FUCK YOU, ADD MATHS.

Its only like the beginning of my new school life, and you've already like killed me with the first add maths test. I mean, why MC only? Its so unfair. Sometimes. Maybe its not, but thats what i think!

&, why do people think that Weiken is my IG? He is not my IG at all. Someone else is my IG. And that IG knows who is that himself. =X I mean my IG knows who is that IG.

&, i don't have any IG anymore, because i gave up in everything. My IG is an un-baptisted Christian. So, it's like, he's an unofficial CHRISTIAN. So goodbye, Christian boy. Sigh. If my dad knows that i am crushing on a Christian guy, i'm totally dead. Or even if it's not that issue, we won't get to be together because it is impossible. I'm still missing my ex, so, goodbye, IG. Looking at IG's back reminds me of him. I nearly cried during English lessons. It hurts me deeply inside.

&, why must add maths be effin hard?

&, why must WMS students be so...i don't know what word to use to describe. I was talking to Keongi about things during...after school in the canteen and everyone was like...,"Keong, your girlfriend?" or "You like her?" or "She likes you?". I was like 0.0 and then they were taking pictures of us talking and even desribed the whole thing like, "Whoa, they look very good together," like what the heck. I really don't know what to say. And in the end, i was like, "Keongi is my brother!" and Keongi was like, "My pet sister *smiles*" and they were all, "HUH? Sure or not!" we even said that we will never hook up. Yes, that will happen. I mean, we will not get together!

&, i blogged today because Lissi said its time for an update. Not a long post. Its a weekday today, yo. No time to post a long one. This took like...i don't know how long because i didn't keep in track.

So, goodbye. If i don't blog, it simply means that i have nothing to blog, or i am keeping ideas to blog later when i blog, so my post will be long. I don't like effin short posts like this.

Or maybe, i don't feel like blogging, or i feel that my english is not good enough for a post.

I'm considering of closing my blog anyway because I'm losing of ideas in blogging and i must get rid of the internet (which i doubt i can)!

Take care, everyone.

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Labels: Depression, Rants, Thoughts, Uncategorized

Leadership camp?

Good?

No?



I'm commentless.

I mean, for real. I don't know what to say. If i say it's good or/and not, i have my own reasons.

Okay.

Let me list them out:

WHY DO I THINK ITS GOOD?

1. We get to learn how to be a leader. (trust, responsibility, punctuality, correcting our bad attitude to good, think wisely, work together no matter what happens, etc)
2. We will learn how to forget and to forgive. In other words, not to scold/quarrel with other people for their mistakes.
3. TEAM WORK.
4. Get to know other Wesleyans =D
5. My first camp leh!
6. The games was fun =3

WHY DO I THINK ITS NOT GOOD?

1. I didn't get to do anything.
2. People mistook me as a form 1 kid, and she (a member from my group) was like, didn't respect me as a senior.
3. That girl is like taking everything away, even when i'm the assistant leader.
4. I hate it when people takes my position when i'm the one.
5. I hate my group for the unfriendliness in them. (some of them, especially that girl)
6. THAT GIRL IS LIKE DOING EVERYTHING BY HERSELF, AND I WAS FREAKING LOST IN EVERY ACTIVITY WHEN SHE WAS THE LEADER FOR MY GROUP, UNTIL MELVYN TOOK THE POSITION AS A LEADER. WHEN SHE WAS THE LEADER, SHE DIDN'T EVEN LET ME TO DO ANYTHING. GET WHAT I MEAN? I paid RM65 for the camp, to experience the camp, but i got nothing.
7. Some of the games are boring.

Okay.

Let me write about the whole thing.

Yesterday, school ended at about 2pm, because the participants must register and collect our 'red packet' at the canteen, then collect our things from the arts room and transfer them to our respective 'rooms'. The block B became the girls' dorm and C became the boys'. Right after we drop our things at the room, we'll have to go to the Chapel for the open ceremony.

When i was registering, the prefect called out my name as..."YOO AN MAY" instead of "YUN MAY" or something similar. I told her its "Yuen May" and she gave me that bloody tone in speech. I hate that prefect.

After the camp was declared open by Mrs Mathews, we had this...ice breaking activity.

We've like...get a partner (mine's Josephine). Oh yes, got something for you to know too! I'll make it into a conversation. (the prefect-in-charge, students, Yuen May, Josephine)

Okay, now, we'll have this ice-breaking activity. Get a partner.
HUH!?
Preferably the same sex, and the same size.
WTF EY! *laughs like shit*
This is what you got to do. When i say horseback*, countburry (?) and knight, you've got to do it. *demos were included*
*laughs*
OMG.
*laughs*
How ey? I carry you okay.
Eh no! Can't. I carry you better.
Woi, how heavy are you?
I'm very heavy one lar.
WTF. Whats your weight?
*inserts number*
WTFWTFWTF. I'm *inserts number* okay!
OMG OKAY.

Then, we did what we were supposed to do. We had this thing that if you can't get it, you'll get eliminated. Jo and i did the wrong thing. WTF.

Carl Mann and Julia were partners.

Corliss and Chern Li were partners too.

Slowly, when more people got eliminated. Seriously ey, Carl Mann and Julia got into the top 3 couples there. The form 2s and form 4s were supporting their respective forms.

Shit ey, Jo and i laughed at that ey. Of joy. And happiness. For Carl Mann.

I mean,among the 3 of them, Carl Mann and Julia are like the...only girls there. And i really salute Carl Mann for carrying Julia for like...minutes! She's a superwoman, i think?

Then, the prefects told us to open the 'red packet' to find out which group we're in.

Shiat. I'm in frog.

We're supposed to act it out to find our team members. Frog = jump up. Haha. I walked around. Then i saw 2 'frogs' jumping - Jeremy and Eunice. I was like, 'oh frogs! *jumps like them*' While jumping, i laughed.

