i wanted to blog somewhere around this week, but, i keep on putting them into drafts and i will end up not continuing the post.
i have to admit that i got a short term memory
everytime. i can't seem to remember things, including important ones.
school is becoming more stressful than usual, and we're all getting busier. maybe it's because of the spm coming up
very soon. i don't wanna get old too!
when you're older, you can't do much things anymore - giggling like small kids, etc. o-kay, now i'm missing my kindergarten times, when i get to sleep more! and no homework! ):
i think that carl mann is becoming more crappy. she craps more than usual now, and she always disturb me when lessons are on. she'll dance and make me laugh during important lessons! when the lesson is more boring than usual, she'll crap even more.
now i know why people thinks that i'm crazy =/ because i have the most fun friends by my side! and i am grateful for that! without them, i should be crying out of boredom.
i don't know what to blog about =/
warning: heavy rant (or should i say emo post?) ahead.i freak out everytime whenever i think that spm is approximately 10 months away. i can't stop thinking that i
might fail my spm. is it the paranoia again? i seem to have this kind of feeling
everytime exam is approaching. this feeling started since...form 3. i am also afraid that i will not do alright for my term 1 exam too.
i am scared if i will cry everyday like i did during form 3, thinking how stupid i am, failing papers, or wait - i didn't fail any of my core form 3 papers. i only got b's and c's, and i wasn't satisfied. although i improved in my pmr trials, i wasn't satisfied too. at that time, i got more b's than c's, so i was...relieved. not
that fully relieved, but, i was hoping for more. i admit that i didn't really study at all so i didn't really feel anything about it. form 3 was the only year i studied throughout my whole lower secondary life.
o i didn't study for my term exams during form 1 and form 2. i can still remember that jane and i bet on our results - the one who get higher than the other will have to pay for a starbuck drink. in the end we both didn't have to spend any because we were draw. if i am not mistaken, we took 11 papers at that time, and, a paper was a draw. if i am not mistaken, it was malay. yes, of
all papers.
last term i didn't really do well for my science papers, but i am satisfied with it because i tried my best. i could have passed chemistry
if i wrote the graph title for my paper 3, and didn't mistake voltaic cell as electrolytic cell, and electrolytic cell as voltaic cell. that
was my mistake! i shall pretend that i wasn't in the luck during the exam.
...i had more to say but after halfway blogging, i forgot what i wanted to say about it. talking about
more distractions. o i am easily distracted, and that is one reason why i can't do my work
perfectly.
is it me or the paranoia?
diamonds are a girl's best friend (:i've officially stopped ballet by the way. no matter how much it hurts me inside because i can't continue ballet anymore, i'll wait till the day i can step into the studio again. my dad promised me to go for ballet again after spm so i will wait for months. i know i have a...high tolerance. yes yes. i do i do.
by the time when i can step into the studio, i should be unflexible again by then. it took me months to split unperfectly but i still can! only on my right. i can't split on my left.
o-kay, i lost my mood to blog now =/ goodnight people! (:
p/s: the rant was typed out a week ago.
Labels: Miscellaneous, Rants, Thoughts
