50 years of independence.

How great is that right. To me, it makes no difference because this Orang Asli's land is like conquered by the malays. What merdeka then? You tell me. Yea i know, i have no rights to say so, but, this is only my personal opinion and thoughts.

To me, it is merdeka when the land where you belong is taken over by other countries due to war nonsense [maybe] and in the end, you got the independence back in your hands. It is darn silly ok that if you think that this land belongs to the malays. It doesn't belongs to anyone including the indians and other but the orang aslis. I really pity those people. Sigh.

Anyway, back to what i wanted to say. Before that i would wanna apologize too for what i have just said.

It's me anyway.

Puteri celebrated the 50th year of independence yesterday. 3 Zeta and a few other students from other classes got to walk to display traditional clothes in the morning while the uniform bodies have to march. We walked. :]

I think since this year might and would be my final year Puteri, i came to school just to play. Not really play, but, its sort of like a playground. It was really fun. My team were like basically singing for the fun of it and not sincerely. And we used the HUGE national flag to wave it just because we wanted to be the one who waved the national flag up high. As i said, just for the fun of it, or i shall say play.

After all these nonsense, i went for break and then to the Dataran Puteri to see what's on. Well not really, i was finding for my dearest sister, Jasmine. I found her then. I was still wearing my cheongsam and Jasmine asked why haven't i change back to the uniform? I was lazy. *sweat*

After the Form 1's malay dance and Jasmine/Jane/anyone else's best friend [except me] did the retarded fan dance, Jasmine and i walked around. Jasmine was just practically holding my wrist only. She talked to me about ahem and some other random things. When we were walking, Mei Ling and some friends recorded that without our knowledge and we didn't know. They said we look like some lovers or something. Maybe they don't know what is sisterly love. We didn't care that much anyway. But the worst part is that, Katherine and Ashwini imitated us by skipping and hold hands like how lovers do on dates. All Jasmine and i can afford to do is just laugh. The ones who laughed was not only us.

Boo.

Anyway, pictures are included this time. I had fun celebrating Malaysia's 50th year of independence although i don't like this country which is so shocking to me.

Cheers!












KAMI!

Labels: School

I sent my laptop to the hospital last Sunday and I got it back yesterday. Out of sudden, my laptop was unable to wake up. So, without thinking twice, I knew I HAVE to send my laptop to the hospital to save my laptop's life. It's all cleared now. Nothing is in my laptop now. A total amount of 2000 of songs in my laptop is gone. They are all gone! Nothing is inside. Sigh. Not forgetting my Goong S! Wth. 20 episodes, the whole series, is also gone.

Anyway, next topic; Secret. Yes, Jay Chou's first directed movie. Whatever is that, he is one of the script writers which means that he is one of the producers. Eh, his first time okokok!

To be honest, Secret isn't as gay as I thought. Infact, it was awesome! I am wondering why can't Jay write a better as in like - happy story, instead of a sad one. Ah. Useless singer, composer and whatever he is. I think he has nothing to do except making people cry for his first directed movie wth.

Seriously, I think that GayJay Chou, GSC, and other cinemas are filthy rich now weih! Billions of people are watching Jay's first directed movie. Secret, Secret, and more Secret. Ah. And I think I am falling in love with Secret now, wth. I like the OST. Don't you think the piano pieces are great? *falling in love with piano*

*SLAPS SELF HARDLY*

I can't leave violin. Wth. I don't wanna undergo a divorce with violin. No way no way. Violin is my only life partner for now. I once thought guitar is my life partner. Ah. I am so not gonna leave violin for now. I am not going back to piano, ever. To be honest, I once dated piano too.

Ok I think I better stop crapping. Sorry.

Back to Secret.

Practically no one understands that storyline. Joe Yee asked me whether I understand or not. I myself don't even understand that. Boo. What I understand is just a piano masterpiece that can bring you 20 years ahead. Wth. Ok lah. I interpret everything what I understand, ok?

Follow the notes upon a journey; play the masterpiece to go 20 years ahead.

At first sight marks one's destiny; the first person you see after playing the masterpiece will be the only one who can see you.

Once the voyage comes to an end; when you wanna return.

Return lies within hasty key; play it fast.

That is what I understand. Ok? Seriously I have no idea whether it's right, or no. Whatever. It's so hard to be understood. So. Whatever. I recommend this movie, now. I seriously thought that this movie is gay, when Leon told me about the movie. It was because I didn't understand. After watching, I wanna watch for the second time again.