When we got into our respective groups, we gotta do more activities, like introduce ourself and draw faces. Okay well, the name of the animals were created to divide us. The real groups' names were different. And its themed under philosophers. That reminded me about the Girl Guides Annual Camp back in Puteri. Cleopatra? I don't know.

My group's Zeno (we'll get to know it as soon as we get our badges. then Eunice asked whether if she wants me to write my name or her to write. i gave her to write in fact. she wrote it as Yuan May. oh, then i knew why the prefect called me "YOO AN MAY". stupid typo. my name is YUEN MAY, get it? you pronounce it as YUN MAY. i don't know why is there an E there anyway.). As i said we gotta draw faces? We were have to draw Zeno's face. How would we know!? I think Jack is the one who drew some face. With a pair of Harry Potter's glasses. & janggut.

And our motto is, "JUST DO IT" because we didn't have any other choices anymore.

DANG. Then it was time for tea break.

After tea break...

We proceeded to this...some games. I can't remember. We were supposed to do something. We got the last place anyway. Why, i think it's because of there's no communication and all. Whatever it is, it's not my fault.

So i don't wanna talk about the games.

Melvyn said we are blind because we couldn't find the thing that we're supposed to find, when it's in front of our eyes.

Chings.

After that, it was dinner! I love dinners.

After dinner, we'll have to participate in this Mystery Game. This Mystery Game's something like...Cluedo. We'll have to find who did it, why did s/he killed the particular person, and what weapon.

And those words was in JAPANESE. Stupid ey. Can die looking at it. I don't even understand it.

First spot was like...the library but we were blind wtf.

& the task is...beat the prefect in ping pong. After beating it, we can ask for clues. The questions must be reasonable. Dang.

Oh yes. This is how i started to hate my team members. There's one part where we took some clue from Arthur, and its mirror-nized. So if we were to read it, we'll have to reflect it. Thank god i knew how to read it. Then i was saying lah, i think it was a little too loud. Some of the members was like shouting at me, "SHUT UP LAH!" I was annoyed. And when they were about to take a picture of it, Arthur took it. Boohoo. I know what it was lah. Since they asked me to shut up, so i shut up lah.

When they didn't get to take the picture, someone asked whats that. I replied nicely, "since you asked me to shut up, so i'll shut this up."

I was freaking annoyed.

Then, i didn't care much about it.

& we were supposed to go to this "cctv" room for the videos to find out those clues.

After we completed it, we'll have another piece of clue. I guessed that we've to go to the gardens because its a one-word-in-japanese place. So i told them, in a softer tone. AGAIN, those members were like shhhh-ing me off. Fuck ok. They're like, younger than me. Can't they respect others with respect? By not telling those juniors to shut up and all, when we have our rights to speak. And discuss. Don't tell me we paid RM65 just to let people scold us, and shh-ing us up? Its annoying.

I don't think they deserve my respect.

What else, those who asked me to shut up and all are like in Form 2 and they don't really know me. Okay maybe for hours. HEY DONGS, I'M FORM 4, PLEASE GIVE SOME RESPECT, and i'll respect you too.

Brenda and i, are different. Because i know her quite well, and even when she's in Form 2, it doesn't matter because we know each other well! We don't even mind if we hit each other on our butts. It all depends. Corliss and i, she's like my close friend ever since 3rd of January '08. Hopefully it doesn't change.

I really, couldn't tolerate those kids anymore.

In my whole freaking camp days, MELVYN LEONG is the best leader ever! *applause* He deserve an applause. As what the prefect said, he's the best, outstanding, and someone who encourages his team to not give up and keep on trying.

And yes, back to camp. The first day ended with supper at 11pm. The teacher said lights will be out at 12am, sharp. So everyone went showering and all. Dang. The water's small some more. Sad ey. And i couldn't take it anymore but to wash my hair as well. It was oily already! I can't abide any oily hairs.

So i washed it. After showering and all, we went back to our respective rooms and WE MUST SLEEP.

I slept at about 1am i think. Because i couldn't sleep, but oh wells. I was talking to Carmen as well. We talked a little then slept. Shit man. I keep on waking up halfway through sleep.

I woke up at about...a few minutes before 6am because everyone were like walking in and out, and Carmen came to me, when i was trying to get another 15 minutes sleep. Sigh.

So what to do.

I went to brush my teeth and all. Chings.

Packed a little, and we've to go down to the assembly ground for our morning exercise. We jogged, and then when i just started the second round, shit man, my stomach hurts like shit, then the teacher asked me to stop and all. I couldn't stand or sit. Then the teacher got me some water.

Slowly, i felt better. When i want to join back the exercise, not jogging of course, the prefects didn't let me because its bad for my pain. Sigh.

After that, we went for breakfast. OH MILO. =D

Then Chapel, for our station games briefing. We started with 'human machine'. Sweat man. There's like 12 station games. The hard one was...the electric fence. Its like...some sort of high jump, but its not. We're not allowed to jump. We're supposed to help each other to transfer all of us through the fence without touching those 'electric wires'.

Shit ey. I think Jack, carried me when they were transfering me from one side to another through that limited space they gave. He, alone carried the heavy me. I salute you, Jack. Seriously, i'm not trying to say i'm heavy when i'm actually not. Because i am heavy. Some girls, who are like only less than 45kg said they're heavy. LIKE WTF LAH OK.

Corliss's underweight i think. She's boney! She reminds me of Geraldine. SHEEEEK.

And then other games are not really nice. Except for the library's one. We'll get splashed with water if we get the answer wrong. WET LIKE SHIT AFTER THAT, and i felt cold. (YES ARTHUR, ITS YOU WHO SPLASHED US. but you didn't splash me with water leh. i was like...the driest there.)

There's this game that...you got to collect water balloons. You'll have to save 2 water balloons whenever you get correct for answering a question. Melvyn 'stripped'. I mean, he took off his shirt so we'll get to save the water balloons. Because those water balloons will be thrown all the way down from the 3rd floor, to the ground floor. Jonathan and some other guy hold Melvyn's shirt. For the first few times, they sucked at saving water balloons. After the 3rd water balloon, Jonathan and the other guy were like...GOOD AT SAVING IT and they were getting better at saving them. =D

Dang.

