i don't know what to say, really. i have a lot to say, but, i'm stuck halfway. but anyway, they're 99% of my thoughts and complains. i don't want to break any friendships, or anything by letting them out this time.
i feel like breaking down, whoosh. but me strong (: so me will shuttup.
so anyway, this new year is like the busiest new year ever! i've not been out of house for about 16 hours from 8am to almost 1am in my whole almost-17-years-in-life. gah, you do the math.

i feel like sleeping now, *yawns*

oh, i'm not going to school this thursday and friday. i'm too tired, and lazy to go to school. miahahaha. i've not done any of my add math homework too. speaking of which, i deserve to receive red marks in my first term progress sheet report. dying?

maybe.

p/s: do you know that little girl holding peaches on ikano power advertisment in the star, or somewhere near bandar utama ad boards? or in ikano power, or ikea or somewhere around there? that little girl is my cousin - ameline toh yun qian.

Labels: Dear Diary

i have always wanted to do wee teck's tag, but, i keep on forgetting. so, this is it.

Instructions: Remove one question from above and add in your personal question.
Make a total of 20 questions and tag 8 people.
List them out at the end of the post.

1. Who will you save 1st? Your best friend or your boy/girlfriend?
same as wee teck, i'll try to save both of them.

2. Who is more important to you? Friends or boy/girlfriend?
both!

3. How often do you think of committing suicide?
i used to think about it oftenly last time.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?
nope.

5. How many babies you want?
don't know. when the time comes, i'll know.

6. Favorite perfume/fragrance?
miss dior cherie (:

7. What do you think will be your greatest downfall?
don't know.

8. Do you believe in eternal love?
no.

9. What’s a perfect girlfriend/boyfriend like to u? (List 10)
rich, tall, smart, handsome.

10. What feeling do you love most?
don't know.

11. What are your bad habits?
a lot.

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people who hate you?
no.

13. Do you cherish every single friendship of yours?
maybe.

14. What do you hate most in others?
hm =/ i rather keep it to myself.

15. What do you crave for the most currently?
ballet ):

16. What features/quirks do you find totally sexy on a guy/girl?
overall.

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 7 words.
bully-ish, adorable, taller than me, skinny, lefty, funny, fun

18. Your ideal home.
i'm too lazy to type them.

19. What will you become in another 10 years to come?
i'm not a fortune teller, and i can't see myself in 10 years' time.

20. What is something you will never regret doing?
going into wms (: and befriending she-gigolo.

bye people! (: and have fun eating dinner tonight.

Labels: Tag

guess how i came across david archuleta's crush? D:

from li ling, when we were on our way back home from perijaya.

and o i know how to spell his name too, when it's my first time spelling his name! i'm a genius! (:


I may not believe in regrets
But I believe in self assurance
Some things I'd rather forget
We see what we choose and
We choose what we see to believe

guess where am i going tonight?

daorae korean bbq restaurant!

my korean rice cakes! (: i can't stress how much i love korean rice cakes.

guess where am i going tomorrow?

EARN MONEY!

everyone is going earn money during chinese new year, no? count the amount that you will be receiving in red packets yo. that's your salary for the year! D:


never apologize for how you feel,
because it's just like apologizing for being real.

i shall post some worthy quotes below my pictures or icons from today onwards! (:


You're the one, that's making me crazy
I'm in love, but it's only temporary

i'm...wordless now anyway =/

i don't know what to blog about.

wait, i don't know what to blog about since a long time ago. i've lost my blogging sense O:

Labels: Thoughts

i always laugh at my laptop's screen whenever i chat with carl mann online.


like really, i think i'm crazy whenever i talk to her. anywhere.


i didn't know titanic sinking into the pacific ocean was real. i thought it was just a movie, until i google-ed about it a few days ago. but the love story was fake. when i watched titanic last week, i nearly cried. it's so effin sad that i can't hold back my tears that time. but since i'm strong, i held it back.

you must be thinking that i'm crapping right now.

i felt so touched watching titanic. dang.



life's so good right now. i get to sleep early and wake up late. i miss waking up at 12pm, when i slept at 11pm the night before.

anyway,

happy chinese new year (:

may you collect lots of $$

Labels: greetings, Thoughts

you know, i actually miss last year. not the bad ones, of course.

