you know, my previous post, somehow...they didn't show my taylor lautner and nick jonas photos! it's so bloody hurtful. is imageshack getting worst? ._.



sometimes i think really hard about myself. &its mostly all about me, myself &i. past, present &future. they make a huge gap of difference. i really don't know what to do with it anymore.

i don't feel like myself sometimes anyway. it's pretty weird because i used to feel really confident standing among people &stay happy. but now, i rather stay in a corner &isolate myself. well, not really isolate as in stay away from everything. just, i feel empty. somehow.

empty as in, lonely. even when i am surrounded with millions of people.

blogging like this reminds me of my first time reading carlmann's blog ._.



i told you i love him [:
sometimes it's best to let go than to hold on. same goes to me but, there's something stopping us from doing so. it's not that we don't want to, but we just can't.

some weeks ago, i realized that relationships are not that complicated. we make it complicated by cheating, betraying etc. btw cheating is the first thing that pops up in my head boo. relationships, as in any kinds of relationships. any.

its dumb of us for choosing the hard way but thats how life goes on.



so yes today, i woke up 2 hours late to bake my new york cheesecake for my dad and uncle's birthday.

&we went to selayang for this dinner today.

&guess what was our dishes?

they are all related to fish. i mean fish. fish soup, assam fish, steamed fish, fish meat with vegetables, &fish fritters with ice cream &fruits. i'm scared of fish already.

&way before that, while waiting for the dishes, i saw RM5 on the floor, right behind my uncle's friend's chair. i mean it's RM5. guess what i did?

i asked him whether it's his. first, it's on the floor, so it's possibly no one's but i just chose to not take the money &gave it to others ._. how dumb can i be? i didn't even see the money flying out from his pocket or anything. but still i chose to ask him ._.

i told my dad and i declared that i am dumb. he agreed to it too ._.

RM5! i can use that Rm5 to buy food, candies, snacks, whatever i want!

but still, it's not mine. that's why i didn't want to take it from the ground and say, "HEY! I FOUND RM5 ON THE GROUND. IT'S MY LUCKY DAY!" ._.

then, after dinner, i went to uncle eddy's house in gombak. i showered there, &camped there on his sofa ._. with the tv &aircond. &2 questions of math.

i still don't understand earth as a sphere! jeez.



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ohohoh i am going to name my daughter calypso, and my son davy or jones.

thanks to pirates of the caribbean. i like watching pirates of the caribbean over &over again. as in the whole pirates of the caribbean 1, 2 &3! i've watched them for the 3rd time already, if i am not mistaken.

i like watching hotel for dogs too.
sailormoon.
the wedding game.
love matters.
money no enough 1 &2.
night at the museum 1 &2.
titanic.
ah long pte ltd.
just follow law.
anything to do with takeshi kaneshiro.
&a few others.

if i am going to have a pet, i'm going to name it luna [:
luna's from sailormoon. chibiusa has a...round floating cat. and its name is luna so yes. luna it is.

some lady: oh chibichibi! the doll is cute! your baby? ^^
chibichibi: chibichibi's chibi ^^

=.=; i like her answer with that anime face of ^^

&i even learnt a little bit of japanese from sailormoon ._.


i'm getting lazy in colorify my post.
so i shall let it be in grey, or whatever default color i'm using.



whatever i want to blog about is emo. damn. thats why i have nothing to blog about. damn again.

or maybe it's me? or my thoughts are emo itself? ._.

why am i crapping so much?