After we complete all the task. We've to go back to the Chapel again. After assembling and whatnot, we went for lunch. LUNCHIE MOMENTS!

After eating, i went to Corliss in an unwell condition. I mean i was feeling a little unwell already. My head started spinning and all. & i just realized that my hair is wet for like approximately 2 hours, with it tied up. For 2 hours. Serve me right. Then it was the war game next. I couldn't carry on anymore...

Then my darling Corliss went to a facilitator to like, not let me play because i was feeling unwell. My head was hurting, and i felt like fainting.

My Chemistry teacher is the so-called doctor. Haha. She gave me 2 panadols, and i took like 1/3 cup of water. My Chemistry teacher was like, "AMBIL LAH AIR. SEKARANG CUACA NI PANAS." I was like oh ok ok. Then i drank water.

Slowly, i was recovering from that terrible headache.

Thank god i felt better.

After the stupid war game, we went back to the Chapel, to gather and get to know the prizes and all. Whoa, Melvyn's one of the outstanding leader. After receiving the gift, he shared it with us all, by asking us to take something from it. It was food anyway. JUNK FOOD.

After the closing ceremony of the leadership camp year 2008, we're supposed to take a picture with the facilitator. After the 'photographer' took our group picture, i took a personal picture with my facilitator - Jeremy.

Overall, Zeno's 11th placed. I don't really care much about it though. At least i learnt something - never judge a book by its cover.

Oh yes, there's one part i think. Its a part of the game, that we'll have to act out some movie, for the facilitator to guess. If the facilitator guessed right, we'll get the signature for a form. Then, Jonathan didn't want to play a part. (and yes, he's like a little sissified. worst than Johntay, really.) Melvyn went...

UHHHH I DONT WANT.
Eh Jonathan, please be MANLY lah.
UHHHHHHH.

Seriously ey, i was laughing.

Pictures! =D

Will be uploaded in the next post because blogger's being gay. Now.


....edit to add....


The opening ceremony?
Cool eh? That's actually Corliss. I was about to take a proper picture of Corliss. BUT SHE GOT TO MOVE AROUND JUST BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT OF ME PUTTING THAT PICTURE INTO MY BLOG ONCE I TOUCH MY LAPTOP!
My bestfriend-to-be Corliss and i. Friends, for life, right, Lissi?
LISSI! (L)
Oh, the boys dorm from my room's door.
& this is Carl Mann. Looked so emo, no? It was taken without her knowledge. Corliss was saying i'm bad all night just because i took that picture without her knowledge.
Us 3. Guess who are they? If you know, good lah! =3 Jasmine knows who they are. 0.0
THE BADGES! You gotta wear it on for the whole camp.
My facilitator, Jeremy. I know i look funny lah ok! & fat.
THIS IS MELVYN LEONG. Trust me, he looks better in real life. You know, when i was about to take a picture with him. I got problem placing my phone, because he's tall, really. In this picture, he bent a little.



Actually overall...

I MISS THE CAMP!

Labels: Traveling And Events, Uncategorized

Now, topic about school.

Seriously ey. Now the current song playing in my mind is I'm Like A Bird by Nelly Furtado. Thanks to TimTai, who made my mind keep on playing it over and over.

That day in class, i think a few weeks ago. I can't remember. He was singing that song. In front of Julia. *0.0* Then never mind. That song's ok wert.

This morning, during Moral Education, Zhuo Wei i think? Or who? Li Li, you should be clear on who's that. What the hell ey, that fella was whistling! So cute ey. I was laughing when i was supposed to be copying down some notes. Thanks to my fellow classmates. My class is the best ey. Laughing everyday. Sometimes one of them will sing.

Aye.

Then that day in class during Mathematics (Madam Hema, our homeroom teacher's class), the guys from the back row used their PE shirt and wrapped around their heads. And Madam Hema was like, "EH GO TO SAUDI ARABIA LAH!" when she was halfway teaching the quadratic thing. It was out of sudden. I was shock ok. I was not paying full attention. Lagi better. =/

I love my class. What the heck.

Oh yes, this school's uber strict. Like seriously. Because TimTai got lost somewhere during Civics lesson, where Madam Sheela asked TimTai to continue from where Azim stopped in the passage. TimTai didn't pay attention and then Madam Sheela got mad. 0.0 Really extra sour.

Really man. Thank god i paid attention. Chings.

Although i was pretty sleepy. Ah. I didn't have nice sleep for a few nights already. I refused to sleep early. My fault. Maybe starting from next week i won't be able to online everyday (IF MY DAD STOPS ME) because i have this darn exam in March. I must pass their passing marks if i would want to stay in science. DANG.

I MUST STUDY AS HARD AS I STUDIED FOR PMR. No, i mean, double up. If i can. Eh, i'm lazy. I'm already like...skipping lunch for homework since the school loves to give homework to us students.

Really ey.

Or...we have to follow this motto - "Wesley Goes Green"?

We've to save trees and all, like what Zhen Yie said in her blog.

Its a good thing, right? Since there's not much trees left in Malaysia. We must save the greens.

Sometimes, i don't get the school. I mean they want us to save the greens, and yet they give piles of homework. =/

.

Digusting yet funny part of the post.

I saw IG somewhere lah har. (i shall not disclose the place in case if he sees this blog, and then i'm to be said bye at.)

Okay.

When i was doing my work, Corliss laughed. I didn't know why so i asked.

Guess what she said?

"IG's butt very small."

WTF REALLY. I mean, i've never seen anything like that. But hey, no judging before knowing her. I mean, she said that to me 'cause we're close enough to not even care about the words. Sort of. Then i told Carl Mann later during Physics.

Carl Mann said, "i thought guys' butt are always small?"

I WAS LIKE WTF x2.

