Liling &I are cool now.

You know why?

Because we're always awesome (:

I highlighted my hair pork liver red last Monday. Yep, a day before my 2nd accident. I wonder why I cry everytime after accidents. Truthfully, I stepped out of the car shaking. I didn't know what to do. I didn't care whether its my fault or not, but still, my car contacted another car! I must be careful next time, like really careful.


My images normally doesn't have any connection with my post but with my inner thoughts.

A Levels is so so so not easy at all. Math homework is like a daily routine. I wish that Math homework would pause for awhile. &assignments never seem to end every week. Oh, excluding this week! Because most of my classmates are going for the orientation camp. But I'm not! So yep, enjoy your camp lovelies!



It's decided, I'm going to assist Miss Hiew starting from 6th February. I am quite excited! Although I know it'll be tiring. Hopefully it's going to be worth it.



I've been quite famous among lecturers this week for being late to classes, so I shan't be late anymore! I've been late for Chemistry, Psychology, &Biology this week. Except for Math. Dang. I didn't want to be late either! I drove at 20-30km/h on Monday, because I was still recovering from the fear I had gotten from my first accident last Saturday, hence I reached college 10 minutes later than usual. &I woke up late yesterday because I got really tired from the day before for crying over my 2nd accident hence I reached college 30 minutes late. &since Mr Vijaiyan wanted me to go to the office to get the late slip so I went (errr 5 minutes wasted). &today, for God-knows-why there's 4 cars by the side of the road near Volvo, has caused a massive jam all the way from OUG to Mid Valley. Just because of that 4 bloody cars, I was stuck in the jam for 1.5 hours! Do you know how frustrating it was!? I wanted to make a U-turn back &go to college at 9am, or maybe just skip it. Hence I was late for Biology. I had to make a decision whether to go or not go but I deicded to enter the class. So I went to the office, to get the late slip done &all. But guess what, Mr Leong said I wasted 5 minutes for nothing &I shouldn't go to the office to get the late slip ._. MYGOD I TELL YOU. If I knew, I wouldn't have gone through the trouble to get the late slip. Damn.

but it's okay.



By the way, I'm having a CNY thingy on the 21st of February! At my house. Beers, liquors (I think so), gambling games, swimming (if you want to), movies, chilling out, gossips, bitchings, everything! Do drop by (:

You know who you are to come by (:

&nope, it's not with Liling's.

I don't like back-to-back accidents in 3 days.

I don't like January 2010.

'nuff said.

Thanks to Edric, &YeeThoong who gave me courage. I did it yesterday, &I got the reply I want today! (: Nothing can stress how happy I am right now. I'm on cloud9, &I don't want to stop feeling like this. I never expected a reply, &I got a reply!

Life's awesome.

Should I assist in Jean Gan, &collect the points to get my demi-pointe, &pointe shoe? Or go somewhere for part-time? Hmmm.

I disliked the college so much when I stepped into the college on orientation day but it's getting better nowadays, since I talked to those girls - Shuk Khuan, Priya, &some others. They don't make my life in college seem bad anymore (: So yep, I wanna tell them that I thank them!




Maybe trying to fit in is not that bad (:




It's only the second week, &I can't cope with Maths homework. Miss Lim is not liking it. NOT GOOD, aye? &its ony the beginning of the second weekend of the year, &what, I've 3 assignments altogether, excluding Psychology. &they are all assassins. Sometimes I feel like skipping classes &days but if I do, I won't be able to catch up for the whole week, &I'll have to complete them during weekends, &there goes my good, relaxing weekends. Like this time. I only skipped Monday, &from then I can't complete any work Miss Lim gave, especially the assignment she gave. Thank God I've done it just now. Hallelujah.




I went to Carl Mann's house today, after going out with Yee Thoong to KLCC. She called me when I was in MCKL to hangout a little, &something came up, so I ended up going to her house. Her house is freaking huge. &that's when I first meet her mum, sister &brother, after being her friend for...years. I love her house. Oh Liling, next time, before you go to Singapore, I'll bring you to Carl Mann's house, if you don't mind me driving (:




Orientation Ball &Orientation Camp is coming soon. Yikes.




I'm so going to sleep early tonight.

