you know, i actually miss last year. not the bad ones, of course.

i miss those times when i had ballet every wednesday, saturday and sunday. i miss those times when i had to go on a diet (for a few days, because i can't let go of my 4-5 times a day habit), because miss hiew was nitpicking my fats &tummy. i miss those times when i get to procrastinate whole year long, and in the end failing my exam. oh-kay, i don't miss failing my papers, but, i miss procrastinating! now, even if i procrastinate for 5 mere minutes, i won't have time doing my homework and essential stuffs anymore, and i'll have to take a long time to catch up. ok fine i was exaggerating, but still!

i learnt a lot of things last year. i learnt how to bake, everything. i can still remember my first time baking several weeks ago. it was edible, but too sweet =/ now, this chinese new year, i mean, i'll bake cupcakes with chocolate chips just because my kawan baik (find out who, because she knows who she is! and, o its not a guy. and i'm not a lesbian either.) likes chocolate chips. talking about baking, i miss jasmine because she was here when i baked for the second time.

so anyway,

when i was telling carl mann in school that i am baking cheesecake for my parents' wedding anniversary,

quote zhengern, "whats your problem with baking now? everyday bake bake bake only."

i lol-ed, because i was telling carl mann about it, and zhengern suddenly *poof*.



initially i wanted to blog about last night at overseas restaurant, menara pgrm. so yep. i shall start bragging about it now.

i reached home from school at about 4 something, as usual, and i started getting ready. and i only got completely ready at about 6, which got myself into trouble, because my dad wanted to leave at 5.30pm, when i was half-ready.

while waiting for my mum and other guests to arrive, my dad, brother and i talked about issues. after for awhile, my mum reached with my uncle and grandfather.

and my mum saw the cheesecake on the table and she said, "aren't you suppose to take that out later?" which i also agreed. my dad said to take it out from the box (you know, my dad put the cake into a taiwan pon kan mandarin oranges box, and people actually thought i bought the cake from taiwan ._.), and put candles on it too.

since my mum asked me to take a photo of the cake, so i took it. or else i won't bother taking a picture of it.



yes, this is the cake. i've not taken a picture of the filling yet though. it's edible, and my uncles love it, especially my dad (:

then when everyone including leon (yes, my dad called leon, mind you. i was in the state of shock days ago when he asked me to call leon along) has arrived, we started eating.

there's a few situations that i want to share with you.

young grandaunt: who's that?
yuen may: friend!
young grandaunt: who's friend?
yuen may: er...
my brother: hehehehe i told you jie, that people will ask! my sister's boyfriend!
yuen may: yeah, friend! my brother's friend, my friend too.
young grandaunt: boyfriend is it?
yuen may: y...no!
young grandaunt: don't lie lah.

most of the conversation was conversed in cantonese, so i was lost of words, since i'm not good in cantonese. if it was in mandarin, i would have spoken to her with sarcasm. wait, what sarcasm statements i could tell her anyway =/ my mandarin is not even upsr qualified.

other than that,

young grandaunt: you know who's that or not?
old grandaunt: yeah, may's friend.
young grandaunt: oh like that lah may, you told her, but you didn't tell me.
yuen may: *giggles*

the way my young grandaunt got 'jealous' is so funny.

after dinner and et cetera, my dad sent leon back home. the end.

by that time i reached home, it was almost 12am already. and hence that's the reason why i didn't go to school today. actually i could go, but, i was too lazy to get my bum out from the bed. i just love my bed - just like how everyone else loves their bed.



oh Jesus,
i actually didn't go to school also because i haven't finish my a week old add maths homework. i am just so sick of sitting in front of madam sarah when she's teaching chapter 9 right now. i've given up hope in add maths. i can't do it anymore. i can do form 4 chapters, but i can't do form 5's, especially the one she recently taught. i miss madam leong so much. i miss the way she taught timothy, cheeyan, waikeong, meelian and i last year. i miss her homework ): i am not saying madam sarah's not good, but i am not used to it. madam leong and madam sarah are completely opposites. i've a feeling that i won't do well for my add maths this term. o i didn't say i am good at it either. i am never good in academics, even when i try like a monkey eating banana. i know monkey can eat banana professionally, but, i still prefer using monkeys as an example. i shall move on, and work harder. and complain less. i think i complain too much too.
i think i'm done.




to be frank, i started typing this post out at 1840, but due to some reasons, i couldn't post it as early as i could. and now is currently 0100.

my first reason is, i was busy working on my new blogskin, where i have to merge a few likings into one. my other reason is, i went to the playground to chit chat and take my biology notebook from liling.

and now i am finally done with my new blogskin! i merged a few blogskins into one. i think i like this now. let's see how long i can last on with this blogskin. i keep on saying i like my blogskin, and i've changed it for don't know how many donkey times. it's pink, and grey, because its soft (: j-wen on blogskins.com is my inspiration!

now you know i like soft colors! (:



yes, i'm too blessed to be stress. isn't it true enough? i'm stressed over studies at school, and i'd bring the stress back home.

thank goodness that tomorrow's the official holidays for wms (:

i know carl mann is :@ at me, because i'm not going to school for one whole upcoming week. eh carl mann, you know, what if suddenly i felt like going to school? then i will be there, alright? bahaha.

i know jing xuan and carl mann are hardworking, damn.

now, i don't have the mood to even touch my homework. let's see whether i'll get screwed up when school reopens.


i actually thought that zac efron is the detective conan, until carl mann told me just now, at about 5 something, when she onlined. no-oh, it's not my fault, because i read her blog when she blogged about conan and zac efron together.

anyway, it's time for chinese new year, again. this will go on forever and ever. and i'm going to dao-rae for the family reunion dinner. i love dao-rae! my cousin loves dao-rae too, since she loves korean.



i shall stop blogging for now, and i will post next time when i feel like it (:

cheerios.