Oh wells. Girls are girls. =)

We like to have fun and be happy, right? This is what controls us;


THIS IS IT! =) We smile all day, unlike me, laugh.




Yuppy Curry Money, does this thing reminds you of anything? Who plays the piano? Hmm.


The scene is so nice like that lah!


Dedicated to the 7's. & of course Yuppy Curry Money. See, Yuppy Curry Money, i'm so nice. Blog about you all the time wth. =/


I think i wanna get those pumps. Of course not Chanel lah!


YUMMY.


Which includes my emo phases.


I miss them.


If its like this everyday, i'll be happy.


CUTE RIGHT. Okay, i don't care about my phobia about dogs for a second now.


Maybe it is.


IMY.


Because you do.



Etc: Sigh, Liling's always jakun-ted. Seriously ey. When she got into my dad's car, she was like, "WHOAAAAAAA............very nice oh....*touches here, touches there*" Seriously ey, like very jakun-ted.(Eh Lingi, you must be like me, high tech!) & both of us was like...seriously jakun-ted in Mid Valley last Sunday because we didn't know there's a bridge connecting from Mid Valley to the Gardens. *sweat* When we were below the bridge, about to reach the Garden in like...30m, we turned back, walked back to Mid Valley, just because we wanted to experience the bridge. Sigh, memang jakun-ted. For picture, you can go to Lingi's blog to see. I'll upload it on the next post. I promise =D

Anyway i better get off now. I gotta sleep already. Sigh. It's 11.58pm now.

ETA:

Was on the way to the Gardens, from Mid Valley. I turned back to take a picture of Mid Valley's bridge entrance.
This is the Gardens escalator
This picture is taken when i was on the Gardens escalator, facing Mid Valley.

Labels: Depression, School, Uncategorized

SERIOUSLY ALRIGHT. I'M FREAKING HAPPY OKAY.

I got into the leadership camp after the second try. Omgsh i was so freaking happy.

During break or early in the morning i think, they announced to those who wants to join the leadership camp this Friday and Saturday to go to the selected place to give in the names. Goodness ey! I was emo last week and this week i'm super happy.

After that, after lunch, they announce those names. Shiat, i thought my name wouldn't be called. BUT BUT BUT! The prefect called my name. Omgsh. Li Li didn't want to give in her name and now she's like, "i should have put in my name!" Aha Li Li! You should!

I MUST GET INVOLVED IN ALL CAMPS THIS YEAR! Who asked me not to be active in the previous years? My fault.

Lalala.

Goldfish Lee, hopefully we'll become room mates! =3

Lalalalalalala.

THANK GOD. Hopefully my dad will allow. Even if he allows, 'ope i'll do good in the camp because its my first time what the heck.

NICE ICONS:







Too lazy to upload more.

Labels: Random, Unforgettable

Friday night and the lights are low

Looking out for the place to go

Where they play the right music, getting in the swing

You come in to look for a King

Anybody could be that guy

Night is young and the music's high

I used some lyrics to be the starting point of my post today. How nice.

Alright. What i want to tell is...i think i know why i was emo. Maybe its because i didn't get into leadership camp. I was really, hoping to get into the camp. Unfortunately, i didn't get in. Maybe its my luck. Sigh. It's really, sad, get it?

I felt like crying throughout the day and night. I know some of you will say, "its just a camp, nothing much. you don't need to cry over it. there's a lot more to go through." sigh.

I wasn't active in any extra activities, okay? I've never gone to a camp before. I swear. Since Year 1. Until now. What i want to do in Year 10 is, be active as much as i can. I want to join all activities. How would i know, that Wesley only allow students to choose one for extra curricular?

If i knew that, i won't even bother to answer any questions in the exam. Or, just skip the exam. Sigh.

Whatever i planned to do in Year 10 just fails. Everything's gone. The first one is gone, what about the next one? I doubt i'll do well in any camp activities. As i said, i'm a dong. I can do nuts for myself.

Okay. I think that's all why i was emo. & there's others to.

Okay i don't give a damn about me spilling the beans now.

I'm feeling a little 'funny' because he's leaving this coming up Thursday. I mean, i'm so used of being with that guy for...2 years. When i'm so comfy with him, now, he's leaving, and i won't get to talk to him for years anymore. I don't even think we'll keep in touch. Thank god that i've like...prepared to let him go completely. Or else, Corliss, Li Li and Li Ling will be my shoulder to cry on EVERY SINGLE DAY in school. Or if they don't give a damn about me, then maybe my bolster (yeah, bolster, whatever) will be my 'shoulder' to cry on.

But i think Corliss will be my first shoulder to cry on, anyway. Right, Corliss? =)

As i said, Corliss's like the 7's from Puteri. So, hey, the 7 of you, Corliss is a superwoman aye! 7:1. See that ratio? So. I must be effin lucky to have a friend like her. Wait, the 7 of you, i'll introduce you guys to her. So better online when Corliss and i online. =D

Its like a...whole big change when i went to Wesley. So i really must thank god for knowing Corliss Lee. & i must let the 7 of them know that i'm doing better than the other days in Wesley now, so they wouldn't be thinking of me so much. Or maybe they stopped talking about me now, since its like the 3rd week of school now. Or maybe, they're doing way better now, since i'm not there.

I'm really getting used to the whole school schedule already. Somehow. Maybe because i've Corliss and the others there, converting them into my bunch of good friends.

Somehow, i'm getting close with Corliss in school. She's like...my close friend sort of thing. So nice, got someone to spill the beans in school. She's like Jane! Ah so nice, after telling her how i feel and all.

I should really thank god for what i have now.

Anyway about studies, i think i'm coping a little. Although it's hard, i must pass my add maths exam on the 28th of January! I don't care, i must pass it! Sigh. I think i am that...desperate to pass it. I must take add maths, not commerce or english literature. Sigh. If they give another choice like ballet, i will drop add maths. Seriously. I don't mind studying ballet.

