i don't know why this is happening to me. the only one who knows is Him.


Miss Hiew, i promise that i will go back there next year. you will guide me throughout the rest of the grades i'll be taking in the future.

i went back to Jean Gan Connaught Branch today to collect my results slip.

when i walked up the stairs, tears started to run down my cheek. i miss ballet so much. i miss Miss Hiew's pms-es when i screw up something.

i went to Studio B, where my previous classes used to be, and waited for Jia Xin. i then saw Beverly and we waved at each other like nutcases. then after for awhile, Miss Hiew knocked the glass window, asking me to go in. she asked, "why didn't you come in and take your cert?"

my reason was, "i'm waiting for Jia Xin."

then she told me things about Jia Xin, which i don't want to say it out here.

anyway, Loh Jia Xin, i'll be right here, supporting you! don't ever give up. i have faith in you. you can do it. i know you can.



He knows why i can pass ._.

i am freaking serious. i thought i will fail when i took the exam, because i do so badly everytime. i can still remember the time i stepped into the exam room. i was sweating, because i thought i will fail. and yet, i still boost a little of my confidence, to make sure i pass. i don't want to waste my dad's money! the stupid exam costed more than a 300 bucks malaysian.

and oh, i passed by 2 marks! (:





blame Miss Heather Fish. she's the strictest examiner i've ever met.

i only got 4 out of 10 points for pointe, and batterie. why must ISTD syllabus be so hard?

i swear, that i will never take ISTD ever again. i'm switching into RAD when i restart ballet next year. i am so going to take Intermediate, and pass it!

oh by the way, i'm 1 of the lucky 2 who passed.

God loves me, and He loves you too (:

Labels: Ballet

I stepped in, feeling anxious and confident, stepped out laughing at myself. Gosh, I screwed up my variation and grand allegro. Miss Hiew told me not to be too nervous before stepping in. Darn it man, Miss Fish asked us to do solos too. Reow. Solos as in, doing it by yourself.

Thank God that the freework weren't that hard as I thought. Miss Tong told Miss Hiew that it's harder. I've no idea.

Whatever it is, it's all gone!

Now, back to school results.


"Stop following him like his shadow."
"I wish I could stop."

I passed Physics. Carl Mann is happy. I am happy. We're both happy. So far, I've gotten back my Add Math, Math, History and EST papers. Reow. I passed all of it. Lalalala.









why must you ignore me like this?

I use icons to express myself. I'm not good at expressing myself through words, so I use pictures. If you're wondering how I got all these, I'll tell you now.

Go to xanga.com, then click blogrings. Then you can see this search bar on that page then type in icons. Blogrings is something like groups. So yeah. Just click on the first group then go to that person's profile and walla, go and copy &paste.

Wonders of Xanga.

Labels: Ballet, School, Thoughts

WARNING: EMO POST AHEAD.

I'm feeling down nowadays.
My instinct is telling me that something bad is coming up.
Maybe it's the exams.
Oh well.


Do you know that you're that addictive?

Su Ann is going to migrate to Melbourne for good. Yes, that means no more ballet buddy for the rest of my life. I won't be seeing her for ballet (not forgetting school too) after the exam anymore. Why is this bringing me down so badly? Is it because of the bond we built? I can say I am quite close to her. Well, not that close.

Jasmine Tan, if you're seeing this, I want to tell you that we're not going to travel so far for our exams! Say "I LOVE YOU" to Miss Fish who agreed to come to Cheras to examine the 5 of us on the 24th of October. You'll be the first with Jia Xin who'll enter the exam room first! Good luck to you and Jia Xin! =D
And after that, of course it'll be Ge Li, Su Ann and I.
Damn, that's scary.
After the exams, after December, I won't be stepping into the ballet studio with bun tied up neatly, navy spaghetti-leotard, tights and navy belt that teacher wants us to wear it everytime anymore. I'm going to miss you guys, and I hope we'll not lost in contact.

Nowadays, it's hard to keep in touch, no? Frankly, I've forgotten half of my previous schoolmates now. Not to deny that I've short term memory.


Why is this so hard?

I've not completed my holidays homework.
Waiting to die.
Waiting to get murdered by the principal.


What for, when they don't even look at you? (U)

I'm trying to go on a hiatus so hard but I eventually fail to.

I don't know what I want to do or I'm doing, really.


Commentless.
About everything.

