Yeah, whatever. My first time, okay!?

1. Study hard for the March term, and finals. (you know, reach their passing marks to stay still in the science stream) & study for other tests/exams. (so the school wont kick me to arts and study. i want to be in science's. you know, methodist's a little crazy) (hopefully i'll study for exams)
2. Not to have any boyfriend. (i'm sick of being in a relationship already)
3. Not to sleep in class, or feel sleepy during school hours. (oh, Puteri-ans understand this. i always sleep during free periods or...early in the morning)
4. Love my brothers, and sisters. (HELLO! Kenvin, Youngmin, Damien, Joevin, Jasmine, Jane & Pamela)
5. Not to do any offenses in Wesley Methodist School on the first day and get fired off by the teachers or prefects
6. No molesting computer everyday online every single hour during schooling days. (whatever, i don't understand what i said, but i mean, not to be super addicted like how i always do in Seremban, you know, online everyday.)
7. Lose weight (reducing the amount of food i consume in school is included)
8. Have a bunch of new great friends like the 7's in Wesley Methodist School
9. COMPLETE SCHOOL'S WORK AT HOME EVERYDAY
10. Study consistently
11. Forget him
12. Not to forget any of my friends from Puteri
13. See Hermes and Huey (the hamsters, you know!)
14. Be a professional en pointe if i still remain in ballet (take the exam too if possible)
15. To be active in extra curricular activities
16. To be loved by everyone! :D

I think they're enough? Or is there more for me to do? I don't know. The 16th one is really dumb, because i purposely put that up as i'm going to be 16 in 2008. Whatsoever it is...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Edited (0048): Okay, my boss's making hell of noise, so, i've to add another one more resolution. That is...meet my boss the hamster. I mean, meet my boss. He calls himself a hamster too, so, yeah, meet my boss the hamster in 2008. So i now have 17 new year resolutions altogether.

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RIP Horatio.

Horatio the hamster, i'm going to miss seeing you eating kuaci in Jasmine's house as you passed away 2 nights ago.

Let me welcome the new member of the hamster's family in Jasmine's house.



Hermes (male), and Huey (female). I think Jasmine's dreams came true. She don't need to buy any more hamsters because they'll multiply for her. & after multiplying, i'll have some shares too, i think.

Okay lah. I got the idea of naming her female hamster Huey because of Ethel's dog. So, officially credits to Ethel Tan. I've no idea whether her dog's a female or male, but whatever. Huey is a nice name.

I know some of you would think Huey is the cina apek's name, but no. Its pronounced as HOO EEEE.

PS: I just realized that she asked me to name HER hamster. 0.0 i think it's because i, too love her hamsters as if they were mine.

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Today i went for Wesley's orientation. Bloody fool.

On the letter they wrote from 8am to 10am. They finished at around 9.30am. I saw Corliss too. She came a little late to school. I was like, "wth, where's that girl."

We didn't sit together in the lecture hall though. The one who conducted the whole thing was...Miss Vicky, the supervisor for Form 4.

In the end, I'M IN RED HOUSE. I'm really...sad. And disappointed. When that sports teacher said that i'm in red house, my head automatically dropped, in disappointment. I was expecting for green.

But on the other hand, Corliss got green. She wanted red, but she got green. Dang, i think we should really exchange the house color.

And my class for Form 4 is Form 4C! I don't care whether it's the last class or heck, i'm still in science stream. I really don't know how they arrange us though. According to the Wesley-ians, there's no difference between classes because they don't stream the students. I know there's M, W, C, K (i think)...etc. I can't remember.

Corliss's in Form 4W i think. It makes no difference to me. The only difference is...we're 2 class away. Okay i mean there's a class in between our respective class. It's really saddening though.

Thats what she thought too. Right, Corliss?

PS: That stupid school uniform really shucks. The skirt keeps on moving around, and sometimes, it goes up. Dang. I'm going to wear that for like 2 friggin years and i don't know how am i going to stay in that patiently. Just for a two-hours orientation programme and i've been complaining.

How bad, they're going to...kill us with tests and exams. In total in the rule book, there's 6 tests and exams altogether. Stupid man.

Hopefully i'll do well in my March term exam and finals. Its so...scary. If i don't do well for the finals, i might have to restart Form 4 or if i don't want that, leave Wesley Methodist. Dang. I would die studying.

