.

Hopefully I can do well.

MATHEMATICS MY DEAR, HELP ME OK! 80 only.

Forget about Science. Science is such a retard to me. Yer.

I don't even understand Science.

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P/S: I update my Friendster profile yesterday already.




Edit: I have another 4 and a half more chapters to finish my Form 2 History. And I am still counting.

Labels: Depression

To Belinda fucking Kaur.

It's not that I wanna say something about you, but you've gone over the limits.

One, it's because of you why my phone was once confiscated. Yes, it was my fault. Others was ok, they didn't open their mouth to tell teacher that I brought my phone. Is your mouth that big? Well, it's ok. I hate you since you told Puan Chin that I brought my phone. Big fat mouth. And you don't even wanna admit when I asked you.

I was ok with you after that because I didn't bother anymore.

That was ok.

Today, you can come to me and say not to eat in class when you actually did an offense already? Don't try to be LC with me. I can be more LC to you. See who wins the game.

You are a prefect. Yes, I should respect you. The thing is, when you said stop eating in class, I did so. Then, I continue talking to Preeyangka. Just because my hands were down, does that mean I am still eating? I admitted that I was eating. But, I AM NOT EATING, fucker. The way you told me is like, you're gonna kick me out of the class because of that. After telling me not to eat, you came to my place and look at my hands. FOR WHAT!?

My fork is already in my tupperware. How can I be still eating, use your brains, miss. Of course, I got annoyed, so I gotta shout at you so that you UNDERSTAND that I stopped eating. Haha, ask me not to shout? Go die. And you keep on saying that I was eating. FARK. I've already said that I admit that I ate. And still, you wanna annoy me. Go on, bastard.

That is one of the reasons why I didn't like to be in Omega. I like that class because they have better teachers than we do, except for English. I'd rather have Puan Shireen.

I hate you.

Can you just stop making me to hate you more than ever?

I just don't like you.

Well, no. Haha. I hate you.

If you're a prefect who has done an offense, PLEASE, don't tell me to do whatever you ask, 'cause I won't listen to you. Well, actually, I know rules, just like a council. It's just that, I don't follow the rules. That's all. Belinda Kaur, you must know that we're not suppose to eat anywhere outside the canteen. Yes, I mean Jasmine's spot.

If you are Jane, then, I'll follow. 'Cause she doesn't do any offenses since she's a bloody council. She doesn't eat anywhere other than in the canteen. Even if I ask her to go somewhere to have our breaks. Seriously. She is better than you.

And, you, in my opinion, you're not eligible to be a prefect. Yea, although I am not a prefect. So sorry, but, that's my opinion.

Don't be LC, 'cause, I will be more LC than you.

Call me rebellious? Oh, so!? I don't care, dude. You can say whatever you want. No matter what you say, I won't listen to whatever you'll say about me, dude.

I know you're smarter than me in academic wise, but, still, you don't need to talk and act in that way. I hate it.

P/S: My my, I didn't know that I was THAT daring to do that. Goodness. And no, am not talking about this. Am talking about another thing. Hopefully she wouldn't find out. Shh.... Because if she does, I'll be in a big trouble.


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Edit @ 1852: And oh, I have to read another 4 more chapters of Form 1 Living Skills and I am done with Living Skills. This is my first time reading for exam. I mean for a book. Behbehbeh! And it's kinda one of my achievements this year though. Hehehehehe.

Labels: Rants

I have to agree with Jasmine to curse the government. Because of them, without any reasons [fine. There are good reasons why they do this] they go hunting for tuition teachers. I mean, out of all time, why can't they go after them after PMR. PMR is like less than 100 days and now, the teachers are forced to close down their classes for some time. Urgh. I hate this kind of situation.

I'll be suffering for months. Hopefully everything will be alright somehow. I need tutors desperately. Thank God I'll be having Math & Science tutors with me. Luckily I don't go to classes but the tutors come to me. Or else! I should be dead now and my picture is displayed on the obituary section in The Star. Lots of thanks to the mass communication department of The Star.

Without wasting time about the newspaper, I should proceed to the government again. Why can't they think rationally? What about the students who'll be sitting for PMR and SPM? SPM is the bigger bash compare to PMR. UPSR is nothing. All you need to know is just to read, write and count.

PMR is something where you'll have to crack your head like nuts. The government doesn't know, no? What else, they want us to be intellectual genius brilliant and a long list to be listed out. They want everything, but, how? We need tutors to guide us throughout this hard moment. [I think I can study by myself if I really put effort but I can't be bothered]

What about the SPM batches? They're sitting for the final public exam soon. Why can't you think for them? What about Biology, Chemistry and UNNECESSARY Physics? Physics is hard. Add Maths is hard. I know Young Min can do them, but, others, how! Their SPM is like in Nov-Dec, and now, in sudden, tuition classes are closed down, thanks to you. Gr. Evil government. I mean, ANGELIC government.

