I would like to thank all the CF Camp people for not making me feel left out and lonely during the whole camp. When I broke down, they were there. XYun, Hannah, Jamie, Chris, Eli, my dorm people. And Miss Goh.

No lengthy post about CF Camp and me breaking down this time.

I texted my best friend when I broke down. She felt so hopeless that she cried with me, although we weren't sitting next to each other. I love my best friend. If you dare hurt her, I'll stab you.
They say a true friend will never leave you, no matter what. She loves me too.



Will blog about the whole CF Camp next time. No pictures though.

Labels: Dear Diary

Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity.
1 Timothy 4:12

I feel so motivated after reading this quote! There's more actually.
I'm feeling more emo than usual. I don't know why but, this is happening.
I think it's because my dad puts all his hope on me. SPM is approaching soon. Gosh, why am I in Form 5 now? Time passes really fast, don't you think so?
It was 14 months ago when I first stepped into this school full of fear. &now, it's my final year here. I've not reached the climax yet! And school will end soon months later. I feel like I'm still in Form 1 =/
Because of the whole new environment last year.


The part above was typed yesterday. But I didn't post it. So yepo. Today's the 16th of March.

So anyhow...
I went to Mid Valley by KTM with Li Ling yesterday. Oh yes for the education fair (:
People think that we're done with SPM, and are looking for a college to further our studies. But no! We're doing early preparation, which is a good thing, yes?

(Before that, I want to remind all of you, DO NOT TO TAKE KTM, unless you have no other choice. Yesterday, there was this indian guy who squeezed in between Li Ling and I. Gosh, his odour! *cries* Even when you turn 360 degrees, it doesn't help in reducing the smell. At all. So, you know what that means, right?)

Then we met up with Corliss and her mum in Mid Valley. Her mum asked us whether we want to go to KLCC together with them for the other education fair! She's so nice!!! (Yay, transport is taken care of already. We wanted to take the cab to KL Sentral, and then take Putra Line to KLCC because we didn't have transport.) While waiting for them to get finish their stuffs, Li Ling and I went for lunch at Sushi King.

After that we hopped into Corliss' car and flew all the way to KLCC.
My my, KLCC's hall is so much bigger than Mid Valley's. Oh, and neater too. I mean their booths. Oh yeah, I can guarantee you that you'll feel dizzy or things like that after you step out from the hall.

Corliss' mum is so nice that she dropped us at the LRT station too! (: Thanks Corliss' mum!

Her mum is super cool. She has a Facebook, and a blog too!

Why didn't you add me in Facebook? I have a blog too. Come and read my blog. I've no readers.

Corliss' mum

3 bags full of brochures.


Brochureees!


It's confirmed that I'm taking 10 subjects ):


Prove.
I'm feeling sleepy now. *yawns*


Who's this?
RAJA CHULALONGKORN!

What's this?
First homework that I wanted to deal with but failed.


I watched Love Matters and The Tale of Despereaux today.
Oh yes 2 different movies in a day.
In my opinion, they're worth the time (:
In total, I spent 3+ hours altogether at the cinema, one after another.


The mouse, Despereaux, is so cute with big ears!!! I love mousies (MICE, which I rather spell it as RICE) and hamsters.


Love Matters.


I'm tired of going out! I've been going out for 4 days already. I went to Pavilion last Friday and Saturday, Mid Valley and KLCC yesterday and Times Square and Pavilion today.
*yawns*

And I was supposed to go to Mid Valley tomorrow but I cancelled it. Too tired to go out, and I've too many things to do by this Sunday. Crap.

I shall work my butt off starting tomorrow. (let's see how long i'll procrastinate again hee)


Oh yes!!!
Please listen to "If I Were the Boss" by Ean and JJ.
It's damn funny.

Labels: Depression, Outings, Reviews

We had early dismissal today, so I went out.
To Pavilion.
I wanted to go to The Mall, but I didn't want to bump into him. I mean, who knows he'd be there. I played safe!!


Don't ever look back.
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance.
Don't sell your heart.
Don't say we're not meant to be.
Initially I was supposed to hang out with Carl Mann and J. But God knows why she didn't tell me that Say Loong is coming along! I wanted to tag along, then in the end, I decided to let them to be alone (:

J is so funny till I laughed like crazy.

I shall quote him!

"I used to think that GIS is the only school on earth."

You know, this really made me laugh like crap. I didn't know what to say, because, I mean...schools are everywhere!

"I can cook you know."

I am so shocked because, he's a guy! And he can cook!

"My boyfriend is Lee Hom."

After an hour or so...

"Rain is also my boyfriend."

So, I don't know whether he's straight...or crooked =/

Okay, kidding. He's joking around. He's super lame ._. Me like talki to lame people.

"I am scared of the scenes in a horror movie. If I watch it, I'll scream like crazy. I once said "OH MY GOD!" out loud in a cinema and my friend screamed too because I screamed."

Obviously, he's a chicken.

In my point of view, of course.


I'll be waiting; all there's left to do is run.
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
Anyway, today is our last day before the mid-semester break! I'm so happy, because I'll get to eat and sleep all week long. But before all that, I've to complete:

Malay composition with the title "Bandar raya idamanku pada tahun 2020"

"The Pearl" summary from Chapter 3-6.

