"quando danças, queria
que fosses como a onda
do mar para que nunca
fizesse outra coisa."
-William Shakespeare
i just realized that ballerinas do potray themselves on dances. when they are happy, EVERYTHING WILL BE FINE. when they are sad, they'll screw it up ):
i do have to admit, i am not good at it, since i can't even lift my legs 90° sideways. but i can do it for front and back! (; thanks to my previous teacher, who forced the hell out of me to lift it.

oh yes, tze jean is my current crab! she's superb at creating her own vocabulary! i'm serious. you should talk to her, and get to know her fantastic vocabulary. i guarantee you that you'll laugh (:

we have so much of things in common too! like our favorite foooood!
we plan to be christians too! (; miao.


I feel so helpless,
...knowing that I'm not the one.
I'm not her, or her.
I don't have any pretty points.

It's March already!!!
SPM is getting nearer day by day.
And this is freaking me out, like seriously.
When am I going to start studying?
Don't know.
Am i going to fail?
Most probably.
I've never been smart anyway. I'm not that girl who scores A's or B's. I'm one who scores C's and D's.
Do not.
I mean it.
Do not mention about my UPSR and PMR.
SPM is not equivalent to UPSR and PMR!
I know, if I can it for both of it, why can't I do it for SPM?
Because I'm not smart!!!
Not complaining.
I'm happy with myself.


i'm tired of hiding my true self.
i'm tired of pretending.
i'm tired of putting up my fake smile.
i'm tired of him.
i'm tired of him.
i'm tired of them.
i'm tired of everything...
when can i let them go?
let us be happy! (: and be stress free, due to the increasing rate of stress we're having now (:
for some particular reason - which i don't know what it is, i'll always do things that will waste my time before the exams. i'm serious about it. i'll watch tv, online, or bake crazily when exam's a week away. i've not touched my work, and don't think i'll pass it anyway.
cooking mama!

i think i should play wii now D:


Do you know that a friend of mine said babi twice when he wanted to say bagi? He was practising his oral you see, and God knows why he said babi twice when he wanted to say bagi.
He's always funny, I tell you.

Lawl Jawn, you're funneh! (: <3
P/S: The "lawl" is not intentional. I put that up because that spelling suits his current nickname.


if you love something, let it go.
if it comes back, its yours


I will be care-free.

Labels: Friends, Random, Thoughts

i don't get it.
why must we pay more than a hundred bucks for SPM? its not like we want to take it.
just because we're in a private school, that doesn't mean we should pay for it. dang.
we're still studying the malaysian syllabus. which includes EST, and Moral.
isn't that enough?
first of all, we don't even need EST or Moral in the future.
waste of time.



i'm feeling rather down too. but i shall cheer myself up with ferrero rocher! fattening, i know, but, still yummy. or my freshly baked caramel pudding.

don't talk bad about my bakeries. i can bake okay! (:
just kidding. you have not tried my bakeries anyway.
i just want my dad to enjoy it.
and he actually does (:
i am going to try to cook soon! (:

i just realized something. if i am not in the mood for anything and i still want to bake, the whole thing will suit the rubbish bin. i have prove. i baked 2 weeks ago, and the whole thing turned out to be...terrible, worst than my first time.




but i am afraid if my first dish will be black! or too sweet, or too salty.
should i try cooking?
hmm =/

i should!
no harm, right?



i shall shoo now. goodnight people (:

Labels: Random, Rants, Thoughts

ballentine's a type of whisky (:
no, i don't drink whisky.



i think it's weird that i've the urge to blog today. normally i'll feel lazy, or thinking that playing delicious 2 is a better way to rot my time away. actually, i do have a reason why to blog. talking about thoughts ):



i really, don't know how people can be so irresponsible. i lent her my cheongsam since november last year because i sympathised her and didn't want her to get in trouble, and now, she gave me a long granny story. this sucks in a way, and i can't do anything! guess what happens whenever she sees me or passes 5C? she runs away! this is getting on my nerves. she didn't dare to tell me the reason why she can't return my cheongsam back to me for more than a month, until today - this morning. i was so mad, that i couldn't even utter a word out! this is what i get, after my dad spent more than a hundred bucks buying that cheongsam for me, and me, just because i didn't want her to get in trouble, and helped her by lending her my cheongsam. and we aren't close at all. we just know that we exist in wesley methodist school. we did not even have a proper conversation too. we don't even say hi!