They are ashamed for things. About cars with "Made In Malaysia, Japan technologies". No one wants Malaysian goods. Think for us! We could be the batch who'll make other countries' residents to have faith and trust in our country's goods. With a condition that you must permits the teachers to give private tuitions. Ok, what am I talking about?

Whatsoever, I just want tuitions. I don't want to be stuck at home. I feel bored. I rather go out for classes than to sit at home studying by myself. I am lazy enough for not putting effort to study at home. Yea, I am talking about myself. I can do something about it, but I am not putting any effort. I guess I don't have the intentions to score. But, I must study for Sri Cempaka. I don't know how, but, I must get some A's somehow.

I don't think I can get any A's. It's like too hard for me to pass. I can't even pass the school's exams, what about PMR. That's why I need tutors. Government punya kakitangan, I mean the polices, anyone who's under government, understand or not! Must have some sympathy towards us! Let the teachers who are giving private tuitions go.

And I promise, Malaysia will get conquered by the British again. I bet life would be better. Education would be better. School life would be 10x better than the current one. And we wouldn't need tuitions, 'cause I know, British teachers would be better. :)

That's what I think.

I can't assure this for 100%. Maybe for a 70%. Beh.

And now, thanks to the bloody government without thinking twice for bombing tuition centres. Now I would be bored at home doing nothing. I will not have V Sam's class anymore. Sigh. My dad planned to ask V Sam to come to my house to teach me. And I was like what the heck. Seriously. I don't think she would come. I think my dad has gone insane. I know it's for my own good, but, no way! So, I told him that maybe Encik Khalil would help. And he said, ok. I was like, he isn't thinking properly, what is wrong with his dysfunctional brains!

Without tuitions, we'll die, 'cause some of the school teachers are not even good! Honestly, I am not trying to say bad things about the school teachers, but, I am being honest. Beh. Tuition teachers are normally better than the teachers in school. Right!

I can do nothing about it unless I am one of the worker in British Government Centre then I'll come and conquer the whole Malaysia all over again. That's how the world will be. Wars, wars & more wars. Or maybe, the Japanese would treat us like Gods.

Ok sorry for the time wasted on "politics". Next subject, little pigs.

To everyone; can you join Facebook, and leave Friendster? I can assure you guys that Facebook is like 100x better than Friendster. Darn Kumuta, Jasmine and Geraldine. They deleted the invitation email to join Facebook from me. Darn them. Gr. Hah. Whatever, it's their wish though. Anyway, join Facebook, ok!

I doubt that Facebook has more fakers than Friendster. As what you see nowadays, there's people who have accounts starting from 1 - 100 and A - Z. They're all the idiots who want the world to become like them; lala. Yea, Chea, I know you're smiling, 'cause I hate lalas too. I don't like vintage as well. Well, not really. But yea. Well, I think I am retarded now without education. Although I am one, I think the lalas are worst.

Ok, what is up with me and the lalas!

Kick them.

Ok. Now. Now. NOW. NOW.

Off I am to study!

& complete my idiotic homework that I never do for...ages.

Labels: Rants

Too many kissing scenes in 2 days. I think I got enough of them. I watched Spiderman 3 last Friday. Yes, I know, I just watched it after months. What to do, I was supposed to watch it duing the 2 weeks break. But, due to some things, I didn't get to watch it. I watched Spiderman 3 at my cousin's place. So, yea. And I just watched Harry Potter 5 yesterday with my uncle, grandma, and cousins at the IOI Mall.

I shall say both of the movies are rather disappointing. Sigh. Seriously, I am not into watching movies anymore. I've no idea why though.

Ok, I think I better stop talking about movies. I think they're quite boring. No offence, but, to me, it is. HP5 isn't that bad actually. Spiderman...he's quite ugly. I like the sand man, not Spiderman. Eh?

Anyway, I better go off and study now. Behbehbeh. I am studying for Cempaka, not for anything else. Sigh. Lalalalalalalala.

And oh, from today, Woo Hann Lam is my "boss", and I am his "invention". My boss is not treating me nicely.

He is darn funny, lah, can!

Labels: Multimedia, Rants

To the ones who said that I'll nag if you tell me your oh so unneccessary secret, thanks for your compliment. Thank you very much.

It's not like I wanna talk to you too. It's not like I care if you have 12937189237198237 sex partners with you. Seriously, it's none of my concern. As what I am today, I came to know that your friends doesn't care even if you had sex. Seriously. Excuse my language, but, seriously.

That is what I came across and realize. I realized many things today, but, I don't bother to change them at all. Be logical. No one cares even if you have a few boyfriends.

That is why I stopped telling my boyfriends stories. And I've no interest in them anymore basically. Boys, boys, and more idiotic boys. I can still survive without them, and I plan to be single throughout my whole life.

I trust no one except me. I know there's loads of backstabbers in front of my eyes. I don't care. Live your own life till you die in a tragic death for bein' fake. If you don't like me or whoever you dislike, just be straight forward with your own points and thoughts. Just don't act so goodie when you're actually not. Ok, I am being honest now. I am mean myself to everyone. Since there's no truth in one's personality, so, why must I be nice to you guys, when you guys actually, backstab?