Labels: Friends, Rants, Reminiscence, Thoughts, Traveling And Events

everyone has posted their new year's resolutions except me. i posted one last year (as in for 2008) and i've not post my 2009's. here i am to type my late new year's resolution!

1. not to procrastinate
2. help my brother in his studies
3. study well
4. bake a cheesecake for mum and dad's anniversary which is about in a few days' time
5. love my family more
6. change myself
7. not to neglect God as much as usual
8. love my friends more
9. not to complain too much about school *smacks self*
10. not to live in denial
11. go for a party
12. to celebrate my birthday with my friends
13. to have someone like Edward Cullen
14. bake cupcakes with Jasmine and Jane
15. have Jasmine and Jane to sleepover
16. have more money!
17. understand and love myself better

i just don't understand myself ._. who does?



seriously, i need a life now. but i don't know where to find it. i am getting more lazy as time passes by and i am neglecting my books away when spm is coming so soon.

high school is coming to its end this year. and college will come up next. sometimes i just want to stay in kindergarten and not move on.

talking about kindergarten...i can remember those girls. there's this girl...let us know her as A (i can't remember her name at all). A liked bullying me, although i've never did anything to her. i've never tried to fix things back like now, so, who cares, right? then someday, i was playing around the 'playground' and i was running. but who knows i knocked into her and she fell. and the best part was, i didn't even know that i knocked her down. and now, i thought to myself, "is that the return of her bullying me so much?" sometimes, i still think of it whether did i knock her down because i didn't feel anything. how mean i was.

and when i was going to kindergarten, i had this neighbour who played with me everyday without fail. hm, we were kids, o-kay? i used to call her as my best friend. i miss her a lot, but recently when i pass my previous house, her house has a lot of long grasses, and obviously she has moved out. but i don't know where she is now. i can never forget her name - Ngam Mei San.

o there's another girl. we were close to each other, and if i am not mistaken, she's a year younger than me. because she was smarter than the others, she gets to skip a class. i can't remember her name but i still remember her surname - Ho. we got drifted away because i beat her. o she got her dad to settle it too lol. and that beating was like a playing one but she took it seriously so, goodbye to that friendship.



sometimes, i wished i have come to wms since form 1. i couldn't go because of some problems. not some. it was a problem. if you've been wondering why was i desperate to come to wms, it wasn't actually me. my first choice was aism, but my dad said, "why do you want to spend so much for this school? save some money for your college and university." and my second choice was sri cempaka. i got in, and my dad has paid off the first semester fees. but who knows sri cempaka is crazy and called saying "hello sir, our fees have increased and we need you to pay off the remaining half." after some arguments, that lady said, "okay, you pay *inserts number*, can ah?" my dad didn't like that because sri cempaka doesn't have policies. thats what my dad said, so, i couldn't go anymore. then i requested sayfol and fairview. my dad then said, "try emailing them and ask what is their passing rate." i emailed, and the email was failed to be send. gosh, then my dad said, "it's not a good school then."

i was so ._. seriously.

then my dad remembered about wms. i thought i couldn't come to kl anymore, but who knows my dad remembered about wms! then he applied for me and my brother. i got in while my brother couldn't get in.

anyway, yeah i know i complained way too much when i first stepped into wms. i just couldn't move on in life. slowly, i blended in, and yeah here i am. it was hard, but i got through it.

this year, we have shukim from terengganu. and i think she's facing a harder time than i did. i hope she can make it though. it takes a lot of time to blend into the school. sometimes i do think why can't i feel contented at that time. but isn't it too late?

i believe in hope.


sometimes you'll think, why can't you be as happy as this kid?

this wednesday will be my mum and dad's wedding anniversary. and i have to bake 5kg of cake with icing for them ._. thats what my dad said. but i am not going to bake 5kg of cake of course. do you have an idea about how big is 5kg? it's super big! my cake when i was celebrating my 15th birthday was super huge and it was only 2kg? my dad wants me to bake 5kg? gosh!

madam stanley got a cupcake from me and she couldn't believe that my baking experience at that time was 2 weeks old. lol! and madam selva likes my cheese cupcake (: i know it's not sweet of course because my dad doesn't like sweet ones.

carl mann likes chocolate chips but i haven't bake one with chocolate chips for her yet. o carl mann, wait till you come over to li ling's house then i will do one for you. i bought the chocolate chips already but i haven't bake it, yet.

that day in school, when i brought chocolate banana cupcake to school...when they were eating them, zhuo wei sniffed and said, "this smells good." i was laughing because i've not seen anyone sniffing. but my mistake was i didn't put in bananas. my bad. i put in a teaspoon of banana essence and yeah they had the smell, no taste ._.



i think i better get going, because i am going back to seremban later. and i have not finished my homework. looks like i am going to get killed on monday =/

okay, now i remember, i will be tad busy on monday finishing my friday's homework and on top of that, i must bake on monday! for my mum and dad.

that spells D-I-E, no?

Labels: Dear Diary, Reminiscence, School, Thoughts