gosh.
irresponsible, no? it's not even hers!



have you all started studying for the first term yet? i've not started! at all. when i did the physics test today, i realized that 50% playing 50% paying attention is not good enough. i think i'll fail physics because i forgot to revise for physics test today. and i didn't have a clue on what mr chin was saying about waves (but i am pretty sure that he was talkin' about transerve waves and longitudinal waves) during physics lessons anyway. no, i'm not that smart (: my progress sheet says it all. thinking about the first term freaks me out. i think i'll have more red marks than before. but! i shall think positively. yes yes yes?

anyway, is any of you taking the IELTS or TOEFL exam? i'm seriously blur right now =/



i've a feeling that most of us are feeling emoish nowadays. so many things are happening to us, and i've a positive feeling about this. things will be fine. and all you need to give in is time. (yes, tick-tock-tick-tock) give in time, and don't think that it's the end of the world. you have a lot of things to do, and never think to give up. hold on, and never let your hope go, unless it is really a dead hope.

and this is for you guys who are emoing away. just to let you guys know...no matter how not-close we are (xiaoyun!),



i like playing wii!
i can finally play cooking mama on wii! (: how cool is that!? i've been waiting to play cooking mama.
now i've finally said that chocolates are fattening =/ and i really love it. i'm making myself troublesome now. gosh. i used to eat lots of chocolates, especially dark ones. Lindt is yummy. oh-kay, i said chocolates are fattening and i'm still talking about chocolates.
mama! (see, i told you i like playing cooking mama on wii)


torn between two perfect person is the worse thing can happen. it hurts a lot. it needs a lot to courage to dare to say, dare to ask, dare to declare that you do.



oh you know, i actually answered a few of madam premila's questions correctly! (:

but that doesn't mean i study. hah.

i'm proud of my short-term memory yo! and i'm not embarrassed to admit that i love my short-term memory.

yes, you got it right in your head. what a lie. no one likes short-term memory. but sometimes...short-term memory is good. you get to forget some stuffs. if you're lucky, you will get to forget some sad stuffs. like i did. i get to forget one or two, and eventually i'll remember it later. shucks. hmm =/



oh.

happy valentine's day!

Labels: Depression, greetings, Random, Rants, School

jasmine came over yesterday to sleep over for 2 nights! (: she could come for food so, yep! im happy!

we went to concorde hotel for high tea and meet leon up there. food choices at concorde are decreasing =/ saddening much. then after high tea at concorde, we onlined at home for hours, then we had dinner. then later at night, we went to times square to yum cha at dome with my mum D: i ate chicken pie there and my dad went o.o i thought we just had dinner? i can eat!

then we watched transformer! oh yes, i've not watched transformer until yesterday. because i thought transformer is not a nice movie. my bad. oh, i tried watching bolt yesterday in the afternoon after high tea, but the disc couldn't run! bummer. and, in the end jasmine and i ended up watching wild child.

this morning, jasmine and i baked cupcakes! (my second time!) omg, i just love cupcakes! aha. this time, the cupcakes aren't under baked nor over baked! it's just right. but they look weird though. just for the first batter. why, you asked? i forgot to take out the butter when i intended to heat it in the microwave oven for seconds because its hard. in the end, it became liquid. and the batter became watery too. my carelessness. but its alright though. i ate it ok! it's edible! i am not dead, yet.

as for the frosting, i did it this time! and its pink too! but jasmine and i have no idea to decorate it perfectly, so, its a bit weird too. but i used the sprinkles, chocolate rice and white chocolate rice to cover them (: so yep, its all alright now. but the frosting is sweet =/

so anyhoooo.