I don't mind studying the history of ballet, and whatnot. I really, don't mind. Study french also i don't care. I will study like heck just to get a distinction for it. Sigh.

What i'm really excited for now is just...wearing pointe shoes on Wednesday. I'm afraid if i'll have blisters on the first time. Sigh. POINTE SHOES. I'm in love.

WITH THIS!

When i see pointe shoes, i feel like dancing with it. Seriously, i really love those pointe shoes, although it hurts, when i stand with it. Its hard like heck.

I'm really...shocked...seeing this arch.

Ah.

Okay better stop talking about pointe shoes and ballet before feeling emo again.

Maybe i get emo easily, no? I don't know. This, i'll let you to say.

PS: i like sonnet 18. and yes, i'm going to love my new friends from wesley now. although some of them might not love me.

Labels: Depression, Friends, Thoughts

I've been emo-ing for a few days.

Thats what Corliss, Li Li, and Li Ling have been saying these few days.

Maybe i was emo-ing. I have my own reasons. Dahlah my day is like so sucky, they gotta make my life even more suckier (whatever) by putting me into scouts. I thought scouts would be full then i'll eventually get into choir. After getting into scouts, i regret for putting scouts as my first choice. Sigh.

What is done has gone. I can do nuts about it.

Okay.

Now.

NOW.

People thinks i am crushing on Weiken because they thought i was meaning Weiken in my previous post. So, please, please, the IG is not Weiken. Weiken is just someone who i don't care about. IG is IG, whom i see in class every single day. *smiles widely*

Anyway today, during Biology lessons, we had a good laugh. We were learning about cells, then it came to this sperm cell for...moti something. And then someone said, "madam! can do experiment on sperm?" and we laughed like shit. Teacher laughed a little because it was a...daring question to be asked. And guys starting woo-ing on the guy who asked that question. I was telling Min Jia, "Min Jia, what the heck is wrong with the guys here?" and she said, "Haha, now you know the guys are like this."

Its something like that. I can't remember perfectly. What i remembered from Biology lessons today is...centriole, the biscuits. I call them the biscuits. You know, the graphic version of it made it looked like rolled biscuits with cream in it. Whatever it is, i don't care about Biology now.

As what i heard as well, Li Li looks like Miss Teng (my Biology teacher). Li Li told me that Carl Mann, Josephine and Johntay is torturing her by using that method. I pity her. Yes, she looks a little like Miss Teng although most of my friends said no.

Oh yes, most of us don't like Miss Teng after she screwed us up after we handed in our first exercise. She was all, "you all didn't do my work properly, most of you must redo. when i marked other classes' work, i took 1 hour for it, yours, 1 hour also not enough and i only marked not even half, etcetcetc." didn't bother to hear the rest. So boring.

The teachers here are expert at those subjects that they are teaching. But! Some of them doesn't know how to teach. But they're all good. For real. They teach subjects that they are expert at. Cool yeah.

Sometimes yes.

Sometimes no.

Most of the teachers i see is like...with sour face throughout the lesson! My Malay teacher is the best. He has a little hearing problem. I was repeating something, and he wrote something else. Sigh. Sometimes, i do laugh in class.

Eh, i couldn't stop laughing lah. You know that i can laugh for 24/7, right?

I even laughed for like...15 minutes non stop that day on Tuesday, i think, because of Corliss.

I mean like, yes. It was the time i couldn't drink any cold drinks. So i didn't buy Milo. Corliss, whom intended to make me jealous by drinking Milo, made me laugh for 15 minutes non stop.

Why, you asked?

Because she didn't know how to poke the straw into the box. She went and took those white, bigger, fatter, longer straw and asked me, "how to poke this in ah?" i was laughing my ass and eye balls out i tell you! For almost 16 years, she still doesn't know how to get the straw to poke it in because she didn't know where to get the straw! I was like omg because its attached to the box. Jia Huei and i laughed like heck when she told us that she thought i was doing magic when i took the straw out from the box. Seriously man. Corliss's really funny.

Then Jia Huei and i laughed and laughed until Corliss got annoyed and didn't want to bother us anymore. Slowly after, she realized that Jia Huei's hands and my hands are about the same size. Its pretty small so she was like, "OMG SO SMALL." and she started rubbering our hands and compare. Jia Huei and i complained about our tiny finger which is like...the last, short finger!

What to do, we're born to be like that, so yes, we annoyed Corliss by being narcissism again. We were like saying, "we are born to be cute!" Corliss was like, "urgh fine fine fine!" She has no choice but to ignore again again.

We did that on purpose actually. I like to talk to Corliss in school. You know, Corliss's like the superwoman. In Puteri, i have 7 of them to talk to. In Wesley, i have like...Corliss & a few others to talk to. But they're like...less than 7. Sedih right. Currently, Corliss, Li Li, Li Ling, and Carl Mann.

4 of them only okay! See the ratio of Puteri to Wesley? 7:4! So i must be lucky already! Haha, well, i'm getting alright with the people here already. Although some of them are sort of the people i don't like, i don't give a damn anymore.

Oh yes before i forget, i got pictures for Puterians to see! =D


Air conditioner 1.


Air conditioner 2. Means we have 2 air conditioners in class.


The sad thing is this. The plastic table. Its really small i tell you!


The teacher's table got to be small too. Like what the heck.

Sigh. Thats all about in class. I couldn't take a picture of the IG inside because you know, later the whole world will know.

Anyway, Li Li's my victim now. Before this was Johntay. Now it's Li Li. You know, this Li Li, is really adorable? She looks really adorable when she blinks her eyes continuously. You know its like those bitches tryin' to tackle sort of thing. But she's not lah of course. She's so effin adorable. And when she smiles and do that altogether, omg, so adorable i tell you.

Okay i better stop saying Li Li's adorable. Anyway yes, she is adorable.

I think i better go off now, really. The homework's piling up. Thanks to those horrible teachers! Homework everyday! =/ Everyday add maths, malay and english until i feel like vomiting on the book.