I thought it's not a sad story, so I watched it. Babi betul. I was like...a millimetre close to crying. The part that nearly made me cry when he was playing the piano, with danger surrounding him. Oh, I can't forget the background music. The background music sounds like he's in a hurry. He still plays the piano was because he wants to see the girl. Another babi, why must she go back to the past. Really babi. When he finish playing the masterpiece, a blood of his dropped onto a key of the piano, and AN EFFIN HUGE METAL BALL WAS SWINGING & HIT HIM. But, I don't know how he managed to reach his destiny and see her wth. It's somehow complicating. In the end, I've no idea whether the girl died or not. Because there's one scene I saw her dead, and another, I saw her happily with Jay. Who understands the movie, please tell me. Thankyouverymuch.

Credits to: karazen.com





I think this movie is more to literature. I say it's literature because it's hard to understand them. Gr. Just like Memoirs of a Geisha. What did I understand? Geisha is just a lady who do arts. I don't mean paintings. I mean dances and everything. I bet it's wrong. Gr. Why must it be complicating, wth.

Anyway, who wants Secret OST. It's not released in Malaysia yet, but I managed to get it. It's so darn hard I tell you. I went to Video Ezy, Speedy, Classic, and other cd shops, but it's unavailable because it's not even released yet. But since I am the greatest wth tried searching it somewhere in the internet, I got it, finally. Anyway, yeay! I am so happy.

Okay, I think it's enough of Secret.

Um. Holidays are reaching to its end in 3 days. I didn't even do anything during this break. What I mean is - study. Yes, study. Study. I didn't even read. I didn't even touch any books. I bet Jane has finished her syllabus already. Sigh. If I followed my schedule, I should have finished EVERYTHING. Sigh. Why am I so lazy!? My life is that sad.

This time is not going to be whatever anymore. Once school reopens, I am so going to brush up many things just before the PMR - in 5 weeks. 5 weeks. 5 weeks more. I am getting more scared. Ah! 7 daysx5 weeks=35 days. Sigh. I wonder. So fast. It's really fast that PMR is like in 5 weeks.

I don't think I will do well with this terrible attitude of mine. Sigh. I can do nothing more about it. Sigh. I think I better stop whining. Ok. Stopping.

Leon might be going to Sri Cempaka next year. Seriously, WTH RIGHT!? I mean like yea. I was like shock because I was thinking about the difficulties. Difficulties like...looking at other guys. I thought he told his parents or something. I came to know that his parents don't know that I am going to Sri Cempaka next year. How bad is that, when someone said that you and the other person planned to go to Sri Cempaka. Anyway it was OUT of our plans, really.

Not my fault, ok. I am very innocent.

The reason why I don't want him to go to Sri Cempaka is because I don't want him to give that kind of look if I speak or look at other hotter guys. And I want him to be there because I'll get to see him! Lots of reasons yea. How sweet. Sigh. He's gonna be there and I'm dead.

Labels: Multimedia, Rants, Recommendation

This happens when you have your sister with you and both of you feel bored.

Another one.

Look at her! She was concentrating in her Facebook. Oops. Sorry. I mean she was addicted to it and can't leave the page?

Jasmine's retarded Dolphy. Ah. No I am not jealous.

As I said, I'll post a few pictures. For now, 5, ok?


Term break is here now. I don't know what I am going to spend my time with. Sigh. Why must I slack. Sigh. Why am I so lazy!? I wish I can read like a bullet train. Jasmine is the example for a bullet train. Seriously I tell you! She can read a book a day! I mean...no matter how thick is that.




. . . . . . Today is Saturday. I am so lazy to create a new post, so I continue it with my yesterday's.

See him - Chea! He and the Rat-a-too-ee thing. This was taken at GSC, Times Square.

But no, we didn't watch it at GSC. This time is more special, at Imax. The screen is so friggin huge until you feel like an ant to that piece of screen. Seriously. And the sound system is like way better than GSC's and TGV's. Chea got shock for a few times. Not forgetting the popcorns too. There isn't any seeds in the popcorns. In GSC's and TGV's, their popcorn has those tiny hard seed in it.

It's really yummy I tell you. But sorry lah, I didn't take any pictures of it.