PPS: JANE YEOW AND I GOT AN IPOD ALREADY! & its the same color. Omg, we're like the happiest jackasses on earth! We got it yesterday from Pavilion. She came down to KL then my dad and i met her there because she also wants to get the iPod like me. At first i wanted the iPod Nano and she wanted the iPod Touch. But in the end, we got iPod Classic. I mean we bought the same one. Aha. We're so, so happy.

PPPS: I love JASMINEEEEE. (L)

Labels: Rants, School

I woke up slowly to get ready to leave my dad's condominium for Puteri.

The driver came 5-10 minutes late, and i waited for my stepmom, so i left the house at 9.20am, which is 20 minutes late. Ah.

I reached Puteri at about...10am. I thought i was darn late and all, but in the end, the results are the one 1 hour LATE. I waited there, walking around and all. Oh yes, Jasmine gave me 2 presents - 2008's 16th birthday and a farewell gift (the farewell gift was a letter though).

Dang, the school didn't allow me to take my report book and others. They need my dad's IC and yada yada. Ah. So annoying.

After we saw Puan Poziah walking up to the hall, and when she was about to enter the hall, she came to Jane and i to congratulate. And that time was BEFORE results. Jane and i was like, "wth, we haven't got our results yet, and teacher is congratulating us. maybe she was being sarcastic!"

When its time for results, Jane and i went running into the hall, with the feeling of eagerness along. We were like, "where's teacher!? where's teacher!!??" Then slowly some teacher sat on our class's counter's chair.

Jing Xuan was the first one to get her results.

Then it was my turn. With fear, i told teacher my name, and she searched for my results slip. After she found it, she passed it to me with the slip folded and i held it in fear, turning to my left and faced Siti (the head prefect of Puteri) to take some certificate. After that, i unfold the paper, looking at the grades, hunting for the B's.

BABI FOOL. That paper conned me. There's no B there, and i thought i was conned by my eyes or something. I checked the grades again, there's not a B there at all, and i started jumping, then cried. People thought i didn't do that well for my PMR from the way i cried. Again, to make sure, i checked the name. Okay, wth, the name's mine. It is written there clearly that it's my name. So i was not blind or something. Then Puan Poziah asked me and Jane for our results, then we told her. She said, "dah katakan tahniah, kamu yang tak nak percaya." and i was like =.='

I went crying when i was on the way to see my stepmom, to ask her to hold, because i want to call my dad to inform him about the results. My stepmom saw my results and she said i'm crazy because i was crying. =.=' so evil.

Then, i saw Jasmine on the other side there, hugging and running. So i hit her on her back and she turned. Without thinking twice, she hugged me and we sama-sama cried. Yeah, i know, wth. She was too touched and cried as well because i said, "i got 7A's because of you, thank you very much!" Aha.

Then we took pictures in the hall and all.



That is when we were quite high about our results. Okay, from left - Yuen May, Jasmine, Joyce, Katherine, then Geraldine.

After our monkey problems in the hall, we decided to go to Jusco for farewell and to celebrate our success. We ate at Sushi King, and i treated a drink and soup as my farewell gift and...it was because i'm over happy.

Okay lah, i was over happy to be honest.

Jane and i...for now...we're getting an iPod for real! She's getting the iPod classic i think. And me...iPod nano! Finally! :)

Oh yes, before they left for movies, which didn't include Jane and i for the movies, we took a group picture.

SHOUTOUT!: I'll miss you guys a lot! I won't forget you guys.



That's the end i think.

Sigh. It's quite sad. I'm going to miss them. (U)

(L) to all my close friends.

Congrats to the 94 students from Puteri who got 7A's for PMR.

PS: EVERYONE! LISTEN UP! KOH KYEAN FROM THEKYEANDIARY.BLOGSPOT.COM IS A LIAR. SHE IS A LIAR OKAY! I ASKED HER HOW MANY A'S SHE GOT, AND SHE LIED TO ME BY TELLING ALL B'S FIRST, THEN SLOWLY, THREE, THEN, SHE SAID SHE GOT 7A'S. SHE IS A PENIPU! DON'T BELIEVE HER OKAY! (L)

Okay lah, Kohkyean, i main habis you already. Happy and satisfied now. xD

Love you, bao bei Kyean.

Labels: Friends, School, Unforgettable

Tomorrow.

Is the day.

What can i say more, anyway?