jasmine: the way you type is interesting. got sound o.o

number 2.

jasmine: your name is yam?
may: its terbalik darling.
jasmine: *LOL*

that just happened a minute ago. yes, jasmine has interesting thoughts. she bullies me! but i love her though (:

i better get off and do better things now (:

Labels: Dear Diary, Miscellaneous, Random, Thoughts

i was in singapore about a week ago. and now here i am to post a few pictures taken in singapore! (:

i stayed in hotel 81 at dickson road. dickson road is somewhere near little india, and yes, if i bomb little india, there'll be no indians around anymore. all those indians were there. according to a taxi driver, those indian workers are there to gather.

bah!

so yep, i walked a lot those few days. i took the mrt, walked, mrt, walked.

i think i'll the pictures i took do the talking this time (: i actually regretted not bringing my phone out that night we (my family) went out. if i brought it, i would have captured those beautiful lightings along orchard road ): oh wells. i shan't regret!


i'm actually fascinated. yes, with this worthless card.


they even used electrical ones! gosh gosh gosh. i think i am really out-dated.


you know when they have to change to another line, they don't need to walk under the hot sun like we do? theirs is all underground. UNDERGROUND, with aircond! sometimes i wish i am a singaporean. oh, they even have priority seat for the needy.


those dots are the lights! i think they're pretty.


louis vuitton yo!


pekan cina chinatown!


i had my lunch there. and i liked it very much.

i think that's all what i had taken in singapore. i didn't really use my phone so i didn't bother taking pictures. and guess what, i am going there again this weekend ._. just because my dad forgot to take something.

and oh, i just finish arranging my earrings and accesories. i took like an hour to do all of it. finally my earrings got a 'house' to stay! it used to be in a box, and they'll all tangle up, and i will not bother to untangle them. i am very lazy aye.


neat enough?


i think i better go now. it's already 3am now! i've ballet soon ): again. and i have to wake up early again ): i hate waking up early! reow. bahaha.

since we have less than a month for holidays now, i think i have to go out with my friends for the last...uh...outing before school reopens! (: i miss them so much! i miss talking with/to them.

wait, why am i still blogging now? gah!


goodnight (:

Labels: Random, Traveling And Events

i chatted with jon lee from sri garden just now. i was trying to say the wasp like staying on my durian tree in my seremban house. guess what i said?

i said, "i have a durian tree in my seremban tree."

and he drew...



thanks for the seremban tree jon ._.

Labels: Random

I went out with Corliss &Mann today. We were supposed to meet at 11 but eventually we met up at 12 something because Corliss were busy and I only get to see Mann at 2 something, when we were super hungry. Yeah, Carl Mann appears when there's food &when she wants to see me for something after seeing him. Yeesh.

While waiting for Corliss, I went to the concourse with my family and ended up buying perfume ._. and photoshooting. Of all times, Corliss appeared when the lady was putting on make-up for me. Corliss was laughing at me all the way and she can still say she didn't! Unfair yo.

After all that I went for the photography session. The poses were so funny and...slutty that I can't help it but to laugh. Corliss was laughing too okay. My brother laughed the most.

I couldn't put up the picture because I don't have a scanner so, boo.

Carl Mann kept on cursing me to go to hell because I didn't eat anchovies and some other extras. I bought a dessert and I couldn't finish it because it was too cold and for that, Carl Mann said it's ok because I'll be going to hell anyway. She likes cursing me. Boooo.

After food, we went to Times Bookstore to get stuffs so practically we spent our whole day at the bookstore. I'm sorry Corliss! We even imitated them. It was fun imitating them although I had goosebumps all over. We saw pretty stuffs at the bookstore but it was too expensive so yep. Corliss even wanted to buy that wired bookmark until I had a brilliant idea of buying beautiful ribbons and make it by myself. That wired bookmark costs RM9.90. Dang. It's like so expensive. The cheapest bookmark they have is RM7.90. I wouldn't spend that much for one bookmark. So in the end Corliss and I got 2 different colors ribbon for us to make our own bookmark on Wednesday! Quote Corliss, "It's like we're attending a handicraft lesson on Wednesday."