1 month ago, I was in Hat Yai having fun with my family. I even flew to Perth myself for a 10 days stay at Ashley's. I had a lot of fun with Ashley &Hayley. With Andrew together, things were funny! (:




2 months ago, I was preparing for SPM. But, I can't call that as a preparation because I was still slacking, &spent most of my time watching television, especially catching up a Hong Kong series - Beyond the Realm of Conscience. I was so addicted to the movie &no, I can't leave the tv for a minute, at all. The Form 5s were unofficially graduated from high school.




3 months ago, I was preparing for SPM. It was about 40+ days till SPM, so I was slacking &tried to enjoy as much as I can since I knew that highschool was ending before I know it. That month, I don't think I had 5% attendance at school too. I baked Liling a cake since we have this special bond between us. Well, she knew it was a cake but I insisted that it's not. Who knows she would come to my house out of the blue &I totally forgot to keep the tools.




4 months ago, I was preparing for my trials. I was worried that I won't do that well, which... I didn't do that well anyway.




5 months ago, I thought of starting my revision for my trials early but...it didn't work out.




6 months ago, I wasn't doing anything except for being nervous since it was Carl Mann's birthday. I finalized the scrap book I got for her, so she will never forget me hehe. I'm glad that she loved the scrap book.




7 months ago, I turned 17. I had a party, which, I don't know how it worked out because I think I did it bad. I can say that I didn't really prepare them well. I am happy that Liling helped me out or else I would have died flat before my 17th birthday. Some couldn't make it, &most can make it. I'm happy that he came for my birthday party! It's the best 17th birthday gift from God ever (: I started preparing a scrap book for my best friend's 17th birthday. I didn't want to hold a surprise party for her 17th since I did that for her 16th.




8 months ago, I had my mid-year exams. I didn't do them well as, I was wounded by a worthless dude. Not to blame him but, if it wasn't because of him, I will not be stronger now.




9 months ago, I was deeply hurt &I skipped school because of him.




10 months ago, I got stabbed by a guy whom I thought I can trust most. But, sometimes things changed &in the end I got betrayed. I went to CF Camp crying in the bus, everywhere. Even during activities. I was weak. I didn't know what to do. My best friend tried her best to comfort me, especially the first 2 weeks after he betrayed me &I keep on running away from studies &hide in the sick bay.




11 months ago, I had a jogathon on Valentine's. Kiyip &Carl Mann followed me after the jogathon to Lot 10 to have lunch at Secret Recipe. On the way to Lot 10, Kiyip has carved something on Carl Mann's memory, &of course mine too. Something to remember for life (: I heard that I passed my ballet exam on Valentine's. Jia Xin was quite upset with hers, &I thought she was joking but she wasn't.




1 year ago, I thought that Form 5 will take 1 whole dreading year to end. I even thought that SPM is far, faraway from January.




2 years ago, I got into WMS. Life was as hell, since I was new. I didn't know how to fit in, &I got into whole shit of rubbish. I got backstabbed within 2 months, &patched up with her, which is my high school best friend ._. A lot of backstabbings happened to me that year, &of course there were good times worth remembering. That year, I wished my vocabulary to be really better than usual, so I can express myself better with words. I even felt like going back to Puteri. I had plenty of ridiculous thoughts in mind. I took my Inter-found ballet exam with Su Ann, &Ge Li. We were examined by Miss Fish. I'm serious that her surname is Fish. Don't laugh!




3 years ago, I was in Form 3. I studied quite hard for Form 3 as the people around me was studying like crap. Oh, I meant the 7's, especially Jasmine. If it wasn't because of her, I wouldn't have studied. Thanks to her (: &I studied real hard because I had to catch up with Form 1 &Form 2 topics that I had missed. I took the Sri Cempaka entrance exam in early July, &passed it. If my dad didn't have $, then I wouldn't have passed it, right? It was confirmed that I was going to Sri Cempaka for Form 4 until that idiot called my dad to say that the fees has increased &wanted my dad to settle the fees. She even bargained for the increment of fees, like, "Increase by RM500, can ah?" Yeah, wtf, but that's Sri Cempaka for you. I can't stress how much Sri Cempaka impressed me by the building. It's so pretty, with huge field, huge swimming pool... Then my dad registered me to WMS in no time. Thanks to that lady. I took the WMS entrance exam in November with my brother along. I got in. I thought it was time to celebrate since I am so going to leave Puteri. I couldn't care less about how small WMS is going to get compared to Puteri, or what kind of life I'll get. As long as I can get out of Puteri, what's anything? I even fell into depression a week before PMR. Life was so down for me.