I like rat-a-too-ee. The rat is so friggin cute! The rat is a little chef. Hahahahaha. The guy which is a human can't cook. And the human is the rat's machine to cook. Hahaha. It's really funny lah. Rat and human. Hahaha. Aisyeh! It's better if you watch lah! Darn cute! =3

Anyway thanks to Brenda and Chea Choong for their companion. Ah. Without them, I don't think I can go to the cinema today!

We saw many lalas today too. People with "kuih lapis" socks, fake tutu skirts and striking colors of tops. Wth. There's like millions of lala gangs. Whatever lah. We ate ice cream! Yummy! (Jasmine, COOKIES & CREAM!) Chea ate cotton candy, which is so yuck! I think they added overdose of purple and pink coloring. Brenda ate vanilla. =3

Labels: Friends

Today was a heap of fun!

I woke up quite early today as I was VERY excited and I can't wait for Jasmine to come over. Well that was about 9am. Ok that is not early. Whatsover then I went online to kill my sleepiness. Unfortunately, I couldn't take any longer as I slept at about 2 in the morning so at about 10.20am, I slept back because I wanna rest longer. Then at about 10.45am, Jasmine texted me and said that she's not coming that early as she just reached her grandauntie's house so I gotta wait a little longer.

I didn't mind, really. And so I replied that it's 'kay and I reconfirm again whether that she's coming with her. She replied obviously, so, there's no doubts about her coming anymore. Then, I slept back. Yes I know - what a pig.

Then, at about 11.45am or earlier or later, she texted and said she's on the way and it's better I walk out now. So I lazily woke up and walked out. Thank God I reached the guard house on time, it was just like...I mean we reached the guard house at the same time. I was shock because she reached earlier than I thought. According to Jasmine, it's because there wasn't any traffic problem, that is why she reached early.

Jasmine came down from the car and I gave a mere wave at her dad and mom as a hello. We then walked back to my dad's condo. Once we reach, I on the aircond as I was feeling hot. I mean no, Jasmine & I. After like 10-15 minutes showing her around the house and relax after walking, we decided to go to the nearest shop for lunch. She's on diet again and I had chicken rice. Alas, I've clear my "debt" with Jasmine, because I owe her a cup of tea, and this time, I belanja her with...I can't remember. Yeay!

After that, we went to the nearest grocery shop to buy snacks. I paid for it, too. Hahaha. It was about to rain so we can't waste time outdoors too much. This time we used to short cut to go back. Guess what, she went to the wrong way. She was blur I think. We laughed our intestines out.

Guess what we did the whole day. Online. ONLINE. ONLINE. ONLINE. ONLINE. Thats what we did only. We didn't watch tv or whatever. And we did something, with safety. Thank God she sempat open the windows I tell you! Thank God the picture sempat load! When the picture just loaded into the screen, HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. Jasmine and I were laughing I tell you. I was the worst, I can laugh till I roll on the floor like chapati. Jasmine was like, "Chill lah chill lah, it's just a picture." I mean, haiya! It's something hilarious to me.

And what else, her email is darn lame I tell you! Something to do with seafood! But it sounds more like porny. Hahahaha. NO I AM NOT JOKING. It sounds more like porny. I didn't know that a person could be that lame. I mean although mine got to do with a name. Hers is like, SEAFOOD. Hahaha. Ok, let me stop laughing before I roll on the floor again like chicken. Dahlah she studies at PEST, hahahahaha, her email is so like porny. Hahaha.

Ok I better stop about her.

And then, I brought Jasmine into Facebook and now she's addicted to Facebook. I've already said, Facebook is 345645677x better than Friendster as Friendster has idiots with A-Z accounts. As far as I know, there's a guy with 35 accounts in Friendster. I wonder what he put in his account's name? Let's say his name is Hua. Since there's 26 alphabets in a set of alphabets, so I wonder what he puts for his 27th account. Hua twenty seventh, 27 Hua, Ah Hua AA or something like that?

I didn't know that Jasmine has passion for online pets. In Facebook, she adopted a dolphin and she named that dolphin as Dolphy. When she first pet the dolphin, the mood was lonely. She was whining over it and I told Jasmine, 'Jasmine, it's just an online thing for you to play with when you're bored. You don't need to whine over it.' Then she told me that she loves pets no matter it's online or digital, or some animal like Horatio. Other than that, she added so many applications at one go, which shocks me even more because I didn't know that Facebook has more than 2000 applications.