Let us be equal ok?

Even there's sisters and brothers around me, I can't trust them 100%. Maybe it's a 10% or maybe a lil more. It'll never touch a 50% I can say.

Enough said, I know that most of you hate me now. Thank you very much for you making me lonely and be myself. I am happy with that. Without your characters, I wouldn't be what I am now.

To those who actually says you love me or anything something like that, thank you, if it's fake. If you mean it, then I love you too. And sorry, I don't backstab. I don't wanna face this kinda nonsense people in Puteri. This is what Puteri about. Puteri isn't a school with nice people anyway. Well, actually, everywhere.

Since I was ever a kid, I've never have a cliche of friends. I didn't have a constant gang to "hang around" with. I am this lucky. No, I am not being sarcastic. My sarcasm is not good as Jasmine's. Ok, I don't care again.

I'll make sure I get out from Puteri next year.

Why? I'm childish? Up to you to think who am I. I am annoying. I am this irritating. I can irritate you till you grow an egg on your flat tummy. Go die. :)

And oh, I don't nag, for your fucking information. It's just for you to do the right thing, instead of flirting. It's good if you lost your virginity to billions of guys. Not like I care. I just tell you what I can, so, it'll be better for you. As a friend, it's my responsible to tell you a word or so.

I bet you won't be nice somehow. I don't have genuine and nice friends. I don't care, again. I love food, and food is my best friend.

I think I better stop about this. Let me go to the next subject.

I met a sadistic paper today. Seriously. When I say sadistic, I mean it! The paper was really sadistic. It'll be happy if I get many crosses. Babi fool.

Anyway, I am in KL now, and will be back in Seremban tomorrow. Damn sedih, my dad isn't here. So boringgg.

Jasmine is right. It's either I choose one, there's no 2 easy choices in one. It's either I study and get into Cempaka, or, I don't study and not get into Cempaka. There's no I don't study and get into Cempaka. So, I think I better study like crazy for a few months. It's for everyone's happiness. If I am not in school, everyone will be happy. 'Cause I wouldn't be there. Maybe, I'll be happier in Cempaka, since there's loads of people says about me.

I am veryyyy sombong. Thank you for your compliment, Amanda Woo & Edwina Tan. Learn not to be judgemental on their covers, ok? If you really think that I am sombong by looking at me, then, go die. I can accept it, if you say that I am sombong by knowing me. Hahahahhaa. I bet, 9823749283743294091283923749827345 [all] of you says I am sombong, personally. Right, right, right!? Well, be honest, ok! Muah.

And so sorry, it's not that I want to go to Cempaka. My dad applied me for Cempaka, then I knew that I have to take the admission exam. Boo. And, it's not that I wanna boast about me going to Cempaka. Whatsoever, I can assure that the teachers in Cempaka are better than Puteri.

I am going to Sri Cempaka, not Cempaka International.

That's if I am 100% going. For now, I am not sure yet. My dad said he'll send, but I don't know. My dad is always saying different things everyday, so I won't know.

God oh God, hopefully my dad will send me to Cempaka next year. Hopefully he's not talking nonsense. Hopefully I'll get minimum 5A's. Amen.

Labels: Friends, Rants

Tralalalalala.

I am basically accepted into Cempaka. Hehe.

Guess what? My Malay marks is actually higher than my Mathematics, whereas the paper was like quite okay. Screw Mathematics. I got 60+ for Mathematics, and 70+ for Malay. Seriously, I was expecting that my marks for Mathematics would be higher than the 2 language paper. Hehe. Written examinations okay! I wonder why I did badly for Mathematics. Gr. But I think Form 3 Mathematics is okay, excluding Algebraic factorization and Trigonometry.

I hate factorization. I haven't learn Trigonometry. Gr. Maths, oh, Maths. Why!? 60+ is like a fail to me. I thought I wasn't accepted. Seriously. My dad said I am accepted. Whee!

After that, my dad asked me which school I want, international or national. I don't know, lah! Then, he said national is better. I hate national school, lah, can!? 'Cause later on in college or something, I'll be learning them in English, and it'll take time for me to get adapted to the language they teach with. Just like what happened when I just got into Form 1 after Year 6. I didn't know what is what when they teach me Science and Mathematics in English after 6 years of Mathematics and Science in Malay.

Then, I was used to with Malay till my marks for Malay is like way better than my English. Beh. I think I'll get something bad for English. Sigh. Damn sedih.

Anyway whatsoever had happen, I am quite happy with this, 'cause my dream came true; passing the test.

And my dad said I've no interest to study or something like that. Gr. Thanks to the babi teacher who set that paper so hard, with some Form 4 questions in it. I think I got 9 mistakes in Mathematics. Sheesh. I think I better study now, 'cause I really want to get into Cempaka. My dad has yet to respond to send me to Cempaka.