4 years ago, I was in Form 2. I got placed into the second class because I didn't do well for my Form 1. No, I passed all my subjects. Dang, I had Miss Yap as homeroom. I thought I was screwed as she didn't look friendly at all. But life wasn't that bad. I procrastinated a lot that year. I never studied. I hung around with Fiona &Pavinaa. That's why I never studied. They didn't really study, so I got influenced by them. I got my second boyfriend that time. He made me smile &things like that. But slowly, he came colder than usual. But things didn't stop us both from being together. (cheesy much?)




5 years ago, I was in Form 1. I was placed into the first class for commerce stream (in my previous school, they had technical, commerce &home science stream for Living Skills, so we had 7 different classes, 2 technical, 3 commerce, &2 home science for the weak students) but since I never really studied for my finals, I didn't do good but, I passed all. Not enough to beat the first. I got my first boyfriend, but we didn't go out, &stuffs like that. All we did was texting through phone &for that, my dad got mad, &went to his house &drama happened. I got quite depressed though. He then refused to talk to me &things like that happened.




6 years ago, I was in Std 6. I studied quite a lot too. Since I was monitored by my grandmother &grandfather, I couldn't do anything to slack. I can remember that my classmates were quite naughty as we brought illegal stuffs to school when our homeroom teacher was upset with her mother's death. By doing so, we hurt her even more. Sorry Cik Jelia ): I quitted ballet that year too. I graduated from SK Puteri.




7 years ago, I was in Std 5. I remember that my class had a sale, where we will all go around &sell things like sweets, etc. &the profit we got were divided among us. That year, I had an awesome homeroom teacher, Pn Anita.




8 years ago, I was in Std 4. I hung out with Darshini. Drama happened too! Rumours that Edmen liked me went all around the school. Everyone teased me about it. It was so annoying! What do you expect a 10-year-old to do huh?




9 years ago, I was in Std 3. I had my first "stayback" experience that year. Staybacks, as in, joining clubs &societies. I joined Tunas Puteri &some club. I had a really strict &fierce English teacher that everyone is scared of. She will have her cane with her 24/7~!




10 years ago, I was in Std 2. I remember that was the year when my teacher first praised me for my handwriting. Heeee. Some malay useless piece of shit girl stole most of my things, including my pencil box, barbie doll, everything. Oh, we were allowed to bring our barbie doll to school everytime after our exam. That is what you called as primary school life (:




11 years ago, I was in Std 1. My parents took me to school, &being parents, they were worried if I didn't fit in &stuff like that. My parents told me that they expected me to cling on them but I didn't.




12 years ago, I graduated from Yu-Aye Kindergarten (:




13 years ago, I was only 5.




14 years ago, I was only 4.




15 years ago, I was only 3, &as my dad told me, I begged him to send me to school so he sent me to a nearby kindergarten. So yep, I started early but he never thought of sending me to school, as in Std 1 early.




16 years ago, I was only 2.




17 years ago, I was only 1. I had a brother at that age.




18 years ago, I was in my mother's womb (:




Time flies ): I should really sleep now, yes? It's 12:23am now, &I've to wake up at 7am tomorrow, dammit. I'm so going to be sleepy tomorrow. So yes, goodnight world (: Hopefully I won't receive a mountain tall workload since I didn't go to college today ):

I've not been blogging the way I used to blog lately.

Well, it's because um, I don't know. I don't have anything to share with people, be it personal, or anything.

Yeah, you might be thinking about what I blog. Personal? Well if it's nothing too personal, I don't mind sharing it. Oh yes, the world revolves around me &me alone. Let me think of life that way for a second, pretty please?

Jaykays. Well, I mean you can choose to ignore some posts. When you start read something (first sentence), then you'll already know whether it's personal, or not. Right? So, yep. My blog has been following me since Form 1. If you were to ask why my archive started from 2007, let me tell you.

I deleted my previous 2 blogs, which I started from Form 1. I used to think that creating new blogs, emails, or accounts are a fun thing to do. You can't blame me because that's when I had my first laptop, &access to the internet.