I even wanted to buy New Moon, and The Other Boleyn Girl until Carl Mann told me that she has it all. So, money saved.

Halfway through book hunting, Carl Mann decided to play hide-and-seek with Say Loong and eventually it got me involved because I called her to ask what time she is going back. Her tone is super funny! It's as if she's telling me a secret. The conversation went like this: (Carl Mann, Yuen May) She spoke softly all the way.

Eh butt, wh-
Hello..?
=.= Where are you lah?
I'm not telling you.
What the heck.
I'm playing hide-and-seek now.
Omg. I've no time for hide-and-seek. Where are you?
I'm not telling you.
(=.=; I went hunting for her then) Okay whatever it is, what time are you going to go back?
Hm, I think 4 something to 5.
(still finding) Ish, tell me properly!
Yes lah, I think 4 something to 5.
(walla, I found her and both of us laughed) Hahahahaa. Okay then.

Slowly, I saw him. I told him that I found Carl Mann. He begged me to tell him where is Carl Mann but since I'm a *ahem* nice person then I said I don't know where's Carl Mann. What a lie.

I think that's all, after Carl Mann, Corliss and I decided to leave. We first took the monorail. You know we gotta wait for the people to come out then we can go in? I didn't care about that rule and when I was about to step in, Carl Mann pulled my hand and said, "eh, you know we must wait for the people to come out one mah right! why you step in first? no manners lah you." Seriously man I tell you about this Carl Mann, she always make me zha dou ._.

I was afraid that Corliss will get lost in Masjid Jamek so I keep on finding for a way. Thank God that Carl Mann is going to KL Sentral so Corliss tagged along. After I reached my station, I texted them boo.

That's all for the day I think.
When I see them playing like that, it reminds me so much of him. No, I don't miss him. In fact, I lost all my hope. I just don't want to think of it too much. What bothers me is just another him.
Carl Mann calls the other 2 him as teddy and pillar. I don't know why she calls him teddy.


I like someone else but is being attracted to someone else.

Labels: Dear Diary, Depression, Friends, Random

I lurked at Weeru's blog today and yes, I saw my name!
She bitched about me?
Nah.





I felt so touched when I read that. Gosh, time really passes fast. Sometimes, I wish I can stop time.

Nope, I'm not wishing to go back to the past tho'.

Let's stop searching for a minute & just live.


At first I had so much of things to say when I was out today. I just don't know what to say when I sit right here, staring at the monitor blankly, listening to Fish Leong. Darn.

Okay, I remember what I wanted to say now.

Q: Do you know that Video Ezy is from Australia?

I just know that today, when I went to Video Ezy in Times Square.
Dang.
Now I know why Video Ezy is located everywhere in Perth.
*kills self*
Hm, talking about Perth, I really forgot to blog about it. I shall post something about it sometime later.



I'll update later, when I can.

P/S: I've uploaded photos taken by me during Corliss' 16th party. Seek my sidebar out for the link.

Happiness is a lifestyle,
Love is a journey,
& sadness is a decision.


I took pictures with Liling & Carlmann at the LRT station a few days ago, due to my boredom, and theirs as well :D
(Don't expect for any photoshopped ones. I'm too lazy to photoshop them.)


Taken without their knowledge. But they know it after that because I laughed after taking this photo.


Moral of the photo: smiles are fake.


Right before capturing this, Li Ling asked, "Another lala photo?"


We attempted to be emo, but I failed.


Feeto! I know, I love taking pictures of feet.


Candid, really. It wasn't on purpose. Funny aye.


Kononnya terkejut.


Don't ask me.


Carl Mann: What you doing!
Yuen May: Taking photo lah.
Carl Mann: Why are you peeking at us? Some more under our skirt?
Li Ling: Yea la, I know we're too sexy for you to resist.
Yuen May: ._. I wanted to take photo from below.


Whose middle finger is that?


Another I-don't-know picture.

Labels: Friends, Random, School