i miss those times when i had ballet every wednesday, saturday and sunday. i miss those times when i had to go on a diet (for a few days, because i can't let go of my 4-5 times a day habit), because miss hiew was nitpicking my fats &tummy. i miss those times when i get to procrastinate whole year long, and in the end failing my exam. oh-kay, i don't miss failing my papers, but, i miss procrastinating! now, even if i procrastinate for 5 mere minutes, i won't have time doing my homework and essential stuffs anymore, and i'll have to take a long time to catch up. ok fine i was exaggerating, but still!

i learnt a lot of things last year. i learnt how to bake, everything. i can still remember my first time baking several weeks ago. it was edible, but too sweet =/ now, this chinese new year, i mean, i'll bake cupcakes with chocolate chips just because my kawan baik (find out who, because she knows who she is! and, o its not a guy. and i'm not a lesbian either.) likes chocolate chips. talking about baking, i miss jasmine because she was here when i baked for the second time.

so anyway,

when i was telling carl mann in school that i am baking cheesecake for my parents' wedding anniversary,

quote zhengern, "whats your problem with baking now? everyday bake bake bake only."

i lol-ed, because i was telling carl mann about it, and zhengern suddenly *poof*.



initially i wanted to blog about last night at overseas restaurant, menara pgrm. so yep. i shall start bragging about it now.

i reached home from school at about 4 something, as usual, and i started getting ready. and i only got completely ready at about 6, which got myself into trouble, because my dad wanted to leave at 5.30pm, when i was half-ready.

while waiting for my mum and other guests to arrive, my dad, brother and i talked about issues. after for awhile, my mum reached with my uncle and grandfather.

and my mum saw the cheesecake on the table and she said, "aren't you suppose to take that out later?" which i also agreed. my dad said to take it out from the box (you know, my dad put the cake into a taiwan pon kan mandarin oranges box, and people actually thought i bought the cake from taiwan ._.), and put candles on it too.

since my mum asked me to take a photo of the cake, so i took it. or else i won't bother taking a picture of it.



yes, this is the cake. i've not taken a picture of the filling yet though. it's edible, and my uncles love it, especially my dad (:

then when everyone including leon (yes, my dad called leon, mind you. i was in the state of shock days ago when he asked me to call leon along) has arrived, we started eating.

there's a few situations that i want to share with you.

young grandaunt: who's that?
yuen may: friend!
young grandaunt: who's friend?
yuen may: er...
my brother: hehehehe i told you jie, that people will ask! my sister's boyfriend!
yuen may: yeah, friend! my brother's friend, my friend too.
young grandaunt: boyfriend is it?
yuen may: y...no!
young grandaunt: don't lie lah.

most of the conversation was conversed in cantonese, so i was lost of words, since i'm not good in cantonese. if it was in mandarin, i would have spoken to her with sarcasm. wait, what sarcasm statements i could tell her anyway =/ my mandarin is not even upsr qualified.

other than that,

young grandaunt: you know who's that or not?
old grandaunt: yeah, may's friend.
young grandaunt: oh like that lah may, you told her, but you didn't tell me.
yuen may: *giggles*

the way my young grandaunt got 'jealous' is so funny.

after dinner and et cetera, my dad sent leon back home. the end.

by that time i reached home, it was almost 12am already. and hence that's the reason why i didn't go to school today. actually i could go, but, i was too lazy to get my bum out from the bed. i just love my bed - just like how everyone else loves their bed.



oh Jesus,
i actually didn't go to school also because i haven't finish my a week old add maths homework. i am just so sick of sitting in front of madam sarah when she's teaching chapter 9 right now. i've given up hope in add maths. i can't do it anymore. i can do form 4 chapters, but i can't do form 5's, especially the one she recently taught. i miss madam leong so much. i miss the way she taught timothy, cheeyan, waikeong, meelian and i last year. i miss her homework ): i am not saying madam sarah's not good, but i am not used to it. madam leong and madam sarah are completely opposites. i've a feeling that i won't do well for my add maths this term. o i didn't say i am good at it either. i am never good in academics, even when i try like a monkey eating banana. i know monkey can eat banana professionally, but, i still prefer using monkeys as an example. i shall move on, and work harder. and complain less. i think i complain too much too.
i think i'm done.




to be frank, i started typing this post out at 1840, but due to some reasons, i couldn't post it as early as i could. and now is currently 0100.