Sri Cempaka. Sigh. Not Cempaka International School. Sigh.

P/S: I know I've no talents, but whatever, lah. I'll learn something. I know Jas Min Nee now is like bugger-ing. But seriously, I'm not sure yet. Hopefully my dad will send me there. God blesses me.

Labels: Cravings, Depression, Rants, School

I seriously think there's this thing called as hypocrites and backstabbing. Without thinking twice, I know I've been back stabbed many times. Whatsoever happened, it's not gonna affect me. I mean, backstabbing and hypocritical suits you, then, go ahead.

Don't try to act so nice in front of me, thank you. No, you're not offending me. You're just making me annoyed. Whatsoever you do, again, doesn't matter. You're just making your life as hell. Why can't you be genuine? Be genuine is not that bad actually.

To be honest, no one likes you, ok? [Although there's like millions of people who detest me. I don't care anyway] You spoke nonsense which is so not true whereas nonsense is supposed to be crap about Jane and I to your mom. Woah, that's a record. I am happy for you. You, as a probate in school, eat in class, which against the school rule. You're a probate because your mom is a teacher, and she knows many people who are teachers themselves. Please, don't think you're suitable to be a prefect.

Although I am not a prefect and I've no rights to say this, but I've to say this. You don't suit to be a prefect or a probate at all. Stop being annoying and kick your own life. No one cares for you even if your butt grow eggs.

I still don't understand you. Since when I want you to photo state your friggin' notes!? I can do that myself. Seriously, your notes aren't that helpful, so, don't be proud first. No one is dying before you do. If I have yet to say this, now, I am saying. Jane is my godsister. Jas Min Nee is my godsister. They're closer to me than you do. You're nobody to me. Even if you say I am a bitch at the back of me, I won't terasa. But, if they do, maybe I would. It's just like, if you die, I am happy. If they die [TOUCH WOOD], I'll cry my arse off, can?

And whatever you did on the class's Merdeka Board is so fuggly. Not forgetting the don't-know-what Visit Malaysia 2007 piece. Gr. You're not beautifying the class's board for God's sake.

No one likes it. Why not you grow vegetables on your arse? You'll look prettier. Ghosts will love you.

Anyway, I don't blame you because you are born to be a hypocrite and a backstabber. I wonder what'll happen to your things and your reputation next time? Hm... I wonder... Hm...

If you want to be my friend, then, be a proper friend.

I think it's better if I stop saying things about that babi girl.


Does that sounds familiar to you? It's actually from the Barbie girl song thing. Heh.

I sang that during library and Jas Min Nee was like wth. I said them in like those original lyrics. And she was like HUH. And I was humming some unknown song 'cause I was bored and Jas Min Nee was like wth again. Haha. I love her loads. And I love Jane too.

Pray for myself. Pray pray pray. I might get to know about the results from Cempaka tomorrow. I am so scared. The faster the better. Not only that, I'll be sitting for UNSW's English test tomorrow. Babi fool. I am so scared, ok. Hopefully I'll hit my target this year. I got a ciplak credit last year. I wonder what will I get this year. Hm...

Thinking, thinking, and more thinking.

I think I've no intention to study, lah. I am slacking again. Goodness praise myself. I am slacking, again. I am feeling babi lazy to study. Hopefully I will study later tonight. Sigh.

I went to Genting last Saturday and came back yesterday. Hehe. When I was walking around in First World Plaza yesterday, I saw baskin Robins so I wanted to eat ice-cream since for ages I didn't touch ice-cream. When I was looking for Cookies n' Cream, it wasn't there! So, being the unlogical me, I was thinking to myself stupidly that Jas Min Nee should be the one who ate them all. Fine, it was just for fun lah. Jas Min Nee and I have a few things in common and it took me God knows how long to realize them. We love Cookies n' Cream from Baskin Robins and Dior. Wheeeeeeee~!

P/S: Actually, I don't care if you backstabbed or whatsoever. I was bored so I just blogged about it. WHO IS FREE THIS SATURDAY!? I want to see you guys. I mean just for my final weekend in KL before getting stuck in Seremban for 3 months. Thanks to PMR. Huh. Hopefully I can get into Cempaka and get A's for exams. Sigh. Life is life.

P/P/S [For Jas Min Nee]: Tomorrow I'll be bringing tuna again.

Labels: Cravings, Friends, Rants

Yay yay yay yay yay!

Am gonna sit for the admission test into Cempaka tomorrow. I'm not sure whether I get to go into the school, but whatever. Let me try. I am still nervous. Hopefully I'll get into the school. I'll be absent to school tomorrow and 3 hours in Cempaka. Shiat, okay. 3 papers; Malay, English & Mathematics.

Fark.

I am so lost in Algebraic Formulae. Seriously, I am so lost in that bloody chapter. I wonder what'll happen tomorrow. What about Malay!? I am so bad in those subjects. Not only that, they wanna see my results too. I am so dead. I should have study long time go, but I didn't. I am so dead. I bet I can't get into that school. I am so stupid.