When my uncle came for dinner, we off the laptop as it was the time for our dinner. Yummy. We ate Jawa noodles, according to my grandma. I like that noodles, because the gravy is made of potatoes. Extra yummy! It took us about 30 minutes to finish that noodles because it was a huge portion.

And guess what happened to my new 16th TSGS by Russell Lee? Jasmine killed it. Jasmine accidentally bend the cover. Omg, I was like so broken hearted because it is a new book that I have yet to read. Ahhh! =(

Jasmine was like crazily apologizing me. She said she'll belanja me someday. Haha. It's so nice okok! After waiting for awhile, it was time for us to go back to Seremban. Basically she spent her day with me. Haha. It was fun ok! Hahahaha. Finally after 23579235674567437432345656343258 centuries, she can come and see me, and I clear my "debt".

On the way, we were talking about the feeling of not wanting to go back to school and get back the trial papers. I molested the trial papers more than enough already, and I don't wanna molest it again. It scares me. Ah. I am now missing my dad's place very much. Sigh.

Ok, back to topic. When we reach my Seremban house at about 8.20pm, we waited outside the house for her dad. We talked again, and we wondered how we became close and sisters. It's not that I can remember much. I don't care, I'm gonna investigate the past. My Friendster comments are not giving any clues to me. Ah. I am so gonna find out as soon as possible. Gr. It's so hard to remember the past. Beh. After for a moment, her dad came and she went back..

Ah. Today was fun with her. I love her for all I care! As my dearest sister of course. I am gonna see her tomorrow in school again.

I don't care! She's coming after PMR for sleepover. :)

I love my Jasmine!

P/S: We actually camwhored lah! I'll post the pictures later after I photoshop it in case there's anything, which is like..during the break. I might not go online that often this week, as I'll have things to do. *read below*

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Eh, the mid term break is coming. I've no idea whether I'll have the chance to go somewhere. My dad suggests me to study my upmost best this final week before the mid term break and I can relax a bit during the mid term break. But of course I will have to study during the mid term break, but not too much. Ah. I wanna go somewhere. URGH.

Labels: Rants

Since Jasmine demanded for a new post today, so, I am posting one now. I am feeling so honoured as Jasmine reads my blog. Ok whatsoever not.

I went for shopping today and I spent more than RM200+. Well, yea. I spent RM200 for my 2 new pair of shoes from Nine West and the rest is just one top from Topshop. I know. Nine West, why are they so cheap. It's because they were like...RM60 - Rm150. I tell you hor, it's like a bonus ok. I've never ever ever seen some shoes with some brand that cheap ok! The shoes I chose were supposed to be RM390. And I got it for RM100 for each pair.

For that, I am feeling so effin lucky. I like shopping. I can't stress how much I love shopping. But the problem is, I don't have that much of cash to shop as I want. Ah. MNG is like not on sale as before. Sigh. Sadness!

Whatever still, I got two pairs of shoes from Nine West already, what can I wish for more? Ah! It's like heaven! Love between materials and humans. Ohh. I really like the top and my shoes anyway. Ok. I better stop talking about that.

After about 2 hours of shopping, I decided to stop because I wanted to see somebody. Ah. I should have continued my shopping phase because I like shopping so much. I wonder why am I that stupid and dumb. Sigh. Whatsoever. Let bygones be bygones.

To the happier subject for tomorrow; Jasmine's coming to my dad's condo after 2129377823481 centuries. I am so so happy and I so can't wait for her to come! We were like so stunned and shocked and everything else when we knew her dad and mom allowed her to come by!

Now we are both happy people! =)

We so can't wait for tomorrow. Wheeeee~! Life is so good. I wonder what'll we do tomorrow. But I know she's coming. But no shopping. Boo like heck. Booooo.

Anyway, tomorrow is my last day of happy happy joy joy. Sigh. I'm back to studying-like-heck phase on Monday again. PMR is like in 2 weeks time, if I minus eat sleep everything else. Ah. It's getting more scary and I've no idea how am I gonna live with it since I don't study much and I don't like studying much. Hopefully I can study 'cause my tutor is going to Australia to babysit his nieces; Jessica and Cheryl. Puterians should know who they are, 'cause Jessica was in Form 5 when we, Form 1 batches in 2005.