Time flies.
A week ago, I was feeling so relieved because I get to rest and now, I'm under higher pressure because exams is coming up in less than a week. Oh, that's for EST and Civics, if I am not mistaken.
I'm getting lazier in going back to school. I don't want to face stress anymore. I'm not sick of it, but, I'm feeling as if I'm dying soon.
I don't think I can make it through Form 4, so, if I really do leave, goodbye.
I just...don't want to leave, that's why. I took so long to get used to WMS, and if I leave now, wouldn't it be a waste? And, I've finally found friends here, and I don't want to leave them that early. I'll miss them, more than I missed my previous school friends. I'll miss them more because they helped me a lot in getting used to this place. I really don't know what I'm thinking either.
And, I'm not ready, yet.


Dammit.
It's time to move on.

Labels: Ballet, Complains, Dear Diary, Depression, Rants

It's confirmed. I'll have to go to Jean Gan at Phileo Damansara on the 22nd/23rd/24th October, which is like right after the school exams for my ballet exam. Wish me luck people! I'm afraid if I'll screw up my freework again. I don't really like freework. I think Jia Xin is right. We have to pay 100% attention at what the teacher/examiner wants. And my examiner is...

Miss Heather Fish.

Su Ann, Jia Xin, Ge Li, Jasmine Tan and I laughed our butts off when Miss Hiew told us our examiner's name. The last time I took my ballet exam was in the year 2003. I took my Grade 3 exam at that time, I think? Now, I'm taking Interfound. Gosh, with more freeworks and according to Miss Hiew, Miss Fish has high expections on major graded students. I shall not cry when I see my ballet exam results slip.

Sometimes, I regret choosing the ISTD syllabus rather than the RAD syllabus. RAD Inter is like...way easier than ISTD Interfound. I only realized that when Miss Hiew started teaching us some RAD Inter work. Sigh. What is done is done. Corliss said I shouldn't regret.

So, I think I should prepare for the worst.

I need more luck than a little bit.
Really.

Labels: Ballet

I got frustrated during ballet today. Yes, it's that same ol' freaking freework. According to Jia Xin, I'll always get frustrated after teacher gives a set of new freework. Thanks to Jasmine Tan, Su Ann, Jia Xin, Ge Li & Wei Vern for encouraging me. Gosh, I Y them.

Seriously, I love Jia Xin most.

Yuenmay - amazinglove; says:
and im not going tomorrow

JIA XIN- i love you just as who you are♥ says:
y

Yuenmay - amazinglove; says:
going to genting

JIA XIN- i love you just as who you are♥ says:
again

Yuenmay - amazinglove; says:
where got again

JIA XIN- i love you just as who you are♥ says:
last time u also go to genting

Yuenmay - amazinglove; says:
where got
dont simply say

JIA XIN- i love you just as who you are♥ says:
i din simply sa y

Yuenmay - amazinglove; says:
you did
you are

=]
JIA XIN- i love you just as who you are♥ says:
i remember got one time u said u went to genting

Yuenmay - amazinglove; says:
im blogging about you.
WHERE GOT

JIA XIN- i love you just as who you are♥ says:
wadever
yeah !

I'll be away from home for a night, a day in school. I'll be going back to school on Tuesday.

Heck, I feel very much like an Ah Long now. Dang. So much of a treasurer.

I didn't collect money for the past few months, like, really.
I didn't want to chase after them because I feel bad ._.

Gosh, attention to whoever from 4C who reads my blog: please bring cash on Tuesday to make your payment (wah, high class eh!). RM2 per month. You've to pay RM20 per year, actually. Calculate that yourself yo! From January to October. Dang. Please pay up by 31st October, ok?

Please, & lots of thanks.

Goodnight people.
I've nothing to say today.
I'm just feeling uber down, heartless and lifeless.

Labels: Ballet, Depression, Friends

Gosh, my butt hurts today.
Thanks to racussi yesterday.
Yep, my class did intermediate work yesterday. And Miss Hiew explained the difference between RAD and ISTD. Wei Vern was like, "Miss Hiew, why is it easier than ours, when we're a grade lower?"

She answered, "RAD is easier than ISTD because ISTD got a lot of freework."

Yes, I suck at freework.

Saying goodbye to distinction I guess?

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After being bored for a super long time, AsianFanatics Forum popped up in my head again. Gosh, it has been like...a few months since I last logged into that forum. I don't know whether I'm still the don't-know-what trial. Dang.

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Tomorrow's Monday again! Gosh, will be studying History, Malay, Mod Maths, Add Maths, English, ICT, Biology, Chemistry. (Bolded ones are boring! Okay, not that boring. It's that...I feel sleepy whenever it's time for those.)

&&&. Corliss' not coming tomorrow?

Okay, I'm thoughtless now. *drops dead*

Will update soon when I have things to say.

Labels: Ballet, Dear Diary, Depression, Thoughts