Wish me luck and pray for me aye. Thanks thanks thanks.

I've been studying for this week since last Sunday. Okay. I am serious for now. I feel guity if I don't study minimum an hour a day. I need to study then I would feel okay. And I think I am growing pimples because of that. Seriously.

V Sam's class yesterday was fine. There's this part when V Sam explained about Anak Bumi Tercinta, where they have sisters fighting scene and all. Don't know who Jarah bought sotong kering or something for her younger sister, Matain. And I was mumbling that none of my sisters get me things and Jasmine was saying that no one gives her too and then I gave her that look. And then she was like, "OH! Got. My sister gives me tuna, no, sardine." And I was like insisting it was tuna and she said, "No, my sister calls it sardine."

Yes, I know. I was too messed up. Maybe I should 100% stop onlining. Maybe it'll help me to score higher for exams. Jane said I am studying like crazy. I was like heck no 'cause I am so stupid to actually not score good grades like Jasmine. Sigh.

If I am Jasmine, YAY.

Anyway, I actually don't have the urge to online. I think I better go study for the admission test tomorrow as I am so bad in mathematics. Hopefully they'll ask about Form 2, not Form 3. I hate Algebraic Formulae. Let us just hope that there's not questions relating to Algebraic Formulae. I am so scared if I don't get accepted. I'll dieeeeeeee.

Dear God, please bless me with smart brains for tomorrow. I really wanna get into Cempaka. Amen.

Okay. Don't ask why is my title "Olivia". It's 'cause Olivia asked me to post pictures. So. Here I am, on the same day as the previous post.

From my mom!

Both of them love me!

Teacher's Day '07.

I've...no idea.

Weeru said that I look like I wanna hold Chantri's hand.

We have nothing to do with each other. Please don't think something dirty.

We love each other!

When we were bored on the way to tuition.

When I was bored in a capalang hotel.

I miss my hair.

I'll be back as soon as I can! I promise!

Labels: Rants

To the ones who hate me like nobody's business and hypocrites; HAHAHAHAHA. TOO BAD. I'm not going to any international schools or whatever schools they have. You're stuck with me till Form 5! Waka. Feel like puking when seeing my face? Go ahead. I'll be glad. Go and puke blood.

To PhooiSze & Cheachea; I know lah! I wanted to go to some school in KL. Seriously. Sigh. So susah, lah!


Parents-teachers day was okay yesterday. THANK GOD PUAN SHIREEN SAID SOMETHING GOOD. Gosh, I'll have to study harder. But the laziness in me is spreading rapidly. I can't study. Seriously, I need to sit beside JasmineKPK for a day then I'll have the mood to study. No, I am not joking, although it's lame.

I went home at about 8am yesterday after my dad came for the event. And I suppose I am the earliest who went home. Datin didn't want to give me the permission slip to leave the school. Then my dad talked a few words. Alas, I left school. On the way home, well, not home. To some kopitiam, my dad talked and screwed me because I did bad in this. But to me, I think I do quite okay, 'cause normally I get D's. I mean, a D. Not D's. This time, it's an achievement to me, 'cause I did not score any papers a D. But to my dad, he still wants 9A's. He's crazy.

I am not Kiru nor Jasmine. The way he wants it is as if I am Kiru or Jasmine. Wtf. He wants minimum 5A's for PMR. I don't think I can get any A's. I'm afraid now. I think my dad's right. If I don't do well, I may not get accepted to any schools. But, I don't care anymore, 'cause the fees are too expensive and I can't afford.

Since I did kinda bad for this term, there goes my internet and laptop. He said he's cancelling Streamyx. I don't care actually. JasmineKPK, I'll need your help to sign in thoroughly to keep my email account going on with its life. I trust you. So, *smiles*.

That shows that I can stop blogging anytime. I'll blog when I get to go online. Maybe after PMR. Sigh. Bye internet my love.

Anyway, I went to Taylor's College today to check things out. OMG. The place is effin huge can! I was nearly lost in that huge university college! I wanted to go crazy when the person in charge of the student services talked to me about Australian International, Sri Garden and Garden International. I wanted to die. Like seriously.

No matter what to enter Taylor's College or any colleges in town, I'll have to go through Year 11. WHY GOD WHY!? Sigh. It's too late for me to get into Garden International. If I go, I'll have to start Year 10. And then if I go, there's no difference for me to study in a local school and in an international school, except for History. Why?

In Form 4, we'll be learning about the babis Nabis and those Malay history kinda thing, I think. In Garden, I don't think I'll need to study anything about Malaysia except the whole bloody Europe. But oh whatever, who says I'll study History?

The person-in-charge recommend Garden International. He said it's one of the oldest international school other than Alice Smith. WTF. And it'll be hard for any teenagers who wish to get into Garden International 'cause there's too many students already. Sigh. WHY LA. Anyway, I don't think I can go to any schools. Sigh. My darling Cempaka, you're my only hope now. Please love me and I'll love you back.