Labels: Depression

I got tagged by my pet brother, Kenvin! :) So the rest of you whom i tagged, do this thing too okay! :D

1.) Jasmine Kok
2.) Jane Yeow
3.) Ethel Tan
4.) Kenvin Lek
5.) Leon Wee
6.) Weeru Ho
7.) Geraldine Liew
8.) Kumuta Palan

Questions.

1. Is #1 attractive?
JASMINE? Hell of course yeah, guys are interested in her, you know.

2. Have you met his/her parents?
Yes.

3. Are you or have you ever been romantically involved with this person?
Oh, yea yea. We're girlfriends. Is that enough for an answer?

4. Have you ever hugged #2?
Yes.

5. Friends with benefits?
We're sisters.

6. Have you even met this person?
Like yes. So many times. For more than a year already.

7. Do you actually like #3?
Yes.

8. Do you go to school with him/her?
I wish.

9. Have you been to his/her house?
Outside of her condo's gate.

10. How old is #4?
16!

11. Do you guys have inside jokes?
Uh what?

12. Is this person athletic?
I think so. He likes badminton and football. I think i'm right. Hopefully i am.

13. When's #5's birthday?
1st June. '92.

14. How'd you meet this person?
Online, i think.

15. Are you glad you met this person?
Sort of.

16. What's #6's middle name?
I doubt she has any.

17. Does he/she have siblings?
Yes.

18. When are you going to see this person next?
This Thursday.

19. Use one word to describe #7.
Skinny.

20. Does he/she have a pet?
I doubt so. Or she has one? I can't remember.

21. Have you ever been out of town with this person?
I doubt so.

22. Why is #8 last?
'Cause i couldn't think of any good friends of mine.

23. Does she live near you?
Faraway, now.

24. Is he/she attractive?
She's vain, you know.

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For some...unknown reason, i'm annoyed with festive greetings for real.

When someone goes "Merry Christmas", "Happy New Year", or even "Happy Chinese New Year" to me, i'll get annoyed. I don't know why, but yes, i don't like it. It's annoying, to me.

I think it's unnecessary to greet festively. I've no idea what's so important about it. For Christmas especially. I thought it was Jesus's birthday? Or death day or something like that. Sigh, why new years are so grand? It's just a new start of a new year. That's all.

On the Chinese New Year, i, too, as a chinese, do not know what is so great about it. *cries* Okay i know it's such of an embarrassment, but, whatever. I know Chinese New Year, and other festivals are really important to their own respective races and religions, but it's such a 'whatever' to me.

I know, i'm such a 'childish girl'. Ah.

To me, since...Form 1 or 2, Chinese New Year's nothing to me. Getting red packets are really boring. It doesn't matter if i get those red packets or not. What's important is...money. Why can't they just supply me money for my whole life, so i don't need to wait till new year to get it. Just give me money right in front of my face is better than giving red packets.

I want money.

Anyway, Christmas sounds interesting to me though. Whatsoever i feel on festivals, i'll still wish you guys a very Merry Christmas.

I know some people would get offended because of this, but, aiyah, up to you. Its my own thoughts anyway.

Labels: Thoughts

I do believe that some people doesn't appreciate their friends at first, but when it comes to leaving them, they'll appreciate them. Maybe i took things for granted. Or no. I do have friends since i was a kid. It's that they dislike me for some reason 0.0 which i don't know. I'll be leaving Puteri for good to Wesley Methodist in a short while. & after that, i won't get to see you guys anymore. I do feel sad over it 'cause i've never gone through this sort of thing before. It's quite saddening.

Although i'm going, my heart will be with you guys. Until you guys graduate. :D

Friends i know during secondary period have been nice to me. Except some, like Jasmine. xD Okay, i was kidding. This post is created just to show gratitude towards them.

P/S: Friends from Puteri, only. If you think i didn't want to blog about non-Puteri-ans, sorry lah, this post is only for Puteri-ans. (L)


Firstly, i would like to show my gratitude wholeheartedly to Jasmine Kok. If it wasn't her, I WILL NOT STUDY FOR PMR. I would still be playing around, not touching any books at all, be an idiot just before PMR. No joke! Just because i saw her studying like crap for PMR, i felt bad and dumb inside, so i studied. Well, studying a little is better than nothing, no? (L)(L)

I knew this girl when we were in...Year...Year...it's either Year 5 or Year 6. I mean when we talked. I saw her when i was in Year 2. I can still remember that because she walked passed me with that LC face when we were in Year 2. Since then, i think she's LC. (SHE DIDN'T NOTICE ME!) Anyway, yeah, she was in the better class. For...2 years in primary, i'm one class below her. Okay lah, i'm stupider than her in short.

