Jasmine Lee and my total marks has just like...4 points difference over 6 papers! I'm freaking scared now, 'cause I'm really aiming to get top 10, or maybe...just at least, a mere number of 1 higher than Jasmine Lee. Like seriously. I haven't been studying at all, that's why I am retarded today.
Shockingly. SHOCKINGLY. I got 60 for Dying Living Skills. Can I score more worst than that, with studying? Seriously, I didn't even touch the commerce side of it. If I did, I think I could get a B. I am serious. IF I DID STUDY. Sigh. Now I regret. As for Mathematics. HECKHECKHECK! 77! 77. I mean it. I know it's not good, but, normally for Mid-Year Examination or Final Year Examination, I do them badly. Such as...my last exam. I nearly got a C for it. That's why I wish I am still in primary school, so, I can get 90+ for Mathematics. Those were days.
I am now worrying for the rest 5 papers of mine; English, Malay, Moral, Physical Education, and Science. I am wondering what will I get for them. OMG. I think I am going to grow white hairs like Jasmine. I can assure me that I wouldn't grow that much as Jasmine, 'cause I don't think about anything and stress out as much as her. She deserves for A's. Sigh. Why am I so stupid? I now owe Jane 2 Starbucks. It's better than getting low marks. Gr.
That's not all. The PMR trials are coming very soon. It's on the 13th of August, and I wonder, oh I wonder, when am I going to start studying? As I once said before, I am lazy enough to not study at all and be a pig. Yes I do mean myself. So, to those who hates me more than I do hate you, congratulations, 'cause I just called myself a pig and you'll be happy. Can I go more lame than that? Seriously, my brains, soul and mind are rusting into golden ash. Okay, like wth.
I don't feel like studying when I don't feel like it. What the heck is my problem! Why can't I be smart like...at least, Swea Mun? Or Elaine? Sigh. Life is that bad. Well, not really. I feel like jumping off a building and say bye exams.
I am feeling quite happy today, 'cause I got something from Jasmine! It's really nice. Alas, I don't need to spend my money. Yay! Finally, I got a box to fill in my things. Thanks Jasmine! I love you!
Sigh. Tomorrow I'll have to attend for classes. I don't wanna go!
And oh, I finally change my blog's skin. I think this is quite okay, but, not that okay, yet. I'm very fussy. Sigh. I feel like dying and burn my whole body. Sigh.
I wanna be smart.
Anyway, I'll post something later as I am very lazy enough to not continue.
Labels: Depression, Rants