my first reason is, i was busy working on my new blogskin, where i have to merge a few likings into one. my other reason is, i went to the playground to chit chat and take my biology notebook from liling.

and now i am finally done with my new blogskin! i merged a few blogskins into one. i think i like this now. let's see how long i can last on with this blogskin. i keep on saying i like my blogskin, and i've changed it for don't know how many donkey times. it's pink, and grey, because its soft (: j-wen on blogskins.com is my inspiration!

now you know i like soft colors! (:



yes, i'm too blessed to be stress. isn't it true enough? i'm stressed over studies at school, and i'd bring the stress back home.

thank goodness that tomorrow's the official holidays for wms (:

i know carl mann is :@ at me, because i'm not going to school for one whole upcoming week. eh carl mann, you know, what if suddenly i felt like going to school? then i will be there, alright? bahaha.

i know jing xuan and carl mann are hardworking, damn.

now, i don't have the mood to even touch my homework. let's see whether i'll get screwed up when school reopens.


i actually thought that zac efron is the detective conan, until carl mann told me just now, at about 5 something, when she onlined. no-oh, it's not my fault, because i read her blog when she blogged about conan and zac efron together.

anyway, it's time for chinese new year, again. this will go on forever and ever. and i'm going to dao-rae for the family reunion dinner. i love dao-rae! my cousin loves dao-rae too, since she loves korean.



i shall stop blogging for now, and i will post next time when i feel like it (:

cheerios.

Labels: Friends, Rants, Reminiscence, Thoughts, Traveling And Events

i like officiating my own holidays you know. if i have the real parliament power, i would have already put a 3 months long holiday for our nov-dec holidays!

so anywhooo.

my chinese new year holidays is starting from...

now (:

i'm supposed to be the happiest dudette on earth right now. i get to sleep early and wake up late.



anyway, just for fun...

i'll post up some lyrics, and see whether you know what song this is (:

o, regardless the language. bahaha. how possible can you all guess! leave your guessings on my tagboard (:

Turn around and leave without turning back
Don’t look for me just keep on living your life
So that loving you will leave me without regrets
Only take the better memories away
Somehow I can stand this for today
Somehow I can say that it’s okay
As long as you take happiness away
Day after day I’ll fade into grey

alright, i'll give a clue!

this singer is from korea.

that's the only clue that i can give.

o kay, now no one will guess. hmm =/

maybe i shall change it to other songs.

o just so you know, when madam norhayati said that she'll be giving a test tomorrow, i then remembered that i am not coming tomorrow. i wonder why everytime she'll give a test when i am or will be absent. the only time i had her test was the first monthly test - held in january/february 2008, which i failed at 30+.

anyway, i am feeling dead tired&sleepy now *yawns* whoopsy.

if you're wondering why am i blogging like this, i don't know why either. so,

goodnight (;

Labels: Thoughts

if you're wondering why i spelt big bang as big baeng, it is because it is spelt like that in korean. not my fault! (; yes i can read korean, but i don't understand what it is only.

o yes ycm and yjx, i think i like haru haru.

sue me.

if you're wondering why, my cousin made me love it.

she was freakin' playing the song over and over again in seremban yesterday.

not to mention she sings the chorus when she plays it on her phone.

she forced me to listen to haru haru ._.

guess how old is my cousin.
















13.



yep, and i heard a lot of things from her about her school friends and all.

lemmeh share with you! (:

her friend: i just broke up with my boyfriend.
my cousin: wait, this is like your 8th one!
her friend: yeah.
my cousin: why did you breakup, this time?
her friend: he's not serious.

o my cousin also said that everytime her friend breaks up because the guy is not serious. and her longest relationship lasted for 2 months.

thank god my cousin sister is quite a tom boy, so i don't need to worry about her if she breaks up (because it is not going to happen!). that's one good thing. but i am worrying about...what if she likes a girl, not a boy.

i dare not think about it now. *crosses my fingers*

aiyaiyai.

nowadays, the world has changed!

even a girl at 8 has a boyfriend S:

and my little cousin brother likes a girl since 4 years old. he's 11 years old now by the way.

and, my cousin sister told me that her friend is not a virgin anymore since 12. they're now 13.

guess where they did it?




school.

i know, of all places. whether they used a condom or not, i don't know. i don't want to know either.

really, the world has changed!