PS: Heck, i barely even know 10 guys from WMS. I wonder when am i going to know...20 of them. Sigh. What a disappointment. Never mind, time will come! =3

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The middle one is Carl Mann.


This is Li Ling! =D


We were a bit too bored in the train.

Oh yes. Her mom's super cool i tell you. Her mom's like a very good companion. I went on her car today. And her mom said from far we looked like sisters. Cewah! Anyway, we are about the same. Like 95%? Its pretty quite the same. She's like a mirror of me. So nice to have someone like that, somehow.


Anyway, goodnight lovies!

PPS: I wonder when can i talk to IG with comfortable feelings? Sigh. Its like so weird talking to guys. Hmm...

Labels: Friends, School

HOI! WEIKEN IS NOT THE IG LAH!



This is typed because people mistook Weiken as the IG. When Weiken is not my IG.
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I couldn't believe that...there's such people. My god.

We can die.

ANYWAY! =D

The good part.

Finally i found someone in my class. =D

And i call him IG because it stands for Interesting Guy. Saw that initials? Great yeah?

Ah. I didn't expect to see someone like that.

I told a few that i think there's someone interesting i know. Carl Mann was like, "no one is interesting."

I was like, "GOT OKAY!" then she started guessing who is it. She guessed the whole class, i gave her clues, and whatnot. She was all, "i guessed all already, sure its one of them."

Ah. Actually she knows who's that, but i was denying all the way. But she still insisted that it's him. Who knows, she's super genius until she knew it from the very first minute i told her. What the heck. But who cares now.

That guy is s sweet, anyway.

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Oh yes, another student i know as well. (THIS IS NOT IG!)

When Li Ling asked for his name, he told her. I heard it as bacon as first. You know that food. Then i asked again and again to confirm.

Oh, his name is Weiken. Sigh. Why am i so...dumb? Maybe i am already...deaf somehow. The urge to be old i think. You know, seniors' hearing has a little problem right? Sigh.


Whatever.



Do you know that i hate biology? The teacher sucks i tell you. She scolded everyone who didn't right a), b), and c) for techniques on our exercises. She asked us to redo. She has no brains i think. Omg. I think i'll die before the 1st. So if i do die early, please come and visit me, okay? The 7's are compulsory.

Anyway i better go off now to prepare for my ballet lessons. I've three classes per week now. Dang.

Labels: Friends, School

You know, on the first day of school, i thought i was the only sesat-ed one from Sri Petaling and the condominium is on the lrt to Wesley. (how i know? first time, okay.)

Slowly...it turns out i'm not the only one. *sweat*



I seriously didn't know. So Jasmine and the rest, don't worry kay. Look at the...least amount of Wesleyans on the lrt. That's like a small part of them. The rest are located somewhere...maybe on the another part of the train or...still in school. Or waiting for the next train as they came up late. =)

I know lah you guys are worrying about me 'cause i'm taking lrt alone right. Aha. There, got prove that i'm not alone. I've a neighbor to go to school with as well.

She is...Li Ling. She stays opposite my block, Jasmine! I was like omg. Kakaka. So now we go to school together everyday. We car pool too! Yeay i've a car pool buddy here now.

Don't worry Jasmine, i'll always love you guys.

PS: I'm in set 1 for malay. Shocking man! How can i be in...set 2 for maths and set 3 for english when i'm in set 1 for malay? I guess my malay's always better than maths and english? Or maybe not. =/ Hmm...

Labels: Random

Yesterday, when Madam Phoon was emphasizing on the alpha and beta during additional mathematics class, i remembered of Puteri.

My year got 7 classes - sigma, omega, theta, zeta, delta, beta, and alpha. I know my year doesn't have epsilon...so...yeah. I miss them so much! In Wesley, it's W, M, C, W, P, K, and L which stands for Wesley Methodist College Wilayah Persekutuan Kuala Lumpur.

I wondered why i chose to leave, over and over again. I've never known why. I don't think i had a reason why to leave. I really miss you guys.

I miss those times when we fight.

I miss those times when we laugh.

I wish i could join you guys for 'guys side seeing session' during classes.

Whatever it is, i'm seeing you guys on the 1st. I don't care!

I wanna molest Jasmine! >:) Jasmine, here i come!

& i actually wondered how Jane survived because sometimes she doesn't bring food and money to school. I'm quite worried for her. Jane Yeowwwww.

Katherine's the only miao. I swear she looked mean when she was younger. She looked like she can eat you anytime! But no matter how she looks and looked like, i still miss her.

Kumi and Weeru are the adorable ones.

Oh yes Weeru, lets go shopping! :)

JOYCE LAU. I miss touching your smooth hand. Even when you say it has acnes all over. But who cares. Your complexion is smooooooth like tofu. (L) Joy-c Lau.

Lord Voldemort, i'll never ever forget you because of our past. And your nose. =D Okay, now Jasmine's dead dog is in my head. Do you guys still remember about the dog?




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Maybe i should stop talking about them next time in my other future posts. I'll try to.

I guess my posts are getting shorter post by post. Ah whatever.

Labels: Depression, School, Thoughts, Unforgettable

I think today's post will be a very short post due to my...lack of...ideas in blogging.

Okay. I just found out what set am i in for english today. I was...like...shock because i just realized that i did badly for my entrance exam. What the hell. Because of that, i'm in set 3 for english, with Eileen. FOR REAL OKAY. But set 3's pretty good though. Its like a private tuition group. Everyday. Yes we do have english everyday here. Thank god i got into set 3 because according to Diksha, the english teacher for set 1 and 2 are scary. So i should be glad i'm in set 3! :)

Even for add maths! Okay, maybe i didn't do that bad for maths. I'm in set 2, which is like an ok-ok group. With Eileen again. I wonder which set will i be in for malay now? Would it be with Eileen again? MAMMA MIA!