Add Maths project ):

Maths paper

Biology corrections

Chemistry exercise

Physics paper

Sejarah Chapter 3 mind map

Morale project (8 essays and 16 photos)

I spell that as D-E-A-D. I wonder why do they give us homework anyway. Homework are pointless! We'll still forget what we had done sooner or later.
Oh, that's for me, again. I've short term memory loss (;


Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like You

In a blink of an eye, it'll already be November.
I'm afraid to move on.
I don't want to leave.
I want to let it be this way.
I've so many things to tell you.
But I don't dare to open my mouth to even give you my morning greetings.
Sometimes I wish I'm a guy, so I'll get to talk to you.
Sometimes I wish I don't exist, because I caused too much pain for myself.
Gosh.
My emo-ness.


Forever 21 is on sale! But too bad J was with me all the while when I was in Pavilion, so I didn't really get to shop (you know, guys don't like waiting boo) and I was in my uniform. I shall wait till I can shop alone then I'll go and buy whatever I like. With a limit, of course. Thinking of my things, I am now thinking of selling things that I don't really wear or want it. I have so many clothings that I don't wear at all. There's so many...um...I've-not-touched-it-before clothes. I'll of course sell it at a discounted price, so yep. It can be anything, so let's see.

I feel like baking again.
Damn.

Anyway, goodbye (:

Labels: Depression, Exams, Friends, Rants, School, Thoughts

I miss ballet.
So much.
It has been 3 months since I last stepped into Jean Gan.
I'm so going to take Inter next year.

Labels: Depression

i'm tired of studying. i'm tired of waking up early. i'm tired of forcing myself to stay awake during school hours when my brain is asleep.


oh, do you know that ki yip thinks i like him? (:
sweet, right? I KNOW!!!

Let's assume that I really do like him, okay?

Since he can't sense jokes.


I've a bad feeling that I won't be doing well for this term =/

Madam Norhayati said that whoever fails their Chemistry exam this term, she will send them for 3 weeks of DC.

I'm not scared of failing my Chemistry this term, but, I don't want to go for DC!


Can you believe that Qin Xian, Ki Yip and Jin Wai did at least 10k of Math questions in conjuction with the World Maths Day?
I did like...4600+ only, with the help of my brother in 2 days! I couldn't do more because the more I do, the blurrer I'll get.
I don't want to do it anymore =/
Cempaka has so many teams! No fair!


Carl Mann is so funny! She said she'll start calling me Linda, because I didn't want to tell her my English name (:
I personally think that my given English name is narcissist, so, I shall stick to my official given name. My dad said my English name is May, so let be it. My mum gave me a proper English name though. Not everyone knows it, so, I shall keep it at a low profile.


I love my new fringe. It has been ages since I had fringe.
Oh, happy exam week! Good luck people!!! (:

Labels: Miscellaneous

"quando danças, queria
que fosses como a onda
do mar para que nunca
fizesse outra coisa."
-William Shakespeare
i just realized that ballerinas do potray themselves on dances. when they are happy, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. when they are sad, they'll screw it up ):
i do have to admit, i am not good at it, since i can't even lift my legs 90° sideways. but i can do it for front and back! (; thanks to my previous teacher, who forced the hell out of me to lift it.

oh yes, tze jean is my current crab! she's superb at creating her own vocabulary! i'm serious. you should talk to her, and get to know her fantastic vocabulary. i guarantee you that you'll laugh (:

we have so much of things in common too! like our favorite foooood!
we plan to be christians too! (; miao.


I feel so helpless,
...knowing that I'm not the one.
I'm not her, or her.
I don't have any pretty points.

It's March already!!!
SPM is getting nearer day by day.
And this is freaking me out, like seriously.
When am I going to start studying?
Don't know.
Am i going to fail?
Most probably.
I've never been smart anyway. I'm not that girl who scores A's or B's. I'm one who scores C's and D's.
Do not.
I mean it.
Do not mention about my UPSR and PMR.
SPM is not equivalent to UPSR and PMR!
I know, if I can it for both of it, why can't I do it for SPM?
Because I'm not smart!!!
Not complaining.
I'm happy with myself.


i'm tired of hiding my true self.
i'm tired of pretending.
i'm tired of putting up my fake smile.
i'm tired of him.
i'm tired of him.
i'm tired of them.
i'm tired of everything...
when can i let them go?
let us be happy! (: and be stress free, due to the increasing rate of stress we're having now (:
for some particular reason - which i don't know what it is, i'll always do things that will waste my time before the exams. i'm serious about it. i'll watch tv, online, or bake crazily when exam's a week away. i've not touched my work, and don't think i'll pass it anyway.
cooking mama!

i think i should play wii now D:


Do you know that a friend of mine said babi twice when he wanted to say bagi? He was practising his oral you see, and God knows why he said babi twice when he wanted to say bagi.
He's always funny, I tell you.

Lawl Jawn, you're funneh! (: <3
P/S: The "lawl" is not intentional. I put that up because that spelling suits his current nickname.


if you love something, let it go.
if it comes back, its yours


I will be care-free.

Labels: Friends, Random, Thoughts