We became sisters, somehow during the end of Form 2 i think. I don't know how, really. Then this year, it upgraded to girlfriends, not sisters. (EDIT: if we break up, we'll become sisters again. =.=') Due to the status upgrade, we'll be involved in our "distance relationship". xD Oooooh i really miss those times we were in the same class in 2005. Not really, because we fight a lot in class.

Eh, that time we weren't close enough to talk around so of course lah. And what else, i disliked her and she strongly disliked me. I can remember us fought until don't wanna talk, because i didn't want to obey her orders. I sat with Fiona in the science lab. She didn't like it because she knows i will make hell of noise with Fiona, and she wanted the class to be silent. Lalala.

OH YES I FORGOT! My Maths marks was once higher than hers! :D:D:D That was in Year 6 only. What a disappointment. *cries*

Now, she's becoming more annoying than ever.

Why?

ASK ME ASK ME!

Because she is watching Mawang now. & she even downloaded the soundtrack! What a bish.


Another, Jane Yeow YECK PEI. Without her in class, i'll be sleeping during lessons because lessons in school are real dead boring. Because of her, the atmosphere in class changed into laughter from death. I know Jane Yeow when we were younger, i think. I think it was...Year 3 or 4. We weren't that close that time though.

We became closer, but still friends, in Year 5 because we were in the same class. In Year 6, we became closer again, but, she disliked me that year though. I don't know why. (i guess everyone hates me) She was always with Elaine, hanging around with Elaine, etc. I can remember her crushing on Calvin Wong during Year 6. &...things happened. That's undisclosed! Thats the sisters' matters.

Slowly, year by year, we became closer, then in Year 8, we became 'close friends' kinda. We became sisters because we go to tuition every Thursday last year and Wednesdays this year. Her mom car pools me, so yeah, we became closer. I'll know every darn little secret about her. & she'll know mine too. Okay, just a lil.

She's there for me when i need her. In school. It's that, i love her lah. I even heard that her face was in this "i'm going to cry" sort of expression when i was away for the Sri Cempaka entrance examination. Even when i went to her house a few days ago to take my discs back and give her things, she hugged me and i saw her eyes. Her eyes are like, "i'm going to cry" again. Sigh.

I wonder how am i going to survive in Wesley without her.

Jane's the most adorable person you can find. She's good at debating, as she wants to be a lawyer when she grows up. We even used to plan to work in the same firm. xD Lawyer was once my ambition too okay. If you don't believe, you ask Jane.


It is her, WEERU HO, who often merajuk when we don't want to tell her things. Or in another expression, she'll go, "ANIYAAAAA!" with that pout.

In school, she'll always say, "LET'S GO SHOPPING IN KL!"

She likes cam whoring. She loves no one but me Matt. Oopsie daisy.


IT'S KUCI!

Okay, Kumuta Palan. I am sorry for KUCI. KUCI's a new name for you, my dear.

Anyway yes. I know her when i was in Year 6, because we were the only sesat-ed people in Mr Jabar's class. From her sitting beside Harsimirit, she migrated to beside me. Slowly just because we were the sesat-ed girls in Mrs Ong's and Mr Jabar's we became close. Somehow but i don't why and how, she became my best friend.

When we broke up as best friends, i became depressed. Okay, don't ask for further story.

She's a real nice person when you get to know her. She might look like a bish out there, but she's really nice. We went out right after PMR, to Jusco, and walked like dings and ate at Sushi King. xD Those were the days. I'm going to miss this KUCI.


The girl on left; Katherine Lim. She's the TBO - The Blur One. Sometimes she goes, "Huh? What? Pardon? Repeat again."

Although she looks good out, she's not, really. Never judge one by it's cover. She's really aggressive and she has energy to kick you to England.

Okay lah, since i was mean for 3 sentences, i shall say something nice about her.

Without her, i would have to walk home every time when i stay back in school. Without her, i wouldn't have gone to Encik Khalil's class to improve a little Malay. Without her, i will not know anyone who would have love soup as much as her. Okay wth. Ignore my last sentence.

The girl on right; Joyce Lau.

Dingdingding. She is memang nice so i can say nuts lah.

I can remember when she guessed something right. She likes to do something that you least expect. Although we're not as close as close friends, she's still my friend. The thing i won't forget is that, when she returns, i'm leaving. Sad case. Joy cee lau.

