i know it is indeed rare for me to blog during the weekdays when school's still on everyday from monday to friday, piling our homework up to the ceiling.
but i just feel like blogging.
i've so much to pour out, but i don't dare.
i used to be daring enough to pour my feelings (escpecially my rant) out easily. but now, i've to think at least 10 times whether to pour it out into my blog.
because people betray the trust i gave them until i don't even dare to tell them how i feel about something. i gave them warning about it, and they still want to read it without me forcing them, and then bitch talk about it. it gets on my nerves, you know?


i think i know how you feel. obviously most probably i won't know how you feel because, i'm not you. i might not be right, but its just a thought. &i think its a feeling of confusion, love, care, and many other types of emotions. wanting them to know and not know how you feel sincerely about them, hurts. at the same time, you want them to feel the same way how you are feeling for them. when you realize that its probably not going to happen, you'll feel like breaking down even more. be strong. don't let your tears run down your cheeks. save it for something else. obviously you can't help it but to cry your pain out, so, try as hard as possible to hold it back.

(i know we're not close, but, as a friend, i should do something. even if i fail to, i'll still try. i'm sorry if it's not as what's going on to you right now.)


Have some alcohol, to forget your pain.
Not.
anyway, i shall leave blogger.com and go back to microsoft office to finish up my malay oral script and add maths distribution table.

goodnight, people (:

Labels: Depression, Rants, Thoughts