ETA:
o now i remember. i've a family friend, who had a girlfriend at 6. he used the F word too. and even scolds his sister cibai, fuck you and fucker. he's currently 7.
i am not kidding.

in my past, i've not known the F word until form 1. and, i got my first boyfriend (who is now my ex) when i was in form 1. i didn't even know what boyfriend and the F word was all about till then.

i am now having sweat bullets beside my forehead. and i will continue having them until i can accept the fact that the world has changed completely.

Labels: Recommendation, Thoughts

guess what?

i didn't do my add maths homework.



i didn't do any of my sejarah work either.

nope, i am not ready to get scolded by any of my teachers too.



i don't know why i am still blogging, when i am supposed to be away studying or something like that. i am just procrastinating, as usual.

on top of that, i am feeling rather depressed nowadays. o not forgetting guilty too. heck, i wonder why i keep on making mistakes.

hmm =/

Labels: Dear Diary

everyone has posted their new year's resolutions except me. i posted one last year (as in for 2008) and i've not post my 2009's. here i am to type my late new year's resolution!

1. not to procrastinate
2. help my brother in his studies
3. study well
4. bake a cheesecake for mum and dad's anniversary which is about in a few days' time
5. love my family more
6. change myself
7. not to neglect God as much as usual
8. love my friends more
9. not to complain too much about school *smacks self*
10. not to live in denial
11. go for a party
12. to celebrate my birthday with my friends
13. to have someone like Edward Cullen
14. bake cupcakes with Jasmine and Jane
15. have Jasmine and Jane to sleepover
16. have more money!
17. understand and love myself better

i just don't understand myself ._. who does?



seriously, i need a life now. but i don't know where to find it. i am getting more lazy as time passes by and i am neglecting my books away when spm is coming so soon.

high school is coming to its end this year. and college will come up next. sometimes i just want to stay in kindergarten and not move on.

talking about kindergarten...i can remember those girls. there's this girl...let us know her as A (i can't remember her name at all). A liked bullying me, although i've never did anything to her. i've never tried to fix things back like now, so, who cares, right? then someday, i was playing around the 'playground' and i was running. but who knows i knocked into her and she fell. and the best part was, i didn't even know that i knocked her down. and now, i thought to myself, "is that the return of her bullying me so much?" sometimes, i still think of it whether did i knock her down because i didn't feel anything. how mean i was.

and when i was going to kindergarten, i had this neighbour who played with me everyday without fail. hm, we were kids, o-kay? i used to call her as my best friend. i miss her a lot, but recently when i pass my previous house, her house has a lot of long grasses, and obviously she has moved out. but i don't know where she is now. i can never forget her name - Ngam Mei San.

o there's another girl. we were close to each other, and if i am not mistaken, she's a year younger than me. because she was smarter than the others, she gets to skip a class. i can't remember her name but i still remember her surname - Ho. we got drifted away because i beat her. o she got her dad to settle it too lol. and that beating was like a playing one but she took it seriously so, goodbye to that friendship.



sometimes, i wished i have come to wms since form 1. i couldn't go because of some problems. not some. it was a problem. if you've been wondering why was i desperate to come to wms, it wasn't actually me. my first choice was aism, but my dad said, "why do you want to spend so much for this school? save some money for your college and university." and my second choice was sri cempaka. i got in, and my dad has paid off the first semester fees. but who knows sri cempaka is crazy and called saying "hello sir, our fees have increased and we need you to pay off the remaining half." after some arguments, that lady said, "okay, you pay *inserts number*, can ah?" my dad didn't like that because sri cempaka doesn't have policies. thats what my dad said, so, i couldn't go anymore. then i requested sayfol and fairview. my dad then said, "try emailing them and ask what is their passing rate." i emailed, and the email was failed to be send. gosh, then my dad said, "it's not a good school then."

i was so ._. seriously.

then my dad remembered about wms. i thought i couldn't come to kl anymore, but who knows my dad remembered about wms! then he applied for me and my brother. i got in while my brother couldn't get in.

anyway, yeah i know i complained way too much when i first stepped into wms. i just couldn't move on in life. slowly, i blended in, and yeah here i am. it was hard, but i got through it.

this year, we have shukim from terengganu. and i think she's facing a harder time than i did. i hope she can make it though. it takes a lot of time to blend into the school. sometimes i do think why can't i feel contented at that time. but isn't it too late?