Since my tutor is going away for his holidays or babysitting, I should have more time to revise and study my lessons since I slacked for more than 2 years. So far, I've finish my History syllabus and Form 1 Living Skills. That's all. So little right. I don't care, I am so gonna finish them by the holidays. I'll try to, because I would be having lots of time during the August's break and days without tuitions. Seriously, I am now hoping that I will not slack during the break. I've no idea but I like to slack.

Gah. Why God why!?

Maybe it's meant to be that I will be slacking throughout my whole life. Maybe it's fated to be that I'll be as lazy as this and as dumb as a donkey. Life is life.

It's not like I change anything that is fated to be. I wish I could. I want to be the Goddess of Mercy, so I can help every human on earth if I want to. No I am not saying that I am merciful. I am very mean infact. Right!?

Never mind. Whatever happens, it'll happen and I've to bear with it. Sigh. Whatever happened between Leon and I are meant to be, and bla happened just because of the same reason too. Ah. Jasmine knows. And I don't plan to tell anyone about it except Jasmine. I know Jasmine fails to understand that but I don't understand that myself too.

Whatsoever lah. He can do whatever he wants. Whether he likes jatuh or not, I don't care. As long as......bla. Ahhhhhh. Life is life.

Anyway, I'll be sitting for another 2 more assessments in September before PMR in October. I've no idea whether I can finish my syllabus or no and get pretty A's for PMR. I'll give this to God. Hah.

Seriously I have nothing to blog about but due to Jasmine's demand, I blogged. Although this is VERY short, but at least I posted right?

Labels: Rants

Don't you feel so great after PMR trials? Goodness it's like heaven. After a week of papers, I'm bored. I'm seriously bored of papers. I mean sitting in the hall, by the doors and answer the questions prepared by Tampin/Rembau. Yea wth. I was like ok Tampin Rembau oooooh. I thought trials would be nationwide, but it turns out not. I seriously thought it's nationwide since V Sam said it's on the 13th, but... Ok you all know that it's just over so...yea.

I must say thank you to Jasmine for distracting me today from reading Geography. Wth. Seriously wth. She knows it's darn menyampah to me and she can still DO that. Let me type out what happened. Jasmine YuenMay

Xia.
WTH.
Xia.
*stomps away to the place where I sat* Why lah you got nothing to do? Must mention her name is it? You know it's darn menyampah to me right. WHAT LAHHH!
*smiles widely*

She can just smile ok! Like wth. After for awhile, everyone was like wondering. Jasmine YuenMay Geraldine

Who is Xia?
Uh what Ja what YuenMay?
OH JATUH.
Who?
Ask YuenMay.
Some menyampah girl.

Ok lah. Sorry lah Leon but I can't stop bitching talking about her. I mean I tried, but that Jasmine of mine went and remind me about that girl before Geography and I was like wth. Seriously.

Whatever Jasmine does, I'll still love her ok!

Don't you think that life is bad because...of something. Haiyah! Long story. Ok what am I talking about now. I wanted to blog about my exams but I forgot and I went blogging about this. Ok whatever. I don't wanna bother about Jatuh and thats it. It's just that I can't tahan her name. Listen to her name is like worst than listening to factory's work and see her pictures are like worst than looking at shit. That's to me. Ah whatever lah. Now, let me talk about my papers for the whole week.

6th August 2007; Bahasa Melayu 1, Bahasa Melayu 2 & Science 1
Whatever I read for Bahasa Melayu didn't come out lah can! Suddenly they ask to give one example for each novel. And guess what's the question? Hendaklah sanggup berkorban! I don't know what to give ok. I was like so dead. But I just hantam la. The best is still Science. I didn't read Science at all so I don't know what'll I get this time. Seriously, I didn't even touch Science at all. Ah.

7th August 2007; Bahasa Inggeris 1, Bahasa Inggeris 2 & Science 2
Ok, I didn't know what is hardship so I just hantam again. I just said that Dr Jekyll faced difficulties transforming into Mr Hyde. =S Other than that, I didn't even expect that the paper would be more difficult from the books I did and Science 2 wasn't that difficult lah to be honest. Just because I didn't read, and didn't memorize the parts, that's why I can't answer. The answers are in my head and I didn't put in. I thought it was wrong. When the paper was collected, KABOOOOM! I regretted! Let bygones be bygones. Sigh.