By the way, I am cancelling my intentions upon going to Australia to further my studies. Enough said, I plan to study up to Form 5.

Sigh. Life is life.

I know JasmineKPK is happy. And so is V-wu. And JaneYeow. Jasmine, we sama-sama go to the same school next time okay? That's if I am smart enough to get 5 credits for every papers in SPM. Sigh. Weeru, I don't wanna go to Taylor's with you can? Very expensive la. I can't afford. It's averagely about RM18000 per year for Science Stream students who wants to study South Australian Matriculation [SAM]. I don't wanna go to Australia anymore. I am staying back in M'sia. Happy? And gonna study unneccessary History. Sigh. Malaysia is MALAYsia.

I'll have to bear with it or get off. Who says I don't wanna get off? I think I wanna go back to China and stay there and speak pure Chinese like sharng-sharng-sharng. We Malaysian say them as shang-shang-shang. Try to make there's a difference between sharng and shang. Okay? Got that? Yes, no?

Stopping about collegiate and nonsense.

After Taylor's, I went to the faraway 1 Utama. I went there to buy things; present, present, and more presents. Actually, they're all early presents, since everything are on sale now. I went there with a FCUK-apparel-affordable-amount-of-money and came back with a Roxy-wallet-affordable-amount-of-money. Saw the difference? FCUK is about...maybe RM200+ and Roxy wallet is about...RM69 like that. Not sure. But I know I have less than RM100. Sigh.

WHAT I BOUGHT. I bought a casual dark blue colored collared t-shirt and a...what is that called? Some weird colored (not that weird. it's like, a mixture of purple and white and another color. i dont know, but yeah) collared long sleeve [those people who wears them to work] for my dad's upcoming birthday in August. I know it's a long time to go, but, everything is on sale now. The shirts I bought for my dad is like...supposed to be RM100+ each, but I can get it less than RM100 now. And, I bought something for Jane's birthday. I KNOW THAT THIS IS ANOTHER WAY OMG LONG TO GO. But. As I said, everything's on sale now. So I bought something for Jane.

For Jasmine: Don't worry. This year yours will be Miss Whatever cheap fucking priced things 'cause I was broke at that time. Next year will be better, okay? Sorry aye.

I don't know whether should I get something for Young Min. Maybe I should. But I've yet to see him, so... I don't know. I'll try to get something next time when I see him.

Joe Vin's birthday is coming up too. I don't know what to get for him. Headaches everytime! Life is life.

Whatever still, I've to think what to get for them. This is a crisis, can!?

Choong Phooi Sze and Goh Chea Choong, when is your birthday? I think I'll have to give both of you eat ice-cream only for your birthday treat. Sad eh? Don't be okay? I'll include a spank and a slap. See, altogether costs a lot! So, be happy, okay? (okay, i better get ready to be bombed by Choong Phooi Sze now. Chea is gonna kick me)

I didn't even get to buy the things I want today too. I wanted to buy something from Forever 21 and others, but I didn't get to 'cause I wanted to save money, money & more money. So in the end I didn't get anything for myself.

I don't care atually. Things are just those non-livings. So, whatever. Anyway, my dad bought me things from Singapore. I'm gonna see my Elle sunglasses, Ralph Lauren sweater and other things which I don't have a good memory to remember. I can't wait! And so good, my brother is getting a 12.1mp Sony camera. Sigh. I am so jealous! But whatever. My brother can lend me his. It's not like I care. I have a 5.0mp camera for my own since I was Form 1, so, anything will do. I don't care, since I am not a photographic person anymore.

And guess what!? My dad actually scolded my brother for telling me that my dad bought him a 12.1mp camera 'cause he thinks we'll fight. EXCUSE ME. It's not as if we'll use forks and knives to fight. He has no brains, sometimes. Whatever, lah. I know my brother is now better than me. Seriously, in sudden out from nowhere, he became 983192371910293872364912849028 times better than me. I am darn shock for that, can! He is a slow learner, actually. I am happy for him. :)

I want my brother to go to Australia and become someone when he returns in 2831923 years time! I'll be extra happy although I don't get to go. It's very expensive, lah. That's why I am giving up hope. If I go, my brother won't get enough money to go to Australia.

See, I am so good. NOT.

I know I am not good enough to be someone here in Malaysia. So I don't care anymore.

JasmineKPK's character is terrible according to her mom.

MY DISCIPLINE IS THE WORST AMONG ALL. That's according to my dad and uncle. Happy!?

I must ace in every paper. Sigh. WHY LA THE HOPE ON ME NOW. Let my brother be smart then good la. It's on the way now. So, I'll be fine soon, with screwings.