As i have nuts to say about her, i shall end it about her here.


This girl likes to say, "Yuenmay shucks!" For some reason, which i don't know.

Maybe that's what a flat-nose-girl would say to her friend all the time.

This is the girl who has the nick name - Lord Voldemort because Lord Voldemort doesn't have a nose.

This is the girl who burps in front of her friends and say, "oh excuse me."

This is the girl who likes singing in public.

This is the girl whom i know since kiddy years.

This is the girl who is dating Weeru.

This is the girl who carries the name Geraldine Liew.


To be honest, she's not my close friend. The reason why i pin her up here is because she brightens my day by singing Mr Bean's theme song. She made me laugh throughout the year.

She's Mrs Bean, and bum bum Jas altogether.

And yes, she's also an amateur PROFESSIONAL butt slapper.

JASMINE LEE! You won't be hitting my butt anymore. xD

I'm going to miss it, unfortunately.


Her name's Karyn Choo, someone who'll kiss girls. Jane and i got the kiss in class and we jumped.

Quote Jane, "AIYER I DON'T WANT TO GET MY FIRST KISS FROM A GIRL. YER YER YER! YUCK! *rubs face*"

After that, Karyn could only laugh her butt off. Karyn's a really nice person, although she has interest in girls. I think she's not interested in girls anymore?

Who cares, anyway, she's still...after all, Karyn Choo.


Swea Mun Siow is some cutie pie in Zeta. She is darn cute when she's laughing, and talk. For some reason, we people in Zeta thinks she's cute. She used to have some good waves. But due to laziness, she stopped making it good. Instead, she cut her hair short.

We're partially close, not that close, but quite. She's my Mandarin "teacher". Jane and i go hunting for her when we need to understand some Mandarin. She's also smart.

Although sometimes she acts like one typical Chinese who speaks Chinese only, but seriously, her English is also good.

I was shock, when i know that she's also good at Chinese. Okay whatever it is, she's good at both languages. That's Swea Mun Siow, also known as Xue Wen Siow.

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In conclusion, I won't forget you guys, ever. I don't think i could visit you guys 'cause i heard from my soon-to-be schoolmates said that the school prepares too much homework. So i don't think i'll have the time to travel to Seremban, or even online during weekdays. Don't worry okay, you can email me! :)

I'll sure reply, even if i reply late. Just understand lah.

Wth man, what am i talking, no one will email. =.='

Anyway, (L)(L).

To all Puteri-ans, work hard! Tell me those updates about Puteri when i'm away. Text me if you have to too. (L)

OH YES I FORGOT SOMEONE!


MY MOMMY! (L)

To Pamela Lai: I don't like your sifat long. xD

I purposely let the picture to be oversize, to make Pamela impress. xD Okay lah. No lah. Its because i've no choice.

Labels: Friends

Ethel & i might be on the tv. Check out the first two weeks of January to hunt us. It's at 11.30am from Monday to Friday.

:)

PICTURES FROM TODAY'S OUTING!


My UK chocolates from Ethel. :)


Was on the way to her house.


We were trying to be retards.


Another try.


I don't know.


Lovelove.


Her.


:D


Another Karyn. Seriously, she scared me alright. As a friend, not lesbians, thank you very much.

That was ugly.

I think that this is nice.



That's all for the day i suppose.

Except for the fact that its the day when i got my first most meaningful present for my belated birthday.

Much love and thanks to Etheltan. (L)

Labels: Friends, Traveling And Events

*starts rant*

How nice, i overslept this morning. Just because of that, i skipped my last ballet lesson before the holidays. And regarding to the 'math', i'll have another 4 replacements. At Lot 10. Okay, maybe not only in Lot 10. Maybe i can go to Phileo or Damansara Utama to replace :) Oh joy. NOT. Miss Wong might be there.

It's my third time oversleeping. Throughout my...whole secondary life. I can't recall my primary life so yeah. What the heck.

I went to my ballet school at 12 to take the replacement slip, with an excuse - car broke down. Why, its because if i tell them i overslept, they might not give me the replacement slip.

I'm feeling extremely...bad for oversleeping. I slept at about 11 or maybe earlier last night, and woke up at 11.45am this morning. I didn't know that i could sleep so long. 0.0

Hopefully i won't friggin oversleep anymore. I hate it when i overslept.