8th August 2007; Mathematics 1, Mathematics 2 & Sejarah
Mathematics was difficult too. Especially Mathematics 2. I didn't know how to draw something. I know it's Geometrical Constructions. And that question carries 5 marks! Ah! If I didn't complete it, 5 marks is gone. I mean that will be gone. A will not be there. Ah. Locus was confusing too. =S I'd prefer school's Mathematics questions than the Tampin Rembau's. Ah. Whatever is that, I just sat for it and it's gone now. Sejarah was ok. I got confuse with the answers they gave seriously! I didn't know which is which. Like what Koh Kyean from Sri Garden said, Sejarah is very confusing. I've to agree with her.

9th August 2007; Living Skills
Ah! I forgot how to count for untung kasar and all! I was like totally blacked out. Ah! Darn sedih. Luckily they gave more teras questions than elective. Ah. It's like 7:5. Hopefully I can get a mere 70. Amen.

10th August 2007; Geography
OMG I TELL YOU IT'S A REAL BITCH I TELL YOU. It's like 19237892734x harder than the questions in books I tell you! To me lah. Well, actually, I didn't read Geography again. Maybe if I read Geography, it'll be easy for me.

Whatever la they're all gone now. I won't be sitting for the PMR trials anymore. Now, I will be sitting for Test For Excellence and Gerak Gempur, and I will never forget PMR. Ah. PMR will be on the 1st of October till the 5th of October. Sigh. Time flies so fast. Today is the 10th of August. Sigh. Less than 60 days till PMR. It's getting more scary!

Hopefully I can get the A's. So far for now, I'll be getting a B for Sejarah and Geography. Thank God ok! =)

Now, next subject. I am seriously bored of papers and studies for now and I plan to rest for 2 days, without books. I know Jasmine is very hardworking to study again. Ah.

I am now in KL, and I wanna go for shopping for a day but I doubt so I could. So I am sad now.

Anyway, take care as I feel bored of blogging and I've to study like an idiot to be as smart as Jasmine. Sigh. Hard life, forever.

Sometimes, I do think about my life. What is my life all about? It's like a ratio of 8:2. The 8 is not happiness, but sadness. I wonder why sometimes. Maybe I'm fated to be in this kind of life. Sigh. I don't know why, but I have this feeling that I don't wanna leave Puteri because I have Jane and Jasmine in Puteri. I'll cry if I leave, because Jane is the one who brightens my day in class. Because without her, I would be dull in class. Hahahaha. Whatever. I love Jasmine and Jane!

Ru, I know you're now like, "What about me?" Don't worry, I don't love you. Haha. Well, even if I leave, I will come back somehow to see you guys. It's so hard to leave you guys since I've been with you guys since Form 1 wandering laugh and talk. And Jasmine seeing me eating a big portion of food. xD And I eat at Jane's house and online at Ru's house. Hahaha! Memories!

Now, my dad just found out that Sri Cempaka is not a good school. Sigh. Wth. I didn't ask for Sri Cempaka ok! He's the one who asked me to go to Sri Cempaka and now he said it's me who asked. I said Garden! Not Cempaka! Sigh. Now, I'm stuck in Sri Cempaka. Boo. But the teachers are like better than government school. They can speak better English! I mean not wrong pronouncation.

Seriously man. My dad thought I'll see the boys there and hook up with them like wth. I don't like teen rich boys because they're here to play girls out. I mean teens. Rich, moneyyyy! Sorry lah. I can't forget him. So...no point seeing them in Sri Cempaka. Nothing will help...unless they're like 100% pure genuine whatever thing kind and they have the criteria on what I want in guys, then...maybe! But I doubt so.

Ok, now, I'm going off from blogging so take care yea!

Labels: Friends, Rants, School

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you but I want to
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you but I can't move
I can't look away
And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to be around you
There's so much I can't say
Do you want me to hide the feelings
And look the other way

And I don't know how to be fine when I'm not
'Cause I don't know how to make a feeling stop

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killing me
And I'm wondering why I've waited so long
Looking back I realize
It was always there just never spoken
I'm waiting here...been waiting here

Just so you know
This feeling's taking control of me
And I can't help it
I won't sit around, I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I've tried my best to let go of you
But I don't want to
I just gotta say it all
Before I go
Just so you know

Labels: Depression