I DON'T CARE WEIH! I slacked for more than 2 years already. I think I must really do some hard core studying now. I must force myself to study! Anyway, I studied 2 chapters of Science in a week. See how slow am I! JasmineKPK has gone all the way to North Pole from South Pole and I'm only at the sea. Not even at the tip of Africa! I better get going rapidly in academics. I suck at it and I'm gonna get minimum straight B's for trials! [I don't think I can get even all B's. I bet there'll be C's. *heart breaks*]

JASMINEKPK! GUIDE ME IN SCIENCE OKAY! I'M LOST AT CHAPTER 7 & 8 IN SCIENCE. What the heck is electric all about?

Wish me luck people. Trials are on the 13th of August, if I am not mistaken. There's people who said that trials are on the 6th of August. So which is which? Tell me please! I love you guys! Muah!

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YAY. God bless me. Muah!

I'm not gonna stay back for any activities anymore! Yay! Well, not really. Except Wednesday anyway.

It's friendly because I'm not a committee member for Scrabbie anymore. Yeepi. Don't know whatsoever crap happened. I didn't bother to know. So who cares. Even I myself don't care. =.=

Seriously.

Whatever still.

Life is life.

=.=

I so love volley ball. Volley ball is fun although I know nuts on the rules. I wanna play volley ball 'til I'm satisfied die. Hopefully I can play more of volley ball during the next lessons of PE. It's so FUN like ooh la la.

NOW I AM SO FRIGGIN' SCARED! My dad and mom will be coming to school for the open day tomorrow. OMGSHOMGSH. I don't know what'll happen. I wonder. It's my mom's first time to come for the open day. Seriously. My mom isn't the one who's supposed to come and collect my report card. YER.

I am still scared. I fear there'll be something bad. Since I am stupid.

Anyway, I still don't get what they mean. Since Weeru said there's smart people everywhere, so, means there's stupid people; me. Okay. Weeru! I know that I am stupid, please, and God's sake, you're insulting me. :)

Ngeh.

Anyway. Whatsoever. I better go now. I am still alive, and it might take a long time before I blog again. As what Kyean said, trials are coming and PMR is in less than 100 days. It's so fast! I still thought it's about 150 days. Or maybe more. Sigh. Now is July and time against me. GR.

Time flies anyway.

Jasmine and me seldom speaks. Weeru is becoming more lesbian. I don't mean the real lesbian, of course. Jane and I are pretty close. And me crying for a bastard. Jasmine calls Leon a tut ing tut er. Things happened. Hah.

And I wore 2 watches to school today. Thanks to JasmineKPK. Haha. She terambil my watch home yesterday.

Anyway. I shall bid my goodbyes to my stupid blog today; which has a lot of broken English and my so influent NOT English, curses, stupid emo posts, darling Lee Wan, Heaven's Tree, outings, and my random thoughts. And sarcasm, although my sarcasm skills aren't good as Jasmine, yet. I love you. :)

I would wanna thank to my main lifes. I love you guys loads especially my Jasmine & Jane.

P/S: Pray hard for me so I can get into the school I want next year. I'm checking out the information this Saturday.

P/S: I asked Jasmine should I die. Her answer was a good one, "If you die, you can't go to AISM, and I can't see you, and you can't see Lee Wan, and you can't see me, and you can't get Baskin Robins ice-cream." Well, seriously. I love Jasmine alot! For once, she's being logic.

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Mind my title.

WHATSOWHATEVER IT IS.

Today is some useless Scrabbie competition. I regretted for staying back. Gr.

But!

I went for lunchie with Jasmine and all the Omega gang. I feel ike I am a fool again. Don't know what happened we came into PS and Chea's topic. =.= Jasmine was like, "WTFMAN" when I told her their age. See, PS & Cheachea, people shocked eh.

I went on tension and I was in a mess sine it's my first time controlling [kinda]. =.=

The Form 5s don't wanna coorporate with me. Seriously. They were all like, "Okay" at first then they don't wanna play, 'cause as what JasmineKPK said, minimum 4 and maximum 8 to a board when they have only like 2 players, excluding the hypocrites who wanna play but then do their add maths homework. Whatever, lah. Not my fault also. JasmineKPK just wants the score sheets.

GRRRR.

I was really blur again. =.= As I can speak English fluently not. When I speak, I'll stop a few times somewhere. See. I am bad at speaking. I wish I can speak Korean. So I wouldn't stop somewhere. And heck, I nearly pronounce words wrongly.

Life is life.

Why must I face the phases? Why does he want to treat me like this? All the time he'll seek for sympathy. Then he'll be putting the blame on me indirectly. He'll be saying what about him and crap, when he made me cry for so long already. He's not even awakeyet for what he has done. There's no reason why I must forgive him. Okay. If you/anyone has found a few reasons, tell me. Then I'll think about it on why must I forgive him.

He blocked me. Okay. He ignored me all the while. He has a few girlfriends. He is not aware that I'll get jealous. He gives those suspicious feeling to me that he has a few girlfriends. And, you'll think that he still has feelings for his ex girlfriend. It's so sad for me okay.