Oh yes, today is Zhen Yie's last day in Wesley, because she's leaving for some unknown school. Why is she leaving, simply because she couldn't get into the science stream. School's that strict. So now she has no choice but to leave Wesley and go to another school that accepts her PMR results and all. Hopefully she'll be happy there as well.

What i couldn't take it is...when we're going to be good friends, she's already leaving! I won't be sitting with Zhen Yie for add maths anymore! I can die i tell you! I'll be lonely again. Sigh. WHY MUST IT BE ME!? Ah. Zhen Yie, why must you leave? :(

Oh yes during add maths today, i was singing 'Lonely' because Zhen Yie's leaving and i'll have no one to sit with during add maths anymore. Its so heart breaking. Okay, maybe i'll find another partner for add maths. Hopefully i'll have someone beside me instead of Zhen Yie's empty table & chair. Sigh.

WHY MAN. Sigh.

Whatever is it. I saw Caitlin today. & her friend. I think it's Dhivya. Dhivya thought i was selling milo. HAHA SO SHE DIDN'T SAY HI. Caitlin was like, "eh say hello lah, don't be sombong!" then her friend was like "OH HELLO! sorry i thought you were selling milo because you were like this *shows how i waved with my milo*"

Now Caitlin says that i am a milo woman. Ah.

Anyway, pictures for the Puterians to see!


This is what i see everyday when i reach school, by the corridor of my class. I'll post pictures around the school sometime okay? =)


Very good example to follow while reading Reader's Digest in school. Okay lah she was covering her face. And she is Corliss, my goldfish, my girlfriend in school.


Memories in Puteri. I can still remember Jane, Jasmine and i used to get crazy over those and we would even start scolding the 'people' who got them but not us. Eh, we were over obsessed kay. We love ice cream. I'm still finding for berryjello. :)Zhen


Yie's leaving! :( Okay, from the left is Carl Mann, Li Li, Zhen Yie, me, then Josephine! Zhen Yie's last day in Wesley today though.

Labels: Friends, School, Uncategorized

Today is Awal Muharam hence its a holiday.

Just because its a public holiday, the teachers went and pile up the homework for us. So mean.

I've never like homework, i've never completed my homework for...years. Okay, maybe i do. I do complete them, but it depends on which teacher. In Wesley, every teacher is the same. No freaking difference among them. They're equally strict, and loves to give us homework.

Ah.

I've like so many homework yesterday, and i've done all. Grace said it'll increase. So it does mean that...i'll get more homework in the future? =/

Can die.

Anyway, about me getting used to the school...it's okay for now. At least i'm feeling a little of school already. I make friends every single day, not knowing their name. If it's the old timers, i see their nametag. But, if its a new student, i'll find out their names later. I'm bad at memorizing names.

I'm still trying to build my foundation in Wesley. It's a little hard since i know nobody, and to build my foundation, i've to know...most of them. There's like so many students there. Ah. It's like...so hard!

I'm still reminiscing. People says i'm complaining. It's so annoying about it. Really, i get offended. It's like, they couldn't find for a word that suits the whole situation. Unlike Grace, she's right like...twice. I made a bipolar decision, and, i've to stop reminiscing. Although it's hard, but i'll try.

Maybe its because i had too much memories back in Puteri. & i've to like, let go of everything from Puteri. But, I MISS THE FOOD THERE. It's a little better than Wesley.

Their burgers. Its freaking hard. Their curry puffs, it's a little way salty. But! During lunch, its yummier than Puteri. Puteri has like only...chicken rice, coconut rice and maybe a few dishes to choose from, but, Wesley's like...WHOA. Food heaven. But one thing's not nice, they doesn't have snacks like nuggets, fishballs, and those during lunch.

Why the hell am i comparing. Okay, i mean, the food are almost about the same. The only difference is the people who prepared that food. I miss Puteri's. For some reason, although i'm super bored with it.

Okay, whatever it is, it's still food, and i won't die of hunger early in the morning.

Back to it.

Yesterday Madam Hema checked my diary and she said, "oh okay. draw lines for the date due." woah. i thought i did some crap on my diary since i draw orange highlighted lines beside the box, when its not in need as it's the holidays. She said it's not necessary, but its necessary for me. The diary is...yellowish, and its...black metal ring binding. Okay, i'm so lost of words now about it. I'm stopping about the diary.

Now, i need to rant, yes, i really MUST.

*starts rant*
corliss asked me to delete this, so, goodbye my rant. maybe my rant would be in my wordpress blog i think. now i have second thoughts of going back to wordpress because of the functions.
*ends rant*

Labels: Rants, School

Before typing what i want to in this post, i want to say that...i've transferred from Wordpress to this Blogspot again because of some reasons. Such as...

• Carlmann didn't see my tagboard in Wordpress, as the tagboard's is like so faraway from my main blog page.

• Jasmine said its inconvient to tag.

So, yeah, i'm back at Blogspot. I don't know when i'll shift to another host. So, let's pray that i won't change anymore.

Let me start on what i planned to type.

I should look forward insted of back. If i do look back, it saddens me so much till i cry like a kid. Although i miss Puteri very much, i've to familiarize and get used to the life in Wesley. Yes, i can't deny that the life in Puteri and Wesley are totally different like nobody's business.

I couldn't say i'm happy in Wesley, as i'm super lonely there. It's like...i'm friendless. No one talked to me, so far. Maybe some will, but just not now. I've met a few more on the second day of school as well, like Carl Mann. Oh yes, John Tay too, indirectly. Well i said indirectly 'cause we spoke like not friends sort of thing. We spoke for a word or two. I mean for real, just a word or two. Okay maybe a sentence. What the hell. Who cares now. Who cares if i don't even have a guy friend in school.

Hopefully i'll have great friends like the 7's in Wesley too!

Carl Mann and i are going to hang out in school from Monday, since we're super lonely in class. Thank god i'll have someone proper to be with in school now. Being with Li Li is weird, 'cause...it's weird. I don't know why!