i believe in hope.


sometimes you'll think, why can't you be as happy as this kid?

this wednesday will be my mum and dad's wedding anniversary. and i have to bake 5kg of cake with icing for them ._. thats what my dad said. but i am not going to bake 5kg of cake of course. do you have an idea about how big is 5kg? it's super big! my cake when i was celebrating my 15th birthday was super huge and it was only 2kg? my dad wants me to bake 5kg? gosh!

madam stanley got a cupcake from me and she couldn't believe that my baking experience at that time was 2 weeks old. lol! and madam selva likes my cheese cupcake (: i know it's not sweet of course because my dad doesn't like sweet ones.

carl mann likes chocolate chips but i haven't bake one with chocolate chips for her yet. o carl mann, wait till you come over to li ling's house then i will do one for you. i bought the chocolate chips already but i haven't bake it, yet.

that day in school, when i brought chocolate banana cupcake to school...when they were eating them, zhuo wei sniffed and said, "this smells good." i was laughing because i've not seen anyone sniffing. but my mistake was i didn't put in bananas. my bad. i put in a teaspoon of banana essence and yeah they had the smell, no taste ._.



i think i better get going, because i am going back to seremban later. and i have not finished my homework. looks like i am going to get killed on monday =/

okay, now i remember, i will be tad busy on monday finishing my friday's homework and on top of that, i must bake on monday! for my mum and dad.

that spells D-I-E, no?

Labels: Dear Diary, Reminiscence, School, Thoughts

i wanted to blog somewhere around this week, but, i keep on putting them into drafts and i will end up not continuing the post.



i have to admit that i got a short term memory everytime. i can't seem to remember things, including important ones.

school is becoming more stressful than usual, and we're all getting busier. maybe it's because of the spm coming up very soon. i don't wanna get old too!

when you're older, you can't do much things anymore - giggling like small kids, etc. o-kay, now i'm missing my kindergarten times, when i get to sleep more! and no homework! ):

i think that carl mann is becoming more crappy. she craps more than usual now, and she always disturb me when lessons are on. she'll dance and make me laugh during important lessons! when the lesson is more boring than usual, she'll crap even more.

now i know why people thinks that i'm crazy =/ because i have the most fun friends by my side! and i am grateful for that! without them, i should be crying out of boredom.

i don't know what to blog about =/



warning: heavy rant (or should i say emo post?) ahead.

i freak out everytime whenever i think that spm is approximately 10 months away. i can't stop thinking that i might fail my spm. is it the paranoia again? i seem to have this kind of feeling everytime exam is approaching. this feeling started since...form 3. i am also afraid that i will not do alright for my term 1 exam too.

i am scared if i will cry everyday like i did during form 3, thinking how stupid i am, failing papers, or wait - i didn't fail any of my core form 3 papers. i only got b's and c's, and i wasn't satisfied. although i improved in my pmr trials, i wasn't satisfied too. at that time, i got more b's than c's, so i was...relieved. not that fully relieved, but, i was hoping for more. i admit that i didn't really study at all so i didn't really feel anything about it. form 3 was the only year i studied throughout my whole lower secondary life.

o i didn't study for my term exams during form 1 and form 2. i can still remember that jane and i bet on our results - the one who get higher than the other will have to pay for a starbuck drink. in the end we both didn't have to spend any because we were draw. if i am not mistaken, we took 11 papers at that time, and, a paper was a draw. if i am not mistaken, it was malay. yes, of all papers.

last term i didn't really do well for my science papers, but i am satisfied with it because i tried my best. i could have passed chemistry if i wrote the graph title for my paper 3, and didn't mistake voltaic cell as electrolytic cell, and electrolytic cell as voltaic cell. that was my mistake! i shall pretend that i wasn't in the luck during the exam.



...i had more to say but after halfway blogging, i forgot what i wanted to say about it. talking about more distractions. o i am easily distracted, and that is one reason why i can't do my work perfectly.

is it me or the paranoia?


diamonds are a girl's best friend (:

i've officially stopped ballet by the way. no matter how much it hurts me inside because i can't continue ballet anymore, i'll wait till the day i can step into the studio again. my dad promised me to go for ballet again after spm so i will wait for months. i know i have a...high tolerance. yes yes. i do i do.

by the time when i can step into the studio, i should be unflexible again by then. it took me months to split unperfectly but i still can! only on my right. i can't split on my left.



o-kay, i lost my mood to blog now =/ goodnight people! (:

p/s: the rant was typed out a week ago.