It's hard for me to go on without him. He said he needs to cool down. The easiest way is of course to stop being friends and go on with life. He'll be happy, and I'll be happy too, right? Both of the parties are happy. So. Like that. Sigh. He won't change into a better person, and he won't accomplish his promises he has made. He's always like that, and I can do nothing. As JasmineKPK says, "Life is life".

Sigh. V Sam's tomorrow.

I am feeling lazy.

I hate people.

Seriously.

I don't like having friends that..they'll speak to me when they have no one to talk to. I am very neutral. I don't care if you don't wanna speak to me. JUST DON'T BE HYPOCRITES. Buggersial. Go die if you wanna be hypocrites, can? Especially Leon.

He is a natural bitch.

Prologue

I changed my blog's url due to some reason, like, I don't want my dad to know my blog, 'cause I stupidly went to my blog using his personal computer. The history in his browsed sites is still there. So. Yeah.

Chapter 1

Scrabbie is awesome. :)

I'm gonna stayback tomorrow for it and that's it. I don't need to stay for games. YAY. YAY YAY YAY WHEE WHEE~.

No volleyball for me! If I am in netball, then, I must forget about the Scrabbie lah. Jasmine said I am one of the committee members. =.=

I went on thinking, "am I one?" AM I ONE?

Whatever still. I don't think I can or am contribute/ing something for the society though. That shows I am useless much. Right, Jasmine? Anyway. I am still hyper over Scrabbie tomorrow. I don't need to get burnt by the ugliest sun ever.

Open Day's this Friday. I wonder who can can be able to collect it. Problem & stress again. WHY LA MUST I FACE THESE UNNECESSARY THINGS. Transport la, nonsense la, Leon la, whatever la.

Haih. JasmineKPK... (W)

Chapter 2

YOU AHHH. JASMINEKPK! Happy 'cause I am not going to another school. But I am sad for not be able to go. Jasmineeeee. Never mind lah. Don't be surprised if I go to Science Stream although I desperately want Arts. That's the only thing I can do if I remain in Puteri and I'll go to loads of this Prinsip Perakaunan classes. Sigh.

I am gonna die all over again without fail. I keep on dying a fool. GR. For a hopeless bastard and everything. GR. Go die can?

IF AISM CAN'T... Cempaka, can? If Cempaka can't... SRI GARDEN! :)

I know Phooi Sze & Cheachea is smiling now. Hahahahahah. Go and kick that fella out, can? Phooi Sze & Cheachea, hopefully both of you understand who I am talking about. I mean the one who's lame and thinks both of you will get jealous. Hahahahahha. It's so lame, okay? I know Phooi Sze is quite pist off with my dad's thinking. But. Oh well. He's my dad. Gr. Let's see what'll happen.

Chapter 3

I just found out that...I was always a fool to Leon. What I don't understand is...if he didn't want me, why did he asked me to be his girlfriend. ME AND HOW NAIVE I AM.

He loved Eileen more than anything. He don't want to admit. He's not the one as before. He's not the one who'll bug me. I guess I'll really have to let him go. But it's hard for me because I grew in him for more than a year. It's hard for me to let go of him.

The reasons why I decided to leave him is because of my dad. I don't want him to face what I am facing. My dad is very...I don't know which word to use, but I know he's very harshful. He can go to someone's house like that and talk to the person's parents about what happened and all. I don't want the same thing to repeat all over again. It's very sad. I'll be losing a friend, like how I lose Edmen easily like that.

I was really sad for that. My dad, he does whatever he wants. He don't care who you are. I mean, although I am a bit like him, I don't go to people's place and talk like that. He even made Edmen's mum cried. Sigh. I regret for everything. Maybe I shouldn't get together with Edmen? Maybe I shouldn't talk to him often? Hah. Everything also like that.

I don't want guys anymore, lah. Their profession is just to make girls cry.

JasmineKPK is the best.

Chapter 4

Whatever it is, life is life. I've no more ways to go anymore. This is the final year of lower secondary that I am gonna go through. I've to bid them goodbye as soon as I finish my PMR. It's not that I want, but, I'll have to. Sigh.

Hopefully I can enter Cempaka. Sigh. But it'll take two years. I've no idea. I don't care. I am going to KL this Friday, and then go to the schools I wanna check out this Saturday. I really have to bid goodbye to Puteri. Not Jasmine & Jane of course. I'll kick my own ass if I do so. I must change school!

But I don't think I can transfer to another school although I'm very desperate due to this matter. Sigh. Hopefully I can.

JasmineKPK says, "Life is life."

Chapter 5

I love JasmineKPK now. :)

For no other better reason but just because she's my 2nd largest life and my godsister. Even if she don't love me, never mind.

Who cares, since she's my godsister no matter what. And, my godsisters are one step above than boyfriends, but the most love I'll give is of course to the boyfriend, lah. =.=

And I lived happily sadly ever after.

Chapter 6 [P/S]

See, read and count how many times I mention about JasmineKPK.

I suppose this is the JasmineKPK story.

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