*ends rant*

Okay. Mm-hmm...

When i was on the way to Taman Connaught where my ballet school is, i was thinking about me living here, not in Seremban. (friend A, friend B, me, teacher)

Scene One
In Puteri...when the term break is there...

Hey, where are you going for the term break?
OH KL! :D
Oh you're lucky. You can go for shopping!

In Wesley...

Hey, where are you going for the term break?
OH KL! :D
What? You're in KL now. Wth? Sad for you because you're not going anywhere. I'll be flying to *inserts place name*.

Scene Two
In Puteri, when we get back our exam papers back...

OMG, i'm scared i'll fail.
WTF. Who cares lah wei.
Dangs. Fail lah. Who cares in class? Do you even care?
Not really.
Then why were you even scared at the first place?
Yea hor.

In Wesley...

OMG, i'm scared i'll fail.
WTF. Who cares lah wei.
WTH!? There's guys around. Won't you feel embarrassed after scoring low grades when they score higher?
OH SHIAT. I forgot! *embarrassed x2*

Scene Three
In Wesley...when i run...

*runs like nobody's business during school hours* (looking for teacher, to the canteen, etc)
*laughs at the way you run*
WHAT LAH YOU!
The way you run is so friggin' funny alright! (but its not funny lah. just making conversation)
Whatever.

OR

*runs like nobody's business during school hours*
*follows you*

In Wesley...

*runs like nobody's business during school hours*
*stares at me*
Why were you looking at me like one of kind?
*silence*

Slowly, i'll realize that it doesn't look nice for a girl to run like being chased by a dog. Sigh.

Scene Four
In Puteri...during classes...

*sits like a guy*
Woi, you ingat you lelakikah? Duduk baik-baik. Duduklah macam perempuan. Kamu semua ini perempuan. Bukan lelaki, ok!?
Sorry lah cikgu. Sudah biasa. Lain kali kami akan duduk baik-baiklah.

In Wesley...during classes...

*sits like a guy*
*guys stare at girls who sits like that*
*in the mind, "OH SHIAT!" and quickly sits in a proper manner as a girl and starts being embarrassed*
*guys start gossiping*
DANG.

OR

*sits like a guy*
Hey, why are you sitting like a boy? You're a girl, you know.
*guys starts looking at you*
*embarrassed*

Scene Five
In Puteri...after PE lessons...

*changes into school uniform from PE uniform in class*
*doesn't care*

OR

*changes into school uniform from PE uniform in class*
HAHAHA LOOK AT YOUR BRA!
WHAT WHAT WHAT!? Never see before ah!
Can't see meh! We have the same thing okay!
So what! Mine is made of gold. Later you'll curi. Who knows!?

In Wesley...

*changes into school uniform from PE uniform in class*
*THE GUYS LOOK AT YOU, AND YOUR BODY. THEN STARE!*

Scene Six
In Puteri...when i sit crossed legs with pants (but could be seen)...

WAHAHAHA. Can see your panties!
WOI. I'm wearing pants lah okay. *shows*
I don't want to see things in details.
Good then.

In Wesley...

Er......down there...coffee shop...
OOPS. SORRY! *embarrassed, closing it tight*

Sigh. What a disappointment. All those advantage are going away. I won't be able to be like how i want in Wesley anymore.

Other than that, people in Seremban would forget me somehow. Yes, i'm meaning everyone, including Jasmine, Jane, etc. It's not like i'm one of them for them to remember about, like Joyce. They've gone through a "melancholic" phase when she was away in Sibu, Sarawak.

Wth is the big deal anyway. Although they'll forget me no matter how, i'll still remember them.

Its a good thing for me to express my profound feelings here because no one reads my blog. :D

I know, that all of the people i know are not at ease when they're talking to me. They would want to end up the conversation up faster than fast. DANG. Whatsoever it is, everyone i know seems so fake to me. That's why, i try to trust no one. But in the end, i fall in it all over again. Sigh.

Why must life treat me so badly, when i did, nothing?

I have & love Ethel :) (L) although i couldn't abide her sometimes. She's alright in a way. She's good at giving advices, giving tips at shopping...she's always there for you, no matter she's in a good or bad mood. Even when you text her about your problem at her busiest moment, she'll still reply you within 1 hour (what can you expect if she's sleeping, or doing her important stuffs that's still the fastest. as far as i know, those busy people would reply you a day after), trying to comfort you. She's a lovey dovey bish...i've ever met.