Labels: Miscellaneous, Rants, Thoughts

form 5 isn't relaxing at all. not even tad bit for us to breathe in fresh air. this sucks. we already had lessons on our very first day, which sucked ._.;

and now, thursday has...triple doubles. like, double malay, double chemistry, double physics. yes, on the same day (: i like wednesday though. ask me why!

even if you don't ask, i'll tell you why anyway. hm. it is because the subjects i have on wednesday are all single periods! so i have 9 subjects in a day, and time passes really fast.

but before all that, im still in 5c, and im lovin' it. i am currently sitting beside carl mann and lets hope madam hema won't change our seating plan. so, lets see who are my teachers for the year.

malay: encik abdul rahim
people says that he's boring, which i don't think so because during his lessons, i'll either talk to carl mann, or do my homework. so it doesn't make any difference to me =/

english: madam stanley
*cries out loud* why madam baljit isn't my teacher anymore? this is so sad. kar yau will be making us laugh as usual, and yes, his jokes/anything make my day. everyone will laugh out loud whenever he answers madam stanley. henry will never stop laughing out loud. when i have already stopped laughing, he'll still be laughing ._. and yes that made me laugh even more.

add math: madam sarah
i miss madam leong's excessive given homework now.

math: madam hema
quote carl mann, "*vomit blood*". but no worries. another 'free' period! its not like i can do anything but, i can daydream!

biology: miss teng
praise the lord! im very lucky to have her again, although she's super strict, but, if she's not my teacher this year and the new teacher/any teacher is my biology teacher, i will fall asleep in class and fail again ._.

chemistry: madam norhayati
as usual. she's good, but i am the one slow in getting what she means.

physics: mr chin
'free period'! he gets upset whenever i do other homework in class because i don't score his paper. but i do listen ok!? see i am so good xD

civics: mr balan
my scouts teacher S: i think someone asked whether we could do our own work and not study civics, but he said no.

history: madam premila
history is not my thing, so, i often get drifted away with the text book and hence the appearance of C and D (still a pass!).

moral: madam faridah
._._.; i don't know why but i just dislike her lessons! civics is like, way better than moral. i've never liked moral and i can never pay attention in her class. even if i do, i just don't like it and will flunk the paper.

ict: madam lalitha
who cares about ict? i don't.

i really hope that i won't fall asleep during lessons this year. this year is like the most important year now. spm is around the corner, well not really around the corner, but time passes really fast you know.

after whatever i've said, i can still blog here.

shouldn't i be studying right now? ._.

oh, just for today xD i shall procrastinate just for today.

aren't i too free?



*yawns*

goodnight.

p/s: i really don't know what i just blogged about anyway.

Labels: School

school. i can't believe i am going into form 5, which is my only and final year left. i have to enjoy my only year left! i am going to eat, sleep and study. lets hope i won't procrastinate again like i always do. i don't know why i always procrastinate everytime. hm =/ i think it is just me boo.

2008. it was another busy and a different year. different as in different environment, experience, and everything. i've gained a lot of weight in 2008 too! when i was back in seremban, i weren't that fat but now...*speechless* school's going to reopen for year 2009 in another day plus. some part of me wants to stay home still. i'm getting lazier than usual. o it's always like that. i always get lazy whenever holidays are coming to its end. i hate endings. yep who doesn't?

blogging. yesterday i got so many things to blog about but when i decided to blog about it, my memory will fail me. how great is that no wonder i can't score biology. but it's alright. i shall blog bit by bit. yes, like this.

homework. i've done everything except for moral, sejarah, physics essay questions, biology structured questions, and a question of math. i actually don't know when am i going to do them but o well i shall try to runaway from meeting those 2 humans. o yes miss goh and mrs mathews. shockingly i did my konserto terakhir when school holidays just started. if i am not mistaken, it was the first monday of the school holidays. then, my laziness started to conquer me and yes that is what happened.