That Corliss GoldFish, never choi me also. So mean i know! Okay lah, i was crapping lah. We hope to be in the same club since we didn't get into the same class. Omg, so heart breaking. Actually it's normal for people to have their own friends. Dang. Hopefully we'll talk more. Aiyah.

What lah, i'm always emo-ing. Missing Puteri lah, this lah, that lah.

I even cried in school because of that. So embarrassing. Eh the 7's, i just want to tell the 7 of you that i really miss you guys a lot! Can't forget the times that we had together. Its worst than breaking up with a boyfriend weih!

I wonder how i survived in school for the 2 days. Without friends. Without anyone. Except Li Li & Josephine on the 2nd day. So far, for now, going to school and back is not a big 'problem' as i have Li Li as a company. You know, for a girl in the LRT alone is scary!

I'm finding for more classmates so we'll have a big group. But there doesn't seem to be any of them except for me and Li Li. Okay, maybe Zhi Hui's included. Okay lah. This Zhi Hui, is someone i roughly know as a stranger and he doesn't know me at all. Aiyah, why am i so bad at recognizing people. I barely even know 10 of my classmates.

So sad man! If i am in Puteri, i know every damn person, even if they don't know me. So nice. In Wesley, i know no one. And no one knows me. Sigh. Most of the people there looked away after giving a glance at me. I wonder what's wrong with me. Sigh. It's like so weird being in class without Jane. I miss being in the same class with Jane.

Maybe it's becuse i'm used to the life of playing and talking to my good friends, so i'm facing this? Sigh. What a life.

I feel sad inside when i see the Milo box in school when i drink them, a table with many girls during breaks, and mistook girls' hair like Jane's and other Puteri friends. OMG. I really miss you guys!

I think i really made a mistake when i sat for the Wesley's entrance exam. Sigh. I wondered why i was so desperate to study in KL. There's nothing great about it.

Why am i so dumb at making a decision?

*cries* I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS! I think i'm school sick. Since i've been in Puteri for 9 years, and i feel school there. In Wesley, it's like what the heck.

I miss Puteri very very much. (U) Okay i think i better stop repeating about Puteri and the 7's.

Anyway i've to sleep early now 'cause i've to wake up super early like 5.30am to prepare. Life's not the same in KL. I miss Seremban's. Seremban's more free. In KL, it's like...i don't know. I'm just not used to it. I've to study more than play. My dad will slaughter me alive if i play more than i study.

Hopefully i'll do well for the first term exam. Sigh. Why is it so stressful in Wesley!

PS: I hope i'll do alright with my ballet and academics altogether, and of course, i can fit perfectly in the schedule, if i'm taking my ballet exam this year. Sigh, i'm only worried if i couldn't do well for my March's term exam if i take triple classes of ballet per week. It's scary!

I wish i could have good friends like the 7's in Wesley too.

Carl Mann's going to be next! :) (i think! i think she will though.)

Labels: Depression, Friends, Rants, School, Thoughts

Don't you know how happy, NOT, is it to be in a new school, and of course, environment?

It's really heart breaking. Some of you may think, "aiyah, leave Puteri better lah!"

Seriously, no. You'll start missing your friends and school. & how the teachers make hell of a noise. It's really saddening. Sigh.

I nearly cried, and Corliss was like, "don't cry, don't cry. Let's eat." Very encouraging. =.='

I've made a few new friends, like...Su-Yen, some girl (i can't remember her name but she sits beside Su-Yen), Li Li, Liyana, etc. Not many, but it's still sad!

Li Li is Tan Lai Lu's cousin, you know! I was like wth when i know. We're now going to school together because we're alone when we're to school since we take LRT to school, so, yeah. She's my classmate too.

So cacat.

Oh yeah, can you believe that...some of the teachers started a little of their lesson? I don't know how to say this, but yeah.

My History teacher is...i don't know. She can talk for the whole 2 periods long. Can die man i tell you.

Ah.

Actually, it's quite a bad day for me overall. Just to post a little about my day.

So now, briefly, i'm a Wesley-ian, and not a Puteri-an anymore. So sad. I feel like running back to Puteri! Now, John Tay is my class's monitor and Su-Yen is the assistant monitor. It's so weird to have guys as my classmates too. :S

OH YES. SOME BLOODY PREFECT PULLED ME OUT. BECAUSE OF MY SKIRT. THEY SAID ITS TOO TIGHT. WTH OKAY! THAT LADY WHO SAID THE SKIRT IS ALRIGHT FOR ME SHOULD BE CURSED. THE PREFECTS WERE LIKE BLAMING ME. OKAY. NOW I HATE THE SCHOOL FOR THAT.

PS: Eli, hope you'll get well soon. :)

PPS: Excuse my english for this post because i am not paying full attention when i was typing this. i think there's more than 10 errors. aiyah. i'll blog properly later.

Just remember i love you guys from Puteri!

Labels: Depression, School

To my sexy best friends good friends, the 7's - Jasmine, Jane, Katherine, Weeru, Kumuta, Geraldine, and Joyce. ONLY.

This post is for the 7 of you. ONLY.

Since we did good for our PMR, and just, exclude Jane for her B in Malay, my dad said one of the days...

WE'LL GO TO PORT DICKSON FOR A NIGHT OR TWO! He'll pay for everything. BBQ too. He said he'll rent a chalet/house for us. & of course, with my dad & a few family members. Since you guys are so darn close to me (okay lah, can consider also) so please, make them like your family too! :D

He said that because i told him about Geraldine's words (Geraldine: we've to go to Penang. he said he'll take us to Penang.). Just because of Jane's B, we'll go to Port Dickson instead. What about it? Comment, okay!

It'll be on one of the school days, like Friday till Saturday or Sunday. Or maybe on one of the public holidays. Only when we're all free, of course.

So, how? Want, or don't want? Are you guys okay with it? Please contact me at 017-XXXXXXX. Don't forget okay!

Labels: Invitation