Credits to: Ethelimages.

Others, they come, and go. People talk to me, when they have no one to talk to. Thank god i'm leaving Puteri anyway. I would love to leave those fakers off my hands. & hopefully, there's lesser of people like that in Wesley.

I. Hate. Them. No worries, i might not talking about you. :) (L)

If you dislike talking me, just tell me straight in my face...and...go... Life would be better for both parties.

Oh yeah, Phooisze...sorry for not going to your school's prom. I know you wanted me to go there badly like no one's business, but i really can't...and i totally forgot about it. Sorry lah darling. I promise that i'll go to your school's next year's IFF and...maybe IU Night, okay? Tell me about it on MSN.

Anyway no matter what happened...i'm just sad. I wonder why am i sad...i'm just feeling lonelier as days come by. It's like...everyone's leaving me. Except Ethel because she'll be leaving me messages on MSN. (L) (L) Even when i go offline. Because she won't know when i'm really offline... (L) (L) (L) (see, how many loves i'm gave you)

Labels: Friends, Rants, Thoughts

I went to Lot 10 last Saturday for my ballet replacement.

I was expecting the Lot 10 teacher is something similar like Miss Hew. So i wasn't worried or anything. My baby hair was losen up because i didn't clip them up.

I reached there quite early (i don't like to be late for class because it's embarrassing when i'm the center of attention when i step into the class late). So i waited and all. Then Miss Wong (i know her name because Ethel and i went there to enquire things before) opened the door, and saw me. I told her i'm there for replacement. So she said, "oh okay then. What's your name etc".

Then there was a few intermediate girls (there's even one white girl there too!) practicing. She then asked me and another girl to join them. We were like, "what the heck. i know nuts." Miss Wong said, "COPY THEM. I want to see how good is the Cheras (i'm from the Cheras branch, okay) girl."

I am new, and i am slow.

That's what i told her. Then she replied sarcastically that she's old. I was like wtf in my mind. Then i tried my best to copy. Cheh. The thing they were doing wasn't that hard. It was just running, step arabesque hop, run again, step arabesque hop and then don't know what hands movement.

After the intermediate girls went back, it was our class. So we went to the barre.

Some bloody insect was disturbing me on my shoulder, so i used my hands to shoo it away. Miss Wong went, "WHAT ARE YOU DOING? WHY ARE YOU MOVING?" Of course, i got shock, i told her why. She said, "that's not an excuse. look at your hands, its touching your thighs. move it out. your hands is shrinking. oh my god. your hair is really messy. (my baby hair. and what else, i lost my hair net. so of course it wasn't as neat as usual. okay, maybe its not that neat, but its quite okay lah) look at your messy face. eeyer. why is your hair so messy? all the hair is falling down. go and put gel, you'll look neat. i'll be happy, Miss Hew will be happy too. looking at your neat face. next time when you come, i want to see neat and tidy face."

I wanted to die of fear. I am scared of her. She's scary. Very scary.

From that moment, i felt like going back to Miss Hew's class. Miss Hew is very friendly but strict.

She doesn't even care if you're tired. No matter what you'll have to continue her exercise even if you're tired. Or else, she'll make you repeat again. What else, the exercise was all about jumping. I nearly died because i was really exhausted. For the first time in my life, the teacher didn't even let us to drink water when we were in that situation. It's like...dehydration!

She even forced us to split. Even if we can't, she'll make us to. She'll push your leg up, when you're on the barre. I wanted to cry. Splitting wasn't the problem. The jumping one was.

During the barre work, i haven't learn some. Miss Hew haven't teach everything from the barre. Miss Wong expect me to know every single thing from the barre. Dang. If i don't know anything, she'll say, "copy lah. now you can copy, during exam you can't copy." Which is true. But i don't like copying. I like it when the teacher teaches you, not ask you to copy. Wth.

I want to learn to split. I am taking Caitlin's advice, to hold on when i am splitting. Bit, by bit. I must.

Gr.

Then i asked Madam Yee about the difference between Grade 6 and interfoundation. I realized interfoundation is short cut word to intermediate foundation. =.=' In Jean Gan, students skip 3 grades, because they don't want the students to waste time and money, so all jump together. And i am the teruk one, skipping 5 grades. No wonder intermediate foundation was hard for me. Dang.