him. he is back from the land of sheeps about 1+ month ago. i missed him so much and yes he changed a lot (; many things happened in 2008 and i don't want to think about what has happened between both of us. every matter we had involves other people. and now, i do trust him, but, at the same time, i don't. oh-kay, i don't understand what i just said anyway, so, my bad! [kudos to carlmann for being there everytime when im in need of listeners and advices]

holidays. this holidays is ending so soon that i don't want to let it go. it's my last year-end holidays! i mean, for high school, or elementary or any levels. i am so going to miss it now. i can still remember that i used to cry whenever i have to go back to seremban after this nov-dec holidays. (remember i used to study in seremban) but that was a long time ago. the last time i cried because i had to go back was, during primary school. that's if, i am not mistaken. i have short term memory! ):

revision. (: i didn't revise this time. how hardworking i was this holidays, will show up in my term 1 exam results. i shan't cry later when i get my results. i tried revising, but, my laziness!

food. i've gained a lot of weight this holidays too. i take supper almost every night at the mamak stall. "maggi goreng! roti kosong! teh o ais limau!" yes yes yes, that's what i always say at the mamak stall. and i can actually eat! (; it's not that i am a big eater or things like that, but, when i feel like eating, i can eat a lot. if i don't have that mood to eat, i won't eat. i can live without food for a day or more. o talking about it, now i remember why i was thinner in seremban. back in seremban, i eat 2 meals a day. the 2 meals are breakfast and lunch. weirdly i don't feel hungry when dinner time strikes the clock. i am so going to miss my supper nights when school reopens ):

baking. i am so happy that people likes it! my first time was bad, like, really bad. it was under baked and over baked. i did 2 different batter, and the over baked one was because i beat the batter with the flour in it for too long. yes it's the wrong step. but, i am getting better everytime. i am still thinking how to make that frosting though. i brought some cupcakes to ballet today, to give some to my teacher to try, but, who know she didn't come today. so instead i gave jia xin's mum to try it out first. she said i bake better than her S: just a reminder, my baking experience is only 8 days old today. since jia xin likes cheese, my cupcakes are fine to her. she wanted to bring the rest home but i didn't allow her. bahaha. leon likes it too (: and my aunt too. and my grandma. her friends. myself (:

friends. i made so many friends this year, good and bad, has taught me so many things. i may be someone you don't like, but what can we both do? nothing. but it takes time to know someone better. but all in all, i love my friends i made this year, whom i got to know better; you know who you are! <3 i don't need to say who and who because it is already obvious enough to know who they are.

myself. i dare say that i've changed from many aspects. but, my loudness will never change! (; i laugh, talk, everything out loud. if you know me for a long time, you'll know that i changed. it might not be a lot, but at least a little.

2009. i don't know what will become of me soon when school reopens in a day's time. will i procrastinate as usual? will i change a lot later? or will i be the same? will the year 2009 be better than the others? or worst? what kind of year will it be? all i know that it will be the busiest year among 17 years i will ever experience. although 2007 was a year that i procrastinated and got myself busy studying minimum 2 months before pmr, 2009 will be busier i think?

ballet. im stopping soon ): yes after my replacements which is in a week's time. o i did istd intermediate today, and it is very hard. guess what, i actually wanted to cry out loud because it was so hard. i didn't know miss tong could teach ballet too. i am like, so shocked because she is a pianist. she's good too (; i prefer rad intermediate because it is easier than istd intermediate. rad intermediate is lovely! <3 unlike istd intermediate ): o i am going to miss it a lot right now. it is not easy anyway. i am waiting for istd inter found results to release. let's hope i passed it.

colors. it is something i love (: i like things to be colorful because it brightens up my day! like this. you know, i went to metrojaya that day and found a set of colorful bedsheet and blanket. i asked my dad to get that for me but he said, "it's too colorful." bummerrr.

shopping. gosh i shopped a lot last december. as in i spent a lot because i went to orchard road in singapore so yep money has gone with the wind. although i can remember to shop for my own needs, i forgot about my school uniform and school shoes! i am wishing that my white school shoes will not rot halfway towards the end of form 5 because i don't wanna waste rm30-rm50 getting new white school shoes when i don't need it next year anymore. and i forgot to buy stationaries for school. i think it spells d-i-e. but then, aiya!, later lah.

goodbye. i don't know when i am going to blog again, because i only blog when i have the moooood. hmm =/ i think i am getting more boring myself. not bored, but boring. ok. i don't know what i am saying now anyway. so, cheerios. i'll try not to be boring next time. i need some suggestions on what to blog from you guys. lemmeh know, thanks!

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