Friendster was hot then. Facebook became hotter than Friendster in 2007. When I first joined Friendster, it wasn't as polluted as now, with people having 20 over accounts adding the same people to be their friend in each account. Maybe they think it's cool, but I seriously don't think it is. How cool can it be when you have the same 1000 people as your friends in every account in Friendster you have? Tell me, baby. Plus, even our very own Malaysians put Taiwan as their location. Wow, how cool it is aye. But nah, they used to affect me so badly that I'll get annoyed at them. Now, I don't give a damn about them anymore.




Second week of college has started. But, I didn't go to college today (: It's a good thing 'cause if I went to college today, I'll have to sit for my first Chemistry test. &CheeYan told me that the Chemistry test was effin' tough. So, it's a good thing!

I was in Singapore for a few days, starting from last Friday. I went to polytechnics last Saturday, to check out some stuffs &darn, if the course I want to take will give me higher pay, then I will be happy already. It's only diplomas that's offered in polytechnics, so, no hope ): I was that close to study in Singapore but oh well. If everything worked out well, then I'll leave MCKL in April, &go to Ngee Ann Polytechnic in April. But... Sigh. It's okay.

I love goodie bags! (: Now I have new notebooks &new water bottle. I love the notebooks!




Miss Hiew cancelled today's ballet lesson ): Gosh I was waiting for so long to see Miss Hiew. Now I've to wait for this coming weekend to see her. I lovelovelove her. Yep, I'm a lesbian.




If you really think that I'm a lesbian, good for you.




Because I'm not one.




Single is the way for the year. Getting hurt by a guy is not worth it. I'm going to ace this year. Excellence is what I need.




You know just a fact, Cotton On in Australia is more expensive than the Cotton On in Singapore. They have the same product but you know, the exchange rate. Dammit. Luckily I didn't buy much in Australia! I found out about this yesterday when I saw Cotton On in Wisma Atria along Orchard Road in Singapore.




I shall relax, watch tv, etc, then do my Math homework given by Miss Lim last Friday. Ohohoh, yes, I've not finished her work. A Level exam-based questions are difficult. Can I cry on your shoulder? Please?




You know that I love you.
I should really go now.
So I can take all the time I want to think how to complete my Math problems, while watching tv (:
It's a habit.
I'll blog again when I feel like blogging (:
Take care people.

It sucks being without my best friend in college. I am so used to bitch, gossip, talk, whatever with her for the past, God knows how long. Maybe it was a short term kind of thing, but, still I got used to it. I scream with her, I laugh AT her, I laugh WITH her, I bitch with her, everything. I am so used to pouring my heart out to her, whenever something goes wrong. I'm so used to seeing her expressions everyday, especially when she just argued, or fought with her boyfriend the day before, &I'll try to comfort her with everything I know. I miss those times when we talk about how sad we are during lessons. I miss those times when we turned back to Cheeyan &Brian to talk about inappropriate stuffs &whatnot during BM when En Rahim gave us a task to complete so instead of completing our essay in time, we ignored it, &En Rahim will get quite pissed at us for not handing in whatever he asked us to do. I miss those times we stood up for each other whenever a prefect tries to separate us when we have our usual talk during assembly. I miss running down with her for food because we hated to queue to buy food. I miss those times we talk about what we want to eat for break during Math period because Madam Hema didn't really bother about us talking. I guess it was fate for us to know each other at 16, &drift away after high school. Sometimes life is undefined, at least for me.




I really can't help it if people wants me to be very important in their life. I mean, there's nothing for me to do if they want me to be the hot topic of the season. This is exactly why I refused to go there. My dad didn't know why. I can't tell him why. It's only the 4th day in college, &you want to ruin me? What the fuck are you trying to do? Don't you have anything else to do? Why don't you get a life? Since you are so smart, why don't you take up Psychology as an undergraduate course now, without taking pre-university studies? Like what the hell. Again, get a life, goodbye.

Happy new year.

I think I changed since last year? Thanks to the Butler sisters in Perth! I love, love, love them. You can never get angry at them even if they made something out of your way.

I miss them a lot.

College has started, &no, I am still feeling miserable as ever. They gave out our time table today, &I'm in S1001alpha, together with Yuehan, MeeLian, &a few others. Time table is not being friendly with me too. Lessons are starting from tomorrow ):

Time passes so fast no? I want to go back to Std 1, &take the 3 exams all over again. A Levels is not going to be easy ):