Then yesterday (now its Monday!) Miss Hew asked who's having exam in 2009 and all. Amanda (10 years old) got UPSR. Miss Hew was like, "Amanda, you're under age, you'll be taking a year later. Come here, come here!" Well yeah. We're only allowed to take pointe shoes when we're 12 or 13. Something like that. I don't know.

I told her, i'm having SPM. I'm not taking a year later. I'll try to take it next year (2008). She said i could, if i am ready about pointe and another extra class. She said she'll arrange for me. So i want to talk to my dad about it. (thrice a week!) But but but. Wesley Methodist would be quite stressful for me because the school is really into academics, and i don't do well in it. I don't know how am i going to survive. Sigh. I'm going to be the last in class! *cries*

I asked Caitlin about it, she said pointe in intermediate foundation is not really hard. So, maybe i could take it in 11 months. Sigh. Hopefully i can do it well. I must get at least highly commended in this grade. Since i didn't do well in my other grades (grade 1 - grade 3). I was playing in classes that time, i didn't even practice at home. I lost my interest in ballet that time. Dang. But now, i am putting full interest in it. Oh wth is wrong with me.

My toes are hurting since forever. Its swallen as well. I wonder how am i going to go through this if my toes are hurting. I couldn't even wear my ballet shoes! How great.

PS: I'm really forgetful. I can't remember what i danced yesterday. I mean last Saturday.

Labels: Rants, School, Thoughts

Oh I LOVE THIS.

This post is splitted with another tag because the pictures i posted are oversized. Urgh. I think next time i need to make it as 320x240.

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Labels: Traveling And Events

My brilliant idea: to have a topic to write each week (possibly each day) with Jasmine. She said since i'm the one who came up with this idea, i shall start a topic first. Check out Jasmine's blog now and then to see whether she wrote any.

Jengjengjeng.

The title of my post is the title.

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If i have a choice, i would want to study ballet and be a ballerina. Even if my legs are the cost, i would pay. Talking about legs, i mean the way of how a duck walks. The "V" shape. I couldn't choose this choice because i know my parents won't allow as it wouldn't bring me anywhere. Yes i might be good when i am younger but it'll be worst as i grow older. Moreover, the school fees to the Royal Ballet School fees costs as much as university fees + lodging + whatnot, twice. I mean, twice of the amount. Per year. Its not worth it, no?

If i have a choice, i would study for PMR all over again and not play around like little kids during primary years. I know i didn't do that well this time. It's because of my laziness, and my stupid idiotic brains. If i knew that i'll end up like this, i would study as early as Year 7 to succeed. Just because of my playful personality, i think i deserve not to get good grades. Seriously, i would study harder 10x than how i studied for UPSR. I studied for UPSR but not PMR. Why am i such a dumbass.

If i have a choice, i would want to go England. To study. (wth) Okay, Kent College for high school. &...god knows what college or university i would choose in the future if i get to go.

If i have a choice, I WANT TO BE A PHOTOSHOP PRO! (about this i know lah i can be one, but i am always in LOST when i open Adobe photoshop. i still think that Corel is easier than Adobe. Corel got learning centre. thats all.)

If i have a choice, i don't want to be a girl.

If i have a choice, i want to bring my friends like Jas, Jane, Kat, Kum, Ru, and blah to Wesley Methodist. Along. With. Me. *cries* I'm going to miss them wei! I think it's because of the time i spent with them during school days. I'm with them for like...a year plus, i think. Or is it for the whole year only? I don't know, but it's like the i'm-leaving-them-FOREVER sort of feeling. Ah. Is it my problem? *cries again*

PS: I might not blog about my Thailand trip because i am...lazy. I might pin up some pictures anyway. :) Bear my laziness for a duration.

PPS: I'm flatteRed because Jasmine mentioned my name for a few times in her blog these days. Maybe she misses me though. (oi bish, i got you your birthday gift already okay! {i swear its not made in Thailand. its made from somewhere. i can't assure myself that you'll like it though. i think i'll be the first and only one who'll give you that for your birthday!} and i even get you things from Thailand. i wonder why couldn't i go to Bangkok. I wanna step on the ground where Jihoon stepped on before. *cries*) Anyway, thanks, for not giving me any heart attacks anymore because you like to give me heart attacks. (yes i know i used to give you heart attacks because of Leewan) Thank god you remove Jeonghoon's picture off as your header. Although she gives me heart attacks randomly, i still love her. (L)


I know...=.=' censored wth. I seriously don't know whats that okay! Don't blame